Kick Out The Jams! Gravityeyelid's Journal

[gravityeyelids]

Alright so i thought i'd make an actual journal to help me to keep getting out there and get results. I recently broke up with my GF (about a year long relationship), about 3 or so weeks ago. Was a great relationship, very loving and stress-free and we both had a fantastic time with each other. But she's moving away and graduating so we mutually agreed to split. I don't do long distance relationships, and i'm not going to change my career/life to accommodate a girl, regardless of how much I love her.

This was my first LTR. And while i wasn't sad approaching our breakup, I knew it was coming and was nervous because i've seen people take it really hard. And I really got on with this girl, so I figured i'd be heartbroken. Nonetheless, i vowed to get out there immediately and start meeting girls again. So the last day we saw each other, it was hard, tears were shed, and we parted ways.

I woke up the next morning.....and I was FINE. I felt nothing. A little sad, but nonplussed for the most part. Waited another day, figured it would start to get bad. Nothing. A week. Nothing. Three weeks. I'm fine. Maybe i'm more emotionally detached than I thought. Dont know whether that's a good thing or bad.

So i started going out again and meeting girls. IM SINGLE MUTHAPHUCKKAAASSS. I was a little rusty at first, but i'm starting to "kick out the jams" after being in a relationship for so long, and my inner DJ is coming back to me.

First real bar night i went out....lame. I was all psyched up to go because a bunch of people i went to high school were getting back together , including a bunch of good looking girls.

Bars are weird for me. I dont know how you all feel, but for me it can be very intimidating at bars, and i hate trying to game there. I'm pretty shy, but can be somewhat social if i'm feeling good. But still, it only seems like bars work well if i know a bunch of people (girls) there already, and then meet their friends, etc. It's very hard to do direct approaches. Girls seem to have their guards way up from being hit on by dbags all night, and it's hard to open groups of people because while they're social, they still seem to be closed off and only socializing with people they already know. Anyway, i really only talked to the people i knew already, flirted a bit with the girls, good kino on my part. But i really had no balls, and didnt try to make anything happen or meet new girls. This is a problem that I will have to work on....

Anyway...on to my first real Field Report

FR#1 - New Years Eve - makeouts and fooling around. I'm BACK.

So i was all amped to go out for new years, my buddy said his friend was coming up with like 4 girls and they were all going to this apartment party downtown. So we start pre-drinking at my buddy's house (only guys) so im getting ansy because it's getting close to midnight and i want a damn midnight kiss. So we get downtown at like 10 mins to midnight and it's packed. We're standing around talking and before i know it, theres like two minutes to midnight, so i grab my buddy and say "cmon we gotta find girls". We walk around and i see this group of like 3 average girls (there might have been a guy there too, **** if i care). I go up to this blonde HB7, haha and just say "hey, my name is____" with like 15 seconds to go, she tells me her name. Everyone starts counting down, i just look at her and then move in and makeout at midnight. She wasnt smoking but screw it, not the worst way to start the night. So now i'm warmed up.

We walk around and it's cold so we go to buffalo wild wings. We're waiting in line and this cute girl comes up and cuts in front and i go
"hey, whoa..no cutting there!",
she goes "my friend really really has to pee, can we go? unless you want her to piss her pants".
So i go "yea, whatever, do what you gotta do" as she's walking in the door, she goes "i'll buy you a shot once we pee"
I say something like "yea right, i dont believe you"
She goes "no, really. I will find you and buy you a drink".
They go in, we get in soon after, we go piss, and i'm kind of looking out for these girls but im not holding my breath. Me and my 2 guy friends go up to the bar, grab a beer, drink it, and leave. Never saw the girls, didn't really care.

So we get to this nice apartment complex, get into this party. Not too crowded, maybe like 20 or 30 people, but a fun crowd and everyone is pretty trashed. I'm half-drunk at this point, at a perfect level to be fun and social. I feel good. I immediately start introducing myself to the guys that live there, go around gaming the guys a bit, offering them shots, getting on their good side so the girls can see im well liked. I should mention at this point that my buddies and I decided to dress formal, so I look GOOD. Black shiny shoes, black socks, crisp black pants, leather belt, Button down, black and white tie, black peacoat. I have girls opening me.

Like right after i had walked into the party I see this HB7 with a crown (we'll call her Lacy), and open her with "hey, what's with the crown? are you a princess or something?" she goes "No! It's my birthday!" smiling at me and giving me the eyes like she wants to bang my brains out. Shes meh looking but not bad. My buddy, being an awesome wing man, is with us and goes "you should get a birthday kiss from him" so without hesitation BOOM we're making out. Things get a little foggy, i got a bit more drunk at this point. But i talked with her a bit. I kinda wanted to find a better looking chick, but i put in my time with her. She actually was giving me her number at one point, saying "we should exchange numbers". I've actually had this happen a couple times, with chicks that know i'm out of their league. I would never date these girls, but i'd probably bang them, so i'm usually like "okay whatever".

The Lacy girl, i was talking to later, up against a wall. She whispers "i want birthday sex" in my ear. Very direct. I like that. I tried to figure out logistics...I didn't wanna bang in the bathroom, because there wasn't a lot of people there, and contstantly people coming in and out. We couldn't go back to her place, and i didn't wanna leave yet because i knew i had better options. I started hitting on other girls and Lacy started getting visibly jealous, but i wasnt really interested in her anymore.

Blah, blah, night goes on, im pretty social, i think I was doing pretty well, just chatting girls up. A NOTE ON HOUSE PARTIES. This is my *&%^. House party game is where I excel. Girls are much more open and have their defenses down, because unless its a frat house, they feel relatively comfortable, the implication being that everyone knows someone there. And indeed, this is a great way to open girls at parties. Just go "So how do you know (the guy that lives here)?" BOOM! instant conversation. I always feel kind of awkward and intimidated at bars, but house parties I can really relax, talk these girls up, kino and makeout without them getting scared off or whatever.

So at one point there's cute kinda hippy looking girl (HB7.5) we'll call her Cassie. She's sitting on the bed in one of the bedrooms with the door open talking to her friend or whatever, so i pop in and start talking, i dont remember what about. Probably introduced myself and made standard small talk. I could tell she's interested. One funny thing: her friends kept gaming hard for me, probably because i was dressed so nice and good looking and friendly to everyone at the party. They would keep leaving the room with just us two in it and closing the door behind them.

Things are kind of blurry, but i remember i tried to go for makeout, she turned away, whatever, i wasn't fazed, just backed off a bit and powered through it like it was no big deal. I remember at some point she gave me some sort of sh!t test. Or maybe i forgot her name (I ALWAYS DO THIS WHEN DRINKING....ITS TERRIBLE). Either way i said i was gonna walk out and she was like "ok then do it". and so i walked right out like a boss and went back to having a good time with other people. I could tell she found this pulling away very attractive because she was kind of surpised and i saw her looking at me a couple times after at the party.

So i go up to her again later on cause shes still giving me puppy dog eyes. and I don't remember what happened, but i was relatively charming. Tried to make out, she didnt let me. Tried again and she submitted. (We weren't completely isolated, but kind of. Kind of in the hallway out of earshot of other people who were partying. Far enough away so that she wouldnt feel like a S!ut making out with a random dude. I wasnt trying to force myself on her. I was persistent but respectful.) She started opening up to me. My friends were going to leave and they said (as I was talking to her) "yo dude, we're going are you coming?" I could tell she wanted me to stay, so I was direct and said "hey i'm gonna bounce unless you want me to stay. Can I crash with you here?". for some reason i thought that she lived at the apartments...i was drunk so kind of sloppy, but turns out she just knew the people there. She timidly nods her head yes, and boom i'm in! We keep partying, talking with her. She's pretty closed off, hinting that she had been hurt before, and i use this to my advantage to connect with her. Telling her i'm a pretty closed off person and that I have a shell that it's hard for girls to break through (which is true). She really digs this and starts to really open up to me and get touchy feely.

 

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So the night winds down and we're crashing on this couch in the living room, spooning. We have a blanket over us, and I keep trying to work my hand in her pants to touch her carefully. But there are people in the room so she says to wait, but i know she digs me. SO eventually it winds down and we have some bit of privacy, so we're making out, fooling around a bit. I put her hand on my johnson, and she keeps playing with me. I'm playing with her, fingering her and shes just dripping wet. She keeps saying stuff like "You're too smooth" and "do you do this with a lot of girls", which i playfully deflect. I can tell shes unexperienced. And she wants to bang but wont, saying the standard "i hardly know you". To which i respond "you know, you're right, i don't want to make you do anything you don't want to". I back off a bit, and then push forward again, saying stuff like "this is baad...we should be doing this" "this is naughty". She is just eating this up. I keep trying, and even go down on her. SIDE NOTE: she had the most delicious tasting pu**y i have ever tasted. Most of the time i just bear it because girls dont usually taste great. But honestly she tasted sweet and delicious and i loved giving her pleasure.

At one point i tell her "you should go down on me". I have learned that this is a brilliant move. Just ask (actually tell) them to do it. It conveys that you're comfortable enough and straightforward to ask them point blank. I've been told that this is very attractive by girls. My ex said that she liked that I communicated with her and told her. Some of the banging HB10's and stuff will probably be bold enough to just go down on you, but it never hurts to ask. Anyway, i asked her right after i went down on her, and she said something like "oh i see how it is...", then said "okay, but promise me something... I won't just be a one-night girl". I said okay.

I could tell she really wasn't gonna bang that night. I was pushing pretty hard so i backed off. I found out that she had only been with 2 guys. I could tell she would be kind of clingy. She hinted that she didn't really enjoy her times having sex, and i didn't want to push but it seemed like she might have gotten abused or something (which i know is a red flag), but at the same time, i was askin her what happened and she played it down like "honestly, it's not as a big a deal as i'm making it". Plus she kept saying she wanted to bang me but couldnt. She was giving me mad interest and it was way too easy...

She has been practically begging me to hang out with her. I go back to school at the end of the week and she wants to hang out before than. She's been texting me stuff like "was a very good new years eve mhmm" and " i'd love to see you before you go backkk". She's borderline too clingy and i can tell when something is too easy and if she would've kept texting me relentlessly i probably would blow her off for risk of getting a clinger. at the same time though, i'm very attractive, in shape, was dressed nice, and ran great game on her, so she probably wasn't used to being blown away by a Don-Muthaphuckkin-Juan... But i'll take her out later this week. She just seems unexperienced... I was thinking we go to the hookah bar or this punk band concert. but i have no idea how to bang her seeing as we're both staying home at our parents' house for the holiday break....It's cold outside so its not like i can go to a park, and car sex is f***ing lame (and i have a blown disc in my back so it hurts). Any ideas for where i can bang her!??!


I realize these girls are meh, and I do need to step up my game and start going for HB8's and 9's. This one girl is cute though. Very decent face. Relatively in shape body, no real boobs, but a nice tight little ass (i'm a butt guy, so that's fine). But at the same time i have friends (who have no game) who do the thing where every girl is below their standards....BUT they won't even approach the 10's who apparently meet their standards. and as i tell them, "if you cant even pull 7's consistantly, why are you only interested in 10's". So i'm gonna warm my way back into this with 7's and move up once i work out the kinks..Pretty happy with this night. Just gonna keep this girl at arms' length. Try to sleep with

COMMENTS? CONCERNS? CRITIQUES?

 

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Forgot to mention that a few weeks ago was my first real bar night out after being newly single. Pretty alright night, for being my first sarging in a while. so we'll call this FR:

FR #0 - Working out the rustiness

First set of the night go blown out big time. Grabbed my buddies, walked up to these two HB7/HB8, i think i tried to do the How I met Your Mother "haave you met ___" I introduced my buddy as an astronaut. I expected him to back me up because he's pretty much a compulsive liar and can say the most rediculous things, especially when drunk. But he just kind of stood there and every one looked at me to keep the conversation going, and I had nothing....the girls were just looking at me like WTF. i knew it was done so we ejected. Whatever. Rejecting doesnt bug me much anymore. Glad i got the painful set out of the way, so i could actually make good sets this night.

I see this HB8 eyeing me from like 6 feet away and i pretend to ignore her. She walks around us and leans up against a railing talking to her friends but shes still almost staring me down. It would have been creepy if she wasnt kind of hot. I turn to my guys and go "follow me". I walk right up to her smoothly, and say "you know it's rude to stare". She kind of blushes and looks slightly embarassed and goes "im sorry...I'm ____ by the way". I introduce myself, while my friends game her friends and IT'S ON. Good convo, teasing her a bit. Good kino. She mentioned something about her hair being died so i reach up and play with her bangs a little, brushing em over her ears, which she is liking. She mentions that shes not having a great night because her ex-BF is there. While im talking to her, i see this guy creeping on us, just kind of looking and it seemed like this was the ex-BF. He was in a tight tee shirt, but i was probably bigger than him, either way i wasnt intimidated. I just kind of ignore him, and he hangs around like 6 feet away (the bar is crowded). I eventually break off with this girl and start talking to another group. and sure enough, right after i stop talking to HB8, he swoops in, pulls her aside and within a couple of minutes they're making out a little ways away. I was like whatever, i'm not gonna start sh!t with this guy over some chick i just met and havent even made out with. I've got more fish to fry. I start talking to this HB7, and her annoying friends. Me and her start to hit it off, but this *****y friend i can tell is going to be a huge ****block. I try to be friendly to her but she's got this attitude (the friend, not HB7). Shes like hanging around, watching her friend. I tell HB7, "cmon we're gonna go dance" because half the bar is like a club type thing with a dancefloor. She just got out of a three year relationship so she was like "i'm not used to this" and resisting, but i grabbed her hand anyway and started walking towards the dance floor. We get out there, start grinding and after a few mins i turn her around and makeout. Her damn friend followed us and is sitting on the side just watching and trying to ****block like pulling my arm as im trying to lead HB7 to a couch or whatever to talk. We're making out against this pillar thing. I can tell she digs me so i say "where are you staying tonight?" Blah blah, i dont remember where she said. but i go "alright, i guess i can come back with you and cuddle if you promise to keep your hands to yourself." She goes" i dont think you just want to cuddle." I go "no, for real, you're not getting in my pants. I actually enjoy cuddling more than sex." I KNOW these arent the best lines...no lecture guys. And i funk it up the same damn way i do everytime im drinking. I FORGET HER DAMN NAME. This always happens, im so absent minded. I do what i usually do. we agree to exchange numbers. I hand her my phone with the New Contact Page pulled up and ready, with the Name portion blank, leaving it for her to fill in. THIS USUALLY WORKS. Regardless if i remember their names or not. She looks at it and goes "what's my name?". I spit some joking, random name back because i know i'm sunk. "Charles". She doesnt think it's very amusing. "If you don't remember my name im not giving you my number. Sh!t. I look at her for like 10 seconds hoping it comes to me, but i know i'm sunk and so does she. "I have no idea." I grab my phone, say "See ya later" and walk away.

Unfortunately by this time it's last call and so i'm like...damn. i wasted my whole night on this chick, i should have moved on at the first sign of trouble. Oh well...live and learn. Like i said i'm rusty.

Right before we leave this HB6 chats me up, who im not really interested in (skinny, short hair,not real cute, but passable). She keeps smelling my neck because i have La Nuit De L'homme on, which is FANTASTIC. I'm big into fragrances and colognes, and this is an absolute lady killer. Buy this, guys. Great night out fragrance. She says we should exchange numbers, so i'm like okay...Kind of hints that she lives nearby...but honestly i don't think i couldve gotten hard for her, and i dont wanna sell myself short. So we go back to my buddy's house and crash

 

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FR #2 - Punk Show

So i was sitting around yesterday and remembered my brother had told me about this punk show at one of the local venues. I wasn't sure whether i wanted to go or not. I liked the band (although i hadn't listened to much of their stuff), and i love the venue they're playing at. But i was kind of tired and didn't want to spend any more money. But then i thought 'i should really take every opportunity to go out and be social that i can. I'm a shy person by nature, even though i'm very confident and secure.' So i decided to go. Got a half pint of some bourbon and an energy drink, which i was doing shots of on the way there to loosen up. I know, i know...don't drink and game. But my primary objective was just to go out and have a good time rather than meet girls. Which i believe is a very good thing, because it makes me less needy. Yes,i can get sloppy when drinking, but i can also be hilarious and talkative.

Anyway, it's me, my brother, and two of his friends whom i know decently well. They're all two years older than me. I also tell my friend to meet me there. We get there and i'm pretty buzzed, but feeling good. We run into like 3 or 4 guys i went to high school with, and they're all two years younger than me but whatever. So we all start talking and i'm being real social, introducing myself and having fun. We're waiting in the bar area outside the actual concert room, just standing around. There's not many people. I'm talking to my friend, and I see this BANGING blonde girl walk behind him and keep going to another area of the venue. This girl was like a 9-9.5. The kind of blondes you dream about in high school (or even in college). I know i'm putting her on a pedestal, but whatever.

So i keep talking to my friend and i have to piss. I walk towards the bathroom and notice the blonde sitting in a completely isolated area at a table with her friend (i'd say shes a HB8). I'm taking my piss and internally debating whether to open them and how i should. I hear the little chatter in my head giving me doubts. But out of nowhere i get this wave of confidence (i'm sure the liquor was at least partially responsible, but even drunk, i'm not completely courageous). I'm in state. Big time. I start thinking about how i'm probably the best looking, coolest, and in shape guy at this venue. Then...a good opening line comes to me.

I strut out of the bathroom, in direct sight of the HB9 and HB8 and confidently walk towards them without a shadow of a doubt in my mind. I mean i was completely committed. I walk directly up to the blonde and go "There you are! I hope I haven't kept you waiting too long!" She kind of looks me down for a half second, but i don't budge. I just look at her, and she goes "i'm married". and holds up a ring on her finger. Now this girl is young...like 20 or 21. So i'm doubtful, and not even sure if the damn ring even looks like a legit wedding ring.I dont remember what i said exactly in response, I think I said something like "Oh really??" and wasnt phased at all. I think at that point i introduced myself and there was a few awkward moments where they were waiting for me to go away. Most guys would have awkwardly ejected. but for whatever reason, i just ****ing stood there and powered through it, talking about something random. After a few moments they started to like me. SH!T TEST PASSED. The HB8 goes "hey didn't you go to [my high school]" and I go "holy sh!t, yea i did!" And i recognize her and we start vibing. She says something like "yea i don't really know you, but i know of you.." We have mutual friends and I was prom king so most of the younger kids recognize and respect me a bit. And they're actually flirting with me at this point and the blonde is giving me eyes and stuff. I couldn't believe it. i thought i was just being an obnoxious creep. But what saved me was 100% COMPLETE committment. I didn't falter for a second. And they realized I had balls unlike the other guys. So i decide to eject before i muck it up for myself and say "nice talking to you, maybe i'll see you inside", and go back to talking to my big group of friends.

So we go in the venue and the band gets going and we're having a blast. I havent been to a show in a while, and im a huge music person so i'm loving it. This is a punk show, so there is moshing going on. But another thing occurs to me. I havent been to a show in like years, and before coming tonight for whatever reason i thought i would be intimidated by the "tough, punk" kids. But in the last few years thanks to working out and trying to become a DJ, i realize that not only am i bigger, and more muscular than like every guy there (these are mostly skinny, introverted high school and college underagers who have no game whatsoever), but i also get respect from like everyone there just by my posture and body language and attitude. I realize i can shove any of these kids around in the mosh pit (i'm not being a **** and like trying to hurt them, theres almost a comraderie amongst guys that are shoulder checking each other to good punk music all night).

So i get real confident and start going around, trying to make eye contact with girls, and playfully nudge them with my shoulder. It's hard to have any type of conversation with extremely loud speakers right in front of you, so i go heavy on the kino, and im having a great time. I go out of the pit and stand by my buddy and see this other SMOKING blonde, and i subtlely move within her proximity and she responds, giving me these eyes that look like she wants to eat me up. This girl is easily as hot as the other blonde i was talking to earlier. We'll say shes a HB9 too. I think i've got mad social proof at this point, from being the fun, flirty guy who knows like 10-15 people in the crowd..So i playfully shove her a little and open her with something completely average like "what's your name?". This girl responds immediately, mentions that shes there with her sister, who she introduces me to and we vibe for a minute or two, great kino and bodylanguage on my part, and I eject because honestly im having so much fun that getting pootang is the last thing on my mind. I go back in and mosh a while, and go back to my friend near where the HB9 and her sister were, and my friend tells me how the blonde was like looking around for me or whatever, but she left, so i'm like "damn, shoulda made a move earlier".

I go back to the bar and grab a beer, meet these girls i went to high school with, and start walking back towards the stage/crowd. I see the blonde with her sister from behind about 30 feet in front of me. and i'm like ITS ON. Without any hesitation i sidle up behind her, grab her around the waist, put my face right next to hers and say something like "did you miss me". she absolutely lights up, but looks at me and goes "i'm taken" in a way that seems like she wishes she weren't. I'm still hugging her from behind and right next to my face and i feel this incredible attraction b/w the two of us. I go "kiss me" and i smoosh her nice lips, pull back, and smooch her again. I say "see you later" and eject, going back to the concert and continue partying. THIS WAS ONE OF THE SMOOTHEST THINGS I"VE DONE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. I realize she was taken, but i did what i could. Yea i know im an *******. Sue me.

I realize I didn't close, which i do need to work on. But for me it was a success, because i'm starting to game HB9's and 10's without any hesitation, and i'm starting to not put them on a pedestal.

AS A SIDE NOTE: The HB7 Lacy from new years eve.....the following day we had texted briefly and i said f*&^ it and just said "wanna have sex?" She had seen me with the other girl and was kind of jealous and said "i'm sure you got some last night", i responded "i'm serious". She said "i'm serious too." Honestly, this girl wasnt that hot so i was just trying to go direct or crash and burn, i kind of wanted to self-destruct because she was leaving town and it's not like i'd see her again. I ignore her...and then the next day she texts "does that offer for the sex still stand?". We're both at our parents' houses so i knew it wouldnt work, but i told her to come visit my college later on. She asks if i have snapchat and i go "i was gonna ask u the same thing". She says "i thinkn we're thinking the same thing". RIGHT AWAY i take a picture of me nude with an erection, showing my abs, and send it. She responds and we start sexting like crazy. This girl is so naughty, i swear the things she was saying.....Shes super skinny and i wasnt really attracted, but now i want to bang her. I get home after the concert and continue snapchattting and sexting, and i'm so turned on i call her and we start doing the phone sex thing.

Also, after i had got home, i called up hippy Cassie (HB7.5) and made plans to smoke hookah with her friday (today). So we'll see how that goes. Honestly, the interest level from these two girls is super high, and it's almost turning me off, because they seem like female AFC's. i'm going back to college sunday so i'll probably next them and work on getting higher quality girls. Honestly i'd like to bang HB7 Lacy, but not if shes a crazy clinger, which she might be....

 

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FR #3 - Hookah with HB7.5

FR #3 - Hookah with HB7.5

No feedback from ya basturds so far, but screw it. See if i care!

Last night i went out with HB7.5 (hippy chick). Started out meh, but ended well.

Picked her up, drove downtown....this is where things get hairy. I hate driving downtown and parking. I don't know what it is, but i'm totally clueless when it comes to navigating urban areas and finding parking and stuff. So we drove around like 10 minutes trying to find a damn parking spot which made me look like such a chode. But whatever. Get to the hookah bar...This girl is shy. I almost mistook her shyness for lack of interest, but i just assumed interest (b.c i knew she did indeed have high interest) and powered through it. Start talking with her, and she seems closed off. I try a bit of kino, but she seems uncomfortable so i back off a bit. She keeps throwing these damn sh!t tests at me, because i am a very absentminded person sober, and when i'm drinking i forget things like crazy. So she keeps asking me things like "do you remember when we...." regarding the conversations and things we had on new years...

This was irritating but i tried not to let it show. At one point i say "you know what? it was new years eve and I am perfectly welcome to get as drunk as I damn well please." After a while though she starts opening up, we genuinely start vibing, and i find that i actually like her personality, even though she is a bit too shy for me. I absentmindedly play with her hair and touch her lower back and shoulders while talking and she gets close to me and snuggles up, touching my leg and stomach a little while talking.

We kiss a few times, and by the end of the night there's definitely a nice attraction between us. It's time to leave...as a rule i don't pay for anything for girls, aside from like a cup of coffee or whatever...I was going to say we should split the bill, but then i realize that's kind of cheap, and i just go take care of the check (was a good $18) because i dont really care. She says thanks and i say "don't mention it".

This girl is 18 and i'm 23, so i can understand why shes a bit intimidated, especially since i was very sexual and quick to escalate on new years. I don't really have any place where i can take her to get physical (we're both staying at our parents house). We get to my car and make out for a bit. I take her home. We go to college at different places. My college is a big party college and is about an hour away from where she lives so i make sure to tell her to hit me up if she wants to grab a coupl of friends and come party at my college in the near future.

Decently successful night, i mostly just went out with her because she kept asking me to hang out before i went back to school, and i needed somethingg to do. But i do think she's cool and enjoyed spending time with her.

I'm READY TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND GO ALL OUT. I feel more fearless than i've ever been, and with the sexual experience i've gained from my last girlfriend, i'm confident in myself sexually. As i've said, my college is a huge party school, and theres SO many hot girls. I have massive social proof because i'm a grad student here and i'm also a student teacher...everything is paid for including housing. I live in brand new graduate housing that is like an upscale urban apartment...granite countertops, stainless steel appliances, wood floors, panty dropper for sure. Prime location on campus, near bars and parties.

GOALS FOR THIS SEMESTER:
Construct a 3 month workout plan and STICK TO IT. (workout about 4x/week)
Eat big healthy meals at least 4x/day and build muscle (lots of meat/fish/eggs), take care of my diet/body/mind
Throw myself completely into my schoolwork and career, get excited and passionate, and make this my #1 priority

Without compromising my grades, go out and meet girls AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE
Make at least 10 Approaches during Night Game on the weekends
At least 5 Approaches Day Game during the weekdays
Become completely comfortable with quality HB9's and HB10's and regularly pursue them rather than settling for HB7's

Work on my fashion sense and start building kickass wardrobe for spring
Bang at least 3 girls each month
Setup at least 1 reliable fvckbuddy/friend with benefit/booty call
Pickup my guitar again and get back into practicing regularly

FEEDBACK GUYS? I feel like i'm talking to a wall here. Let me know if my posts need more/less detail, better organization...whatever. Anything helps.

 

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update: Birthday Lacy HB7 is officially crazy. I knew this from the get-go, but i still wanted to bang her cause shes very sexual and would be crazy fun in bed. But...she texted me "hey hey " the other day. I didn't text back and an hour later she texts "i need you. I'm fvcking horny as hell."

She needs me? lady, i met you at a party and we kissed for like 2 minutes, and had phone sex. Clingy much? Gonna next her. better quality girls when i get back to school.

No Fap: Day 1
as a side note, i'm going no fap starting today. My goal is one month or until I get laid. Spending way too much time on porn and it's messing with my mind and motivation. I've had great results in the past (even though I usually couldn't make it more than a month), and i always feel increased confidence and more alpha around other men. However, i'm worried that after a week of no fap, those girls in their tight yoga pants and tops might look so good that it impacts my game negatively and makes me focus too much on getting sex as an end result. But we'll see.