I feel unmotivated and depressed. i think im sinking back to my loner stage.
about a year ago i was positive as **** and higly motivated, joined a gym(hit the gym 2-3x a week), dressed well, gained 15lbs of muscle, found a part time job, meeting people & making friends/acquantances. got my license. Applied for Disney Internship @ florida (im sure most of u know this), but got rejected. But before all this i wasnt too social and was a big loner.
Then slowly everything is falling apart on me throughout this year.
what things you ask?
well over the summer i've lost weight 5lbs.
now i weigh 125lb @ 5'10"
My job eventually got easy and too comfortable (at times it gets boring there)
The group of friends i hung out with since h.s. (we usually hang out on fridays), i stopped talkign to them, why u ask?? well #1 theyre big AFC's and never try anything new which im usually up for, plus there's this one dude i nthe group who kept trying to put me down by saying random **** about me every so often, they do the same stuff all the time and i dont have anything in common to talk to them about, neither do they. now i wear the same clothes all the time. and some other friends i met throughout school, i dont hang out with them anymore, but did a couple times in the past.
this is now:
I hit the gym 1x a week and thats on friday cuz i aint got **** to do, and honeslty i practically dont have much of a social life. Except each weekend i head out to the park and play soccer.
I still have one good friend i met last year( he's 25), usualy he's not up for hanging out, but drinks yes. If i was legally able to go drinking he'd ask me to go. but i have been at bars a few times so far with the soccer pppl. The several ppl i have played pool with (including my friend) they usually dont want to play with me again cuz my skill level is higher.
Anyway what triggered this is, today after today's soccer game, these 2 dudes as usual are ranting about themselves to these 2 other girls, talkin about how ****in drunk they got and **** and themz going drinking, partying all the time. Most of the soccer players are from mid to late 20's and older. I dont have much to talk about to them, cause my social life sucks, and nothing new is really happening in my life, same old ****.
So after the game i just went to the pool hall and played solo, which is probably my first time ever.
now my life mostly consists of school, work, gym. TV after i get home. and soccer weekends.
I'm feeling like an old man, and sinking back into a stage of being a loner. I dont even talk to girls as much as i used to, it's been a long time since i asked a girl out. the gym thing, im trying to get back on track, by eating more daily and try to sleep earlier.
Plus making friends hasnt been easy for me lately, asking them shows desperation, and there's only limited stuff i could probably go do with them, usually nowadays no one has the time to do anything, or they might not want a friend.
Funny thing is when i got home, this thought popped into my head: me going to europe next year, to see more of the world, once i complete my associates. (im not really certain if i want to go on to my bachelors.)
any of you have had something similar happen, and how you got out of it?? possibly visiting some other continent cured you?
about a year ago i was positive as **** and higly motivated, joined a gym(hit the gym 2-3x a week), dressed well, gained 15lbs of muscle, found a part time job, meeting people & making friends/acquantances. got my license. Applied for Disney Internship @ florida (im sure most of u know this), but got rejected. But before all this i wasnt too social and was a big loner.
Then slowly everything is falling apart on me throughout this year.
what things you ask?
well over the summer i've lost weight 5lbs.
now i weigh 125lb @ 5'10"
My job eventually got easy and too comfortable (at times it gets boring there)
The group of friends i hung out with since h.s. (we usually hang out on fridays), i stopped talkign to them, why u ask?? well #1 theyre big AFC's and never try anything new which im usually up for, plus there's this one dude i nthe group who kept trying to put me down by saying random **** about me every so often, they do the same stuff all the time and i dont have anything in common to talk to them about, neither do they. now i wear the same clothes all the time. and some other friends i met throughout school, i dont hang out with them anymore, but did a couple times in the past.
this is now:
I hit the gym 1x a week and thats on friday cuz i aint got **** to do, and honeslty i practically dont have much of a social life. Except each weekend i head out to the park and play soccer.
I still have one good friend i met last year( he's 25), usualy he's not up for hanging out, but drinks yes. If i was legally able to go drinking he'd ask me to go. but i have been at bars a few times so far with the soccer pppl. The several ppl i have played pool with (including my friend) they usually dont want to play with me again cuz my skill level is higher.
Anyway what triggered this is, today after today's soccer game, these 2 dudes as usual are ranting about themselves to these 2 other girls, talkin about how ****in drunk they got and **** and themz going drinking, partying all the time. Most of the soccer players are from mid to late 20's and older. I dont have much to talk about to them, cause my social life sucks, and nothing new is really happening in my life, same old ****.
So after the game i just went to the pool hall and played solo, which is probably my first time ever.
now my life mostly consists of school, work, gym. TV after i get home. and soccer weekends.
I'm feeling like an old man, and sinking back into a stage of being a loner. I dont even talk to girls as much as i used to, it's been a long time since i asked a girl out. the gym thing, im trying to get back on track, by eating more daily and try to sleep earlier.
Plus making friends hasnt been easy for me lately, asking them shows desperation, and there's only limited stuff i could probably go do with them, usually nowadays no one has the time to do anything, or they might not want a friend.
Funny thing is when i got home, this thought popped into my head: me going to europe next year, to see more of the world, once i complete my associates. (im not really certain if i want to go on to my bachelors.)
any of you have had something similar happen, and how you got out of it?? possibly visiting some other continent cured you?
