Lost
Master Don Juan
There are two issues( in the topic ) i would like to adress, and also find some sort of solution to:
Ok lets start with Loss of Heart. Well this one is pretty self explanatory. I know when i first came to this site almost 3 years ago, i seemed to have a lot of heart. I always tried to think by high standards, and i was sort of hard on myself.. but i think for the better. I dont know what it is, but it seems to have dissappeared.
The second issue: Loss of desire. Maybe since senior year... but atleast by the end of senior year up through now and it hasnt stopped... i dont seem to have any desire for women. I have the desire to have a desire for women (i.e. i want to have a desire for women), but it just doesnt seem to be there. I remember during the summer i would go surfing every day(now i live in ****ing arkansas D:<) and when id pass by chicks, they never really crossed my mind. I dont know what it was. I really dont believe im gay or anything, but i just dont seem to have a desire for women. I noticed sometimes when i would look at porn, i might be interested in banging the chick in the video, but in real life i didnt seem to have much of a desire for that. At one point i thought maybe that i only liked chicks when they used to think i was hot a couple eyars back, but i dont think thats the case. I think its just that i straight up dont have the desire anymore. What the f*ck is up?
Even during the summer i would say, hey this is a nice lifestyle, goin to the beach everyday and surfin my brains out.. but i dont feel quite content since i dont have a woman, but then again i didnt seem to have a desire to get one.
A couple years ago i would try those no masturbation things.. and they seemed to work and make me real horny for women. But now it doesnt do jack ****.
Ok so the question is why i have i lost these 2 qualities/ideas/whatever u call them, and how can i get them back/ what should i do??
Ok lets start with Loss of Heart. Well this one is pretty self explanatory. I know when i first came to this site almost 3 years ago, i seemed to have a lot of heart. I always tried to think by high standards, and i was sort of hard on myself.. but i think for the better. I dont know what it is, but it seems to have dissappeared.
The second issue: Loss of desire. Maybe since senior year... but atleast by the end of senior year up through now and it hasnt stopped... i dont seem to have any desire for women. I have the desire to have a desire for women (i.e. i want to have a desire for women), but it just doesnt seem to be there. I remember during the summer i would go surfing every day(now i live in ****ing arkansas D:<) and when id pass by chicks, they never really crossed my mind. I dont know what it was. I really dont believe im gay or anything, but i just dont seem to have a desire for women. I noticed sometimes when i would look at porn, i might be interested in banging the chick in the video, but in real life i didnt seem to have much of a desire for that. At one point i thought maybe that i only liked chicks when they used to think i was hot a couple eyars back, but i dont think thats the case. I think its just that i straight up dont have the desire anymore. What the f*ck is up?
Even during the summer i would say, hey this is a nice lifestyle, goin to the beach everyday and surfin my brains out.. but i dont feel quite content since i dont have a woman, but then again i didnt seem to have a desire to get one.
A couple years ago i would try those no masturbation things.. and they seemed to work and make me real horny for women. But now it doesnt do jack ****.
Ok so the question is why i have i lost these 2 qualities/ideas/whatever u call them, and how can i get them back/ what should i do??
