The last week two weeks I've had a great feeling, I felt quite confident and talked to strangers more in an effort to improve the fact I'm always known as "the silent guy".
But suddenly, for no known reason, this feeling has passed. I don't feel like talking anymore (just like before) and I feel a loser, even though I'm going to a gym and am muscular enough I think.
I can't seem to get a conversation flowing (even in those two weeks I felt confident). I see other people interacting and talking for lengthy times and have a laugh from time to time, I can't achieve this.
Another issue is I always keep "selling" myself to others, I can't stop it to talk about myself from time to time and let them know I'm in fact a smart guy, go to university and have good results. It's killing me because afterwards I think "you self centered bastard".
I also always want to be "cool" to others. An example is in traffic, when you have two lanes in the same direction and the other one is going faster than were I'm in, I think the people in the passing cars think "hahaha I'm better than you, I'm going faster, loser!". So I even tend to do detours just to look cool even though I have to be in the slower lane to turn into a street. So unbelievable stupid, but I can't get rid of the fact that I think that everyone is better than me...
Does anyone experience this too?
But suddenly, for no known reason, this feeling has passed. I don't feel like talking anymore (just like before) and I feel a loser, even though I'm going to a gym and am muscular enough I think.
I can't seem to get a conversation flowing (even in those two weeks I felt confident). I see other people interacting and talking for lengthy times and have a laugh from time to time, I can't achieve this.
Another issue is I always keep "selling" myself to others, I can't stop it to talk about myself from time to time and let them know I'm in fact a smart guy, go to university and have good results. It's killing me because afterwards I think "you self centered bastard".
I also always want to be "cool" to others. An example is in traffic, when you have two lanes in the same direction and the other one is going faster than were I'm in, I think the people in the passing cars think "hahaha I'm better than you, I'm going faster, loser!". So I even tend to do detours just to look cool even though I have to be in the slower lane to turn into a street. So unbelievable stupid, but I can't get rid of the fact that I think that everyone is better than me...
Does anyone experience this too?
