MacAvoy
Banned
First off, I'm extremely happy with where I am in life. At xmas I moved back into my grandparents old house and I truly enjoy my lifestyle. I enjoy having to chop wood & having to make fire to keep warm. I've enjoyed getting back to the simple things, going ice fishing, smelt fishing, making maple syrup.
More less getting back to the basics of life. I've also losted 20 pounds since I weighed myself last fall.
Secondly I immensely enjoy being back around my family. First and foremost is my daughter and the reason why I moved back home. I've always been extremely close to her so living in Halifax for 2 years was a strain. So when I had her last summer months in Halifax, I promised I would move home back by xmas. Now I've also gotten to spend alot of time with family who are basically my best friends. We are a tight nit group.
Now to the other side. It's a small town and I've already been here for 5+ years of my adult life. My reputation and connections allow me to pretty much print money. However there is no challenge left for me. I've built this reputation and I'm bored, its also a reason why I left, to chase bigger & better dreams.
The second part of the dilemna is women, its a small rural town and as a result, the women who are worth their weight in salt, also tend to leave to chase bigger & better dreams. They typically don't come back until they're successful in life (& OLD).
So I basically committed to my daughter to live here for at least one year. It would be easy to say take your daughter with you but I don't want her to grow up without the same strong & tight family network that made me the person that I am. Granted my parents were the most influential people in my life but I can't deny how influential the rest of my family was. They are all different people and have different things to offer.
But I'm lacking that challenge in my career. These career challenges have always kept me mentally sharp. I also miss having a quality women to spend time with. I've got enough women around here to satisfy me sexually but for the most part I've got no interest in starting something that (A) I'm not going to finish or (B) with a women who doesn't meet all of my standards.
As a result I find myself reminescing about my ex's. Now I know that I don't have a future with any of them, but I find myself thinking about their good qualities and how I miss those. How a women can challenge me, keep me on my toes.
Again there is that challenge theme, I don't deny it, I've always embraced it. Its the reason for my sig, it represents who I am. Its the reason why Tin Cup (McAvoy) is one of my favourite movie characters because I see myself in him.
So on one hand, I've got these great reasons why I'm here but I miss the greener grass on the other side. I remember years ago wishing I could be like the simple rural people, satisfied with their life (I know they are not really satisfied but they are content with their lifestyle). I'm relatively young and I still want to travel more, I still want to be challenged. The problem is I'd bury myself alive to prove I could handle a shovel.
Any pointers guys?
More less getting back to the basics of life. I've also losted 20 pounds since I weighed myself last fall.
Secondly I immensely enjoy being back around my family. First and foremost is my daughter and the reason why I moved back home. I've always been extremely close to her so living in Halifax for 2 years was a strain. So when I had her last summer months in Halifax, I promised I would move home back by xmas. Now I've also gotten to spend alot of time with family who are basically my best friends. We are a tight nit group.
Now to the other side. It's a small town and I've already been here for 5+ years of my adult life. My reputation and connections allow me to pretty much print money. However there is no challenge left for me. I've built this reputation and I'm bored, its also a reason why I left, to chase bigger & better dreams.
The second part of the dilemna is women, its a small rural town and as a result, the women who are worth their weight in salt, also tend to leave to chase bigger & better dreams. They typically don't come back until they're successful in life (& OLD).
So I basically committed to my daughter to live here for at least one year. It would be easy to say take your daughter with you but I don't want her to grow up without the same strong & tight family network that made me the person that I am. Granted my parents were the most influential people in my life but I can't deny how influential the rest of my family was. They are all different people and have different things to offer.
But I'm lacking that challenge in my career. These career challenges have always kept me mentally sharp. I also miss having a quality women to spend time with. I've got enough women around here to satisfy me sexually but for the most part I've got no interest in starting something that (A) I'm not going to finish or (B) with a women who doesn't meet all of my standards.
As a result I find myself reminescing about my ex's. Now I know that I don't have a future with any of them, but I find myself thinking about their good qualities and how I miss those. How a women can challenge me, keep me on my toes.
Again there is that challenge theme, I don't deny it, I've always embraced it. Its the reason for my sig, it represents who I am. Its the reason why Tin Cup (McAvoy) is one of my favourite movie characters because I see myself in him.
So on one hand, I've got these great reasons why I'm here but I miss the greener grass on the other side. I remember years ago wishing I could be like the simple rural people, satisfied with their life (I know they are not really satisfied but they are content with their lifestyle). I'm relatively young and I still want to travel more, I still want to be challenged. The problem is I'd bury myself alive to prove I could handle a shovel.
Any pointers guys?
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