Just lost the best and the worst

[Stort_Brød]

Okay broda's I know you can't really get the whole picture from a little story but just try and bare with me.

I have recently Fvcked up what was the best and the worst LTR I have ever had. Okay she wasn't THE ONE or anything like that as I seriously don't believe in that but the good times were freakin excellent and the bad times not so great lol. I messed it up by bringing the stresses of work and other outside influences into our relationship and on top of a few things that were just bugging the hell out of me at home ( we lived together )

She is a single mum of 2 girls 5&7 doesn't work *on single parents benefit* and had 100% custody.

now the good things were stuff like she would wake me up at 1am just to have a morning root before i went off to work *I'm a baker* then get up and cook me breakfast while I had a shower kiss me goodbye and off to work I went. She had such a loving caring vibe like no other chick I had been with before probably because she was a mum. We would kick back in the weekends and just play playstation with each other and what not *love a gamer girl* all her mates were great I got on with them all. She even gave me a 3some with one of her HB9 mates :cheer: . plus I love an alternative chick *not emo* more goth I'm obsessed with leather and what not, and she would always dress up for me in corsets and big leather boots and mini skirts even just going out and about but in the bedroom it would give me an instant boner and just end up bending her over there and then. most of the good was to do with the sex I think but this wasn't just good sex this was EXCELLENT sex haha.

the bad parts were not so great. her kids were feral and always fighting more than usual siblings do and she wouldn't do anything about it until she got really pissed off and it got out of hand. she was a lazy slob the house was always trashed even after being cleaned within 3 days you could barely see the floor of the entire place because the kids just trashed it. I couldn't discipline them as they aren't mine. she complained that we never do anything as in go out but whenever i asked her to take her and even sometimes the kids to a restaurant or out to do an activity she would always complain that she can't get a sitter or that she doesn't have any money and felt bad that I was going to pay for it, so always ended in an argument over nothing. okay now this one is a bit of a shameful one haha but towards the end she was complaining that we didn't have sex enough, she has a high libido and at the start we were having it at least twice a day every day for the first year. but when you do what I do at the hours with the heat and pace you have to keep up with I was literally too exhausted and stressed to even want to have sex. I had started to nod off to sleep at the wheel many times on my way home from work as i was doing up to 12hr days in a 45degreeC + bakery.

all in all I think I just needed a rant more than anything. I moved back to Australia 3 years ago and had been with her for 2 years. She was my best friend and that's what it turned into in the end is more of a friendship than a relationship. now I have the no contact phase to get over her and move on... it just sucks that most of my mates were through her so I'm sort of very distanced from them as well. haha just looking back at my post I think the bad definitely out weighs the good. But with starting my new position as a manager soon I won't have time to worry about all that but what I will have is the money to set myself up properly again and start taking the lil sweeties out on dates if I ever get a day off.

anyways guys if you read the rant cool thanks... if not oh well not much of a loss. let me know what you think anyways

 

[Bizzle13]

Hey man I totally feel what you're saying and when the bad times outweigh the good you know it's time to make a change - that goes for any aspect of life. I think you've done the right thing but of course there's always that twinge of doubt after making a big decision, especially if it results in a big change 'did I do the right thing?' etc

You've got to think if those people are really your friends then you'll keep in touch and keep being friends, if not then they were never worth your friendship in the first place. Just make sure you don't isolate yourself from them, keep in touch and try to make time for them, otherwise you'll end up resenting them through your own fault.

Do as you said; concentrate on you, your work, finances and your own place. That's what I've started to finally realise - once you get yourself in order the women will come (no pun intended), whether it's because you're no longer trying too hard or because you gain such a sense of confidence in yourself. You're doing the right thing and as for the sex there is always someone out there that will blow your mind in ways your best lay never did. Have fun trying to find her haha

 

[Greasy Pig]

Hey mate, just line all those new honeys up and fill em with your cream, just like a good baker should.

 

[Stort_Brød]

'did I do the right thing?'

I have said that a million times over... but I know that there is no chance of us getting back together at all. So I guess I will have to take Greasy Pig's advice and be a good baker and go cream fill some b!tches buns. and yeah definitely need to concentrate on me myself and I for a while. only problem around here is that the girls are either too young, too ugly or have kids haha oh well I will just have to work on the pump & dump for a while till I can be bothered even thinking of a relationship.

cheers guys