Jack Wealthy's Journal of Beasting

[asianbboy]

Triple pact? i have a date coming up and I can't let myself ***** out.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Triple pact? i have a date coming up and I can't let myself ***** out.

Go balls bud.

Alrighty, today: 6/12/11

Last day of school today.

Not much. Boring morning, raining pretty heavy. Talked to this kid who thinks I'm the beast at this shiz. Had a convo with this girl I'm good friends with in English/recess. Interesting actually, I spent the whole of English teasing the fvck out of her then spent the next 15 minutes stealing her stuff and talking about things. We have deep convos on facebook.

Walked around after school had finished and pretended to buy books of the leavers, actually did buy a book: http://www.penguin.com.au/products/9780141012698/extremely-loud-incredibly-close
Talked to this hot chick in year 10 who will appear again so she is HBHot. Pissed her off a bit by randomly grabbing her while I was messing with some other girl who I had a facebook convo about sex with above. Also tried selling peoples books by putting my hand on random people, picking up a handful of books and saying "Hey, you need this hey."

Oh, I crushed up mints and put them in a pouch like weed comes in so it looked like an illicit substance. Then I offered it to randoms in exchange for books. No takers. I then offered it to randoms in exchange for money, year 8's. No takers. I love my school I started chanting "hugs not drugs" and hugging people.

Talked to another girl, HBFlower (both in the year below me) and clawed her around while I just walked around in general. Talked about my friends, her friends... Talked to her again after school and accidently AMOG'd (I hate that term) my mate. Sorry bout that bra. Thnaks for reading my journal (y) he just explained I was actually doing it earlier and I understand. Wing lessons wanted. Going out to meet some chick now, one who invited me to party. We'll call her Joy. That girl didn't invite me to ball but I'm thunking of asking another chick. Maybe just someone outside of school, probs funner.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Deal.

Message me your facebook.

Will do. You'll see when I started caring about my social life, its right around when I got my hair cut.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

cbf posting about the last couple of days.
Summary: Got Cialis (google it) so now sex should be good. Getting Poppers tomoz. Got some other stuff. Ate. Worked for my mum. got medication for my throat infection, should be fixed. Had the bastard for ~8-9 months and it makes me lose my voice constantly. Got medication for tendinitis in my right ankle as well.

Worked out, felt good. Been staying up late, feels ok. Been reading scary pastas so I'll post a link to them later.

Really just tired. Meeting up with one of my best friends tomorrow, still haven't spoken to my actual best friend.

Also, I think this girl may be hinting she wants me to ask her out over fb:
Her: Some random crap.
Me: not good enough.
Her: I am good enough hehe
...
Me: ...
Her:What are the dots for?
5 minutes
Her: So whats up?
10 minutes later
Her: Do you like me?
Me: not even going to explain.
...
Her: So, when u goin to ask me out lol

Yeah she's pretty subtle but I think she likes me.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Only on for a bit.
10/12

Tendinitis hurts like a ***** right now- technically the 12th. Throat so much better. Feeling great.

That girl from above is being a *****. I posted "Go to bed " on one of my best friends walls. She replied you go to bed. I replied, whos? She replied you go to yours and I'll go to mine. I replied I sleep on a couch loser. She replied sorry! (new post) HEY (new post) That's no fair. By saying whose bed you were implying that you had one. It was fair of me to assume you have a bed. I replied something something night babe. Remember, all to a really good friend.

The other girl messages me to **** off I explain it's my personality like or leave. She kept *****ing, I decided to ignore her.

Today I was dominant as ****. I walked right up to this girl and shouted (said loudly) "Hey. I'm Jaedon." we talked a bit and I got awkward and left. Basically it was, hey, how are you, it's like (more practice will smoothen this) you're adorable I just had to meet you, how old are you, sorry you're 9 years older. Still pretty though. 4 in the afternoon and I had a bit (lot) of nerves, my good mood pulled me through. Tbh I didn't think I'd do it until the last moment when Tim's voice ran through my head and I thought of him doing it and me doing it.

Chatted to strangers on the train, guys.

Met a cool guy who burst a blood vessel in his eye. It was all red, solid red. He got drunk and fought the garden, who won. We talked about shoplifting (I used to a lot) and how so much is just confidence.

Went to friends house, chilling ensued.

Could have hooked up with a friends ex. Played around instead, realised just before the kiss it was a terrible, terrible idea and just hugged her a second time instead.

Oh, saw the girl who I lost my virginity to. I will relay the drama tomorrow.

Did two more approaches, one got stuck in idle chat and I lost my voice. The other I scared the **** out of. It was like 10:30 at night btw. Texted friends ex, watched South Park.

About to wank'n'crash. Still haven't taken my Cialis.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

LONG POST: Skip if you want.

Recently I moved from the big city back to the small city/town with a population of forty thou. I will live there for a month or two, during this time I will work my ass off and workout until I'm ripped like paper. Except I can't workout my legs because I have tendinitis which hurts like a mofo. If I go to a doctor again I'll ask for painkillers.

Before I expand on that and begin discussion of my rather devious side, I will talk about my ex as promised. No back story besides to say she was my first and was hot. Short, blonde, mischevious, promiscious and hot. Funny, open-minded, intellegent and hot.

Anyway, back on track, we weren't ever officially dating but it was very much assumed by me, our mutual friends and fcuking everyone. Including her. I neglected to talk to her for a week because I got very self conscious- I hadn't seen her in three weeks and she is hot and easy- and she slept with some guy. Those two are together to this day. I posted on her wall that she'd hurt me and she replied I have no idea what you're talking about. Then her boyfriend, Jackson (her name is Ash fyi) liked a comment where she just posted huh? Not to get petty, basically she fvcked him without telling him about me (I think) then acted like nothing ever happened and her and I ignored each other. I slipped twice and she ignored me both times.

Now I know why.

At that gathering/get together I was invited first. Neither I nor they knew the other was going to be there. She came in first, dancing to the music and ignoring me. It was enough to make me laugh.

I'm in town atm, will continue when I get back home. Heroic effort fora phone post

Edit: At home now.

Then her boyfriend walks in. I see him, make eye-contact and stand up. He stops dead as I extend my hand to shake and mutters his name after I shout "Hey mate! I'm Jaedon." He looks awkward as ****. His friend is next, same thing but the friend is removed from the tension of knowing my dlck was inside his girlfriend. These are both cool guys but Jackson is a bit of wanker to me, maybe just because of the whole thing... He is twenty-odd and I'm 16, he would be around 6'-6'1 and I'm nearly 6'2. I'd say he was average build and I'm athletic/muscular. It was pointed out I intimidated him later.

They both left just as quick as they came, after I hugged Ash and she avoided eye-contact. I had a rush of masculinity through my veins and was relishing the tension because I owned this moment. I should mention I'm grinning like fcuk and both Jackson and Ash are avoiding my gaze. They started arguing down the street and I tooled the guy who had come with them. "Hey bro, you're that guy who stands at the side in a party and does this (crossed arms and faced away, started talking over my shoulder.)" Him "Yeah man."

They come back as we're walking to the shop and Jackson stares at me. I meet his eye and he looks down angrily I assume but because of my **** vision I actually can't tell. It's the vibe I'm getting and later on the girl who wanted me told me he looked like he wanted to hit me.

He ends up taking everyone else to the shop but it's assumed I can't go. I don't obviously, no point making **** worse for the guy. Also I feel a want to say Ash looks waaaaaay less hot than before. She is a brunette now, has put on a little bit of weight and looks 17-19. When she was with me she was 14-16. She also dresses older in a bad way.

Everyone was high as fcuk (cept me and Tayla) and we went to egg a house. The end.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Decided to split the above post in two.

13/12/11 (proper dd/mm/yy)

So today, writing that... Really the last few days but today especially and writing that even more so, I have felt manly. I can feel my energy coursing through my veins, the feeling of take, take, take what I want but also because of the difference in male/female sexuallity give, give, give and defend what I believe in. I have a real urge to protect women and I feel a deep, deep love fore women at this time. I would say this dominant and raw feeling is the purest form of my intent without horniness, my masculinity. Pook and Tim both talk about it a lot, for the first time in as long as I can remember I feel constant heat inside myself. This isn't fun but I know for a fact girls would giggle if I channeled this to them. Or be stuck like deer in the headlights.

It makes me want to fvck women, fight and assert myself. Not all at once or for the thrill of it, it's like a value system in my body which says "Hey, that can't happen." or "Girl. Hot girl. Talk to girl."

The only things that satisfy this intense feeling are women, working out and drugs.

May not want to read below, boring but this is my journal so I figured I would include this for factual integrity.
Segue into: My pet. I have a pet who is fair into legally questionable- ****it, outright illegal- endeavours. He has shoplifted and taken many drugs.
Stolen in order of incident;
-4 pairs of underwear.
-5 cd's
-One pack of condoms
-6 packs of gum
-Vibrating ring'o pleasure
-6 Tramal
-8 Valium
-5 Oxycontin from two sources
-14 Temazepam from 10's to 20's
-2 blocks of chocolate
-27 pills of phenobarbital

All I can remember right now.

Drugs my pet has taken (in order):
-Alcohol
-Codeine
-Caffeine pills
-Tramal
-Valium recorded previously
-Temazepam
-Oxycodone
-DXM (Cough syrup) already recorded in a previous post
-Phenobarbital

In order of goodness low to high from what my pet says: Codeine (turns out I lack the gene which processes codeine), Oxycodone (very addictive and boring. **** combo), Caffeine, Alchohol (only good for disinhibiton and of all the drugs the worst for you and hardest to come off), Valium (more pleasurable but weaker than next), Phenobarbital (in between alchohol and Valium effect wise), Tramal (mild), Temazepam and DXM.

All at recreational doses for recreational purposes.

Seeya guys, I'll post later. Only included this because I want to look back and go "Huh. I messed up a bit ey..."

 

[LearningSlowly]

for the first time in as long as I can remember I feel constant heat inside myself. This isn't fun but I know for a fact girls would giggle if I channeled this to them. Or be stuck like deer in the headlights.

It makes me want to fvck women, fight and assert myself. Not all at once or for the thrill of it, it's like a value system in my body which says "Hey, that can't happen." or "Girl. Hot girl. Talk to girl."

The only things that satisfy this intense feeling are women, working out and drugs.

For some reason this piece really inspired me. Copied it and have it in sight. It'll keep me on my no mb for sure.

Xanax and weed is a brilliant combination. Feels like clouds and marshmallows. Alcohol can bump up the xanax if you haven't taken much. Or so my pet says

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Quitting is scroat

Decided to quit drugs too. Actually alright so far, but life isn't as fun when you can't decide to drink a bottle of cough syrup and marvel at the connectedness of it all...

3 days straight today. No drugs period, no caffeine no anti-inflammatorys; the exception being antibiotics. Still no mb for four days, so going good wanna pound it though. Started hallucinating vagina in the early hours of the morning.

Positives: I feel like a sexual predator, in a good way.

I lifted some vitamins yesterday and today, talked about possible ADHD a bit and now my mum is supporting my wishes on this instead of *****ing and moaning that I might get given drugs. Or accusing me of exaggerating my symptoms. Which I think is odd because bombing my exams to get pills I get anyway seems like a retarded idea. I think she has just noticed my symptoms more now that I have pointed them out and stopped concentrating on stopping the obvious ones like a shaking leg.

Girls.

Basically non-existent. I can't go into town on my own because of the long walk and rain. **** that, I could but Ima *****. Been talking to shop assistants basically, making eye-contact and feeling like... I don't know. Introducing myself in that way I do.

"HEY! I'm Jaedon." Hand shake, pull around... Oh...

Feel more fearless and less careful. Like I want to play a numbers game because the girl in front of me is just a part of "Girls" the group. Little anxiety but it comes in waves. Direct seems like the only option. Seedy almost...

This annoying chick is texting me and accusing me of just wanting her for sex. She isn't that good looking, is a virgin and started the conversation. Lolwut?

I do have prospects here, don't get me wrong, but they're boring as crap. One interesting, I was with my mum at the DVD store and there was this cute chick. I shouted out "BYE CUTE VIDEO STORE GIRL!" as I left. She looked mortified... Next time I went in she suddenly had to do a job right near me, which seemed to involve staring at me. I think I'd just tossed so I was all like "What do I say (stonerface)?" When I should have just invited her fingerpainting or some bull****. Anything, it was that look. Even my mum thinks I'm gay.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Broke no mb. Worked out. Taking zinc and magnesium, makes my sleep better and gives me really vivid dreams. Also taking a fat-burner Musashi supplement I(My Swedish cousin Ikea, I for short) lifted while the scanners where messed at Woolworths. Accidently intimidating a lot of people now. I have to smile more...

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Feeling happier in general. I think living with two depressed women was draining my energy a bit, being all edgy from not wanking was making it real bad. I'm on day two at the moment, technically not because I finished at like 12.02 last time but still.

Finally got some inspiration for stuff. Taking zinc+magnesium gives me really vivid dreams which burn into my memory, the way they used to when I was in my early teens. Fun fact: I'm in an academically selective school. I scored low in math and excitingly low (if I got this low, I must have done REALLY WELL overall) in non-verbal reasoning, and got 99th and 100th percentile in english and writing respectably. Top one actually, parently I'm smrt ore sumthing. I find I do have a respectable intellect, though when conversing about mundane occurances it often does not surface as it should. Or you know, I live in poor neighborhoods and talk in a hybrid.

Tonight I'm trying some Valerian Ikea lifted.

Not sure if I mentioned I'm on the second course of antibiotics. Craving to get high and/or pop a pill was high today. I popped some fat burning supplement and an anti-inflammatory, satisfied. My mum told me to take the NSAIDS because they help you heal but I just googled it and they don't so back to nothing but vitamins/supplements and antibiotics.

Okay, onto the inspiration...

I'm going to write a creepypasta. The long kind, like http://www.creepypasta.com/candle-cove/ because I want a longer writing project to give me something. It's going to be on forums and sh*t and I project it taking about 2 months. I will also write some short ones.

I should mention, I love writing, women and working out. I hadn't done much of any just before I started the journal, this keeps me on track and honest. To keep that honesty, I was pondering lying in this to impress all you cool High School forum guys. I decided to write down that I'd thought it just to keep myself to honest to do it. Such a waste it would be.

Onto le women.

I talked to one hot checkout assistant. She obviously gave me better service than average. I was totally in. Unfortunately I was all fuzzy and didn't recognize it as nervousness, so I rationalized my T wasn't high enough so I didn't have to do anything. Fuark my (crappy) logic works fast sometimes, I must ignore this logic in favor of **** Logic.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Speaking of writing, I'm taking creative writing next semester, and I didn't get along well with the teacher last time I had him. As a sign of good faith, I got high as ****, wrote a rap/short piece about being able to smoke in my house and sent it to him at 1:30 in the morning....

Got an email back today with a little good and bad critique. We'll see how this semester goes.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

That made me smile thats my second favourite course by the way.

Wanted to update just to say how lucky this forum is. Reading the teen-game forum, there are no field reports from the admin and the main mod's sticking point is 'shifting gears' conversationally. Thank FCUK this forum has a big-picture view of the interaction as a feeling rather than a collection of theories and logical lines. No ****, their whole forum has less lays then the first three pages of everyones journal.

Also, Norwegian, me and Josh all got laid by page three of our journals... Spooky...

Wrote a story but I'm on my phone so I won't post it. So far its a skeleton piece, but it's a fcuking good premise. I twisted the end a bi in a way I don't like, but the overall them is still good. I figured out to write well is just like picking up: it isn't technical. You feel the emotion yourself then vibe that into the other person (in writing through your writing, in pickup directly) so they feel what you feel. Technical skills are just for flair, they should be built on but can't drive themselves and they have no flavor/feeling inherent.

Spending the day with family. Mainly my dad. Haven't even seen a girl today that isn't related to me. Only chance I had was walking into the dvd store and talking to that chick. If she was there.

Watching the new Friday the Thirteenth. Thats it.

 

[DanZy]

^if you ask me, teen game is exactly like all other PUA stuff: all talk and no action. That's sorta what happens when someone tries to repackage MM for teens

 

[NorwegianDJ]

In 2 days it's a year since I started hell there. I actually still have the video Lucas made. Good times. I was so 'know-it-all' back then, so arrogant
Well, in 2 days, I'll hopefully chime in with something better and hopefully controversial. ehh, yeah. If I remember.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Oh ****. I have felt really, really nervous the last two days. Liiiiiike shiiiiiittttt. This was unBeast to say the least.. I felt like my heart was going doublebeat, I felt all light and clumsy. My head spun.

Why?

Mega-turbos. Perfect twos. On the binary scale, the fcukers broke the system.

You know what? I talked to both. BOTH opened me. I can't even talk about it now, it makes my heart rush.

Don't get me wrong. I've been a tad uncallibrated of late due to the fact my social life went from 5 days a week of school and two nights partying and two days in the city, to shopping every now and again. Both with due hookins obviously.

But even then, 9's and 10's made me nervous. Now, now it is ****ing insane. I've got my callibration back a bit because I've been pushing my comfort zone so I'm not doing ****, but I'm scared to escalate. Both this girls were up....

But it got awkward. The one today new me from a party where I hooked up with her friend, she'd lost her voice so she just got close and waved. I had a cousin over my should so I just smiled and said hey how are you, she said she'd lost her voice. Me being with little kids made her seem happy, saw her around and she stared a lot. She was up...

I then proceeded to try and hug her in front of her parents. I did in fact. Laughingly awkward. **** being nervous, that feeling just transmuted into awesome as I wrote those last sentences. I'm ****king grinning right now. Actually it was like a paragraph up.

Yesterday was the fay before christmas eve. Today was christmas eve. I masturbated the day before yesterday.

I want to hook up so bad. I want a girl to release this nervous energy. Wanking doesn't help much anymore. I want a girl, bad. This isn't determination, it's nervous excitement. I feel like a kid before christmas.

Christmas lunch at my nans (dads side is nan, mums is granny); hotty coming. HopefulLy I can come too....

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Felt good today. Bit nervous and a tad self aware, but YEEEEEAAAAAH today was okay.

Talked to girl I hooked up with on page one, her actual name is Sarah. She's well British so I said "Ello." Then we talked a bit. I didn't get nervous obviously. I also didn't hug her.

Then I shopped and ****. I'm moving out on my own soon. Mum boutght me a washing basket, a bin and stuff like that. I'm stocking up on books and beef jerky because they're amazing. Going to read "The Hunger Games" and maybe "Gone". Heavier reading "Hunger" and "Naked Lunch". Definitely reading "A New Earth" and "Awaken the Giant Within". I also made some comments on facebook that got liked a lot, because I r supa poplar on fb.

Worked out:
Dips (set) 4x (rep) 8
Superset
Wide grip pullup 4x3

Lateral raise 3x4
Superset
Biceps curl 3x25,20,15

Rollout 3x6
L-Sit 3x10 seconds

Starting watching transformations, I really abused being able to download stuff. Also started Friends.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GaoLU6zKaws&feature=youtube_gdata_player
citin and larious

http://www.creepypasta.com/category/dreams-nightmares/
http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/Article_Listing
sites^
Stories v
http://www.creepypasta.com/the-bad-dream/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQSnsLYPgdk (text
http://encyclopediadramatica.ch/Creepypasta/Paranormal_Creepypasta#The_Hitchhikers
http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/Squidward's_Suicide
http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/Upstairs
http://www.creepypasta.com/candle-cove/
http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/The_Girl_in_the_Photograph - mind****
http://creepypasta.wikia.com/wiki/Wake_Up
http://www.creepypasta.com/the-woman-in-the-oven/
http://nigrachan.blogspot.com/2011/01/other-watcher.html

cbf with anymore, may post them later.

Oh and this annoying chick just texted me that we should hang out alone when I go back to the City. I won't, she isn't hot.

PS: Ima bubbling brook of positivity This + angry **** would beast.
Ok, so I've gone into K-mart twice to try and see that perfect ten girl. Giving up on that creepy ass idea, just let it happen natural if it does. If it doesn't that's cool too.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Loved that sax video! Stole it for my fb, hope you dont mind. I lika de likes.

 

[Amo]

That sh*t's scary, man.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Met up with more family today. Granddad commented on my firm handshake. Hanging out with my family really helps with my game, its hard to be nervous around teenage girls after I spend regular time with these psychos. By far the most extreme is my great granddad. There is a book about him, but here are the highlights: He went to WW2, he was the champion Tent Boxer (kinda like cage fighting), when he got back he became a golden-gloves boxer and he has won three Sandovers as well as a bunch of war medals. He talks in this really ****y, arrogant way that is irritating. My dad said later it was because he was used to starting bar fights. I can't even explain it. My dad used to go to dinner at his house and he'd say "Jee, she's not as pretty as the last one" if he brought a girl or, "What are ya, sly?" if he went alone.

Then there is my dad. I won't get into that one. He screamed at me the other day because I said Karma was the universal energy of retribution and he said it was the sexual energy within a person. His argument? "HAVE YOU EVEN READ THE KARMA(sic) SUTRA?" My response? "NO! It's a seven-hundred page book about sex... Those two religions aren't even related, you're talking about Hinduism and Karma is Buddhism." Him:"And the Buddhists didn't travel?!" Me:"...No, they were Tibetans. They didn't. Actually, they're spelt different." Him:"WHAT! So how Jaedon, How are they spelt. Because you obviously know so much about this..." Me:"... K-A-R-M-A and K-A-M-A." Him:"YOU ARROGANT ****. You can't admit you're wrong. You have no ****ing people skills, I'm really, seriously Jaedon I'm surprised, someone hasn't punched in the face yet."

I laughed (after the fact) by the way. It isn't aggressive or abusive, it's my dad having no control over his temper verbally. He doesn't get physical or anything, he's more physical when he's happy. Which I don't complain about because it's a throwback from him training me to fight when I was well into MMA and I appreciate it. Random clinches keep the reflexes up.

Besides that, I worked out:
O(ne)A(rm)Shoulder Press 4x5
Superset with
Chin-up 4x8

Skull-crusher 3x8

Crank 2x5
Superset
Back pull 2x5

I ate a ****tonne tonight, usually there isn't enough food but my mum made my grandma cook an extra third and I ate up for the last few days. Didn't eat beef jerky because of it.

Finished antibiotics, done with drugs.

Started reading a new book, going to buy some more tomorrow. A book a week is my goal at the moment.