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Master Don Juan
I just realized what my problem is..................
While I was younger I was used to lots of attention, from my parents and especially kids in school, I was the man, I was also the best athlete. Since then I've became a nobody...... Im not respected and im not the best athlete or the best looking kid anymore, ive become just another "joe". When this first hit me i became very very bitter..... I hated everybody I hated everything and anybody who was more then I. Although I was very cool with these kids and part of the "group" My pride and jelousy never really alowed me to get closer to them. When I see how everybody else is on there sh!t, following them around or getting into the same activity as them, i would go the other way and do my own thing. When it came to ball, these kids were better then me, when it came to looks some were better then me........
This drove me insane...... I had to find a way to go back to becoming the man, and im still looking for a way to do that. I've started working out like crazy and the results are GREAT but this is not bringing me up any higher. I realized its all about personality but I've become so bitter that I cannot really become buddy buddies with these guys...... I realized i need a positive attitude.............. But then my competitive nature comes in........ I want to be better then them, every single last one of them.........
one of my boys is doing his thing like crazy and i cant stand it.....Ive become a hater.
Every single fvcken time I see someone better then me at something, IT EATS ME INSIDE, i want to be the best at everything but i just dont know how.......
I previously posted a topic on my looks and how I feel ugly, the thing thats killing me is that for guys there arent too many ways to look great, its pretty much the face that ur born with u have to work with.
MY PERSONALITY IS ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE. i mean i cant even joke around most of the time, thats how serious I've become.
And to top it all off I see ni99as fvcken with some of these gorgeous girls and im settling for less?
Sometimes i think to myself, i should kill myself but the only thing that stops me is It'll show that I FAILED........
I want to improve on EVERYTHING but the problem is I dont know exactly how and The first thing I need to improve is my personality...........
My pride will not allow me to show people that I want to be liked.......... I dont want to svck nobodys d!ck either.......
Another thing is, last week at 3 am I almost got into a fight and I was apoligizing like the only fvcken *****, I seen the kid today and I talked to him and i felt like he was laughing in my ****en face.
I WANNA KILL THAT MUTHA FVCKER
While I was younger I was used to lots of attention, from my parents and especially kids in school, I was the man, I was also the best athlete. Since then I've became a nobody...... Im not respected and im not the best athlete or the best looking kid anymore, ive become just another "joe". When this first hit me i became very very bitter..... I hated everybody I hated everything and anybody who was more then I. Although I was very cool with these kids and part of the "group" My pride and jelousy never really alowed me to get closer to them. When I see how everybody else is on there sh!t, following them around or getting into the same activity as them, i would go the other way and do my own thing. When it came to ball, these kids were better then me, when it came to looks some were better then me........
This drove me insane...... I had to find a way to go back to becoming the man, and im still looking for a way to do that. I've started working out like crazy and the results are GREAT but this is not bringing me up any higher. I realized its all about personality but I've become so bitter that I cannot really become buddy buddies with these guys...... I realized i need a positive attitude.............. But then my competitive nature comes in........ I want to be better then them, every single last one of them.........
one of my boys is doing his thing like crazy and i cant stand it.....Ive become a hater.
Every single fvcken time I see someone better then me at something, IT EATS ME INSIDE, i want to be the best at everything but i just dont know how.......
I previously posted a topic on my looks and how I feel ugly, the thing thats killing me is that for guys there arent too many ways to look great, its pretty much the face that ur born with u have to work with.
MY PERSONALITY IS ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE. i mean i cant even joke around most of the time, thats how serious I've become.
And to top it all off I see ni99as fvcken with some of these gorgeous girls and im settling for less?
Sometimes i think to myself, i should kill myself but the only thing that stops me is It'll show that I FAILED........
I want to improve on EVERYTHING but the problem is I dont know exactly how and The first thing I need to improve is my personality...........
My pride will not allow me to show people that I want to be liked.......... I dont want to svck nobodys d!ck either.......
Another thing is, last week at 3 am I almost got into a fight and I was apoligizing like the only fvcken *****, I seen the kid today and I talked to him and i felt like he was laughing in my ****en face.
I WANNA KILL THAT MUTHA FVCKER