Does anyone here ever just wish they didn’t have to do this?
Sometimes I think, fvck sakes, if I spent half the time playing my guitar or riding my board that I do thinking about how I can meet more girls / get laid, I would be Slash or Shaun White by now.
But I can’t! I can’t focus on any of the things I actually care about because chasing ass, even though 99 times out of 100 it ends in disappointment, always takes priority. And, naturally, I’m not that good at it so I spend even more time trying to get better at chasing ass so I can waste more time doing it! And knowing this is a fact doesn’t make it any less powerful, I already KNOW I shouldn’t be doing that, but that doesn’t help me stop.
I don’t even like this sort of thing, I don’t want to wear stupid clothes or act all fun and happy all the time, it sucks the energy out of me trying to put on a front just to try to win over some females who, in reality, I only really want for 10 minutes anyways. That’s kind of a harsh statement and not entirely true, but you get my point….
But it’s such a cycle, I need them so I can stop needing them. And I’m starting to think that respect from my fellow men and to be able to feel like a “normal” guy, and get on with things that actually matter, are more of the reason for it than the actual physical pleasure of it all….
So, all you DJ’s, please tell me that this goes away. I don’t like having my world revolve around women. And yet it does. Is all of this time spent trying to “improve” myself going to be worth it in the end? Do you reach a point when, you can look back and say “there, I did it, I’ve had X number of women, and now I’m a man, and now I can move on with my life.” Or are we, by nature, doomed to chasing tail for the rest of our days?
Sometimes I think, fvck sakes, if I spent half the time playing my guitar or riding my board that I do thinking about how I can meet more girls / get laid, I would be Slash or Shaun White by now.
But I can’t! I can’t focus on any of the things I actually care about because chasing ass, even though 99 times out of 100 it ends in disappointment, always takes priority. And, naturally, I’m not that good at it so I spend even more time trying to get better at chasing ass so I can waste more time doing it! And knowing this is a fact doesn’t make it any less powerful, I already KNOW I shouldn’t be doing that, but that doesn’t help me stop.
I don’t even like this sort of thing, I don’t want to wear stupid clothes or act all fun and happy all the time, it sucks the energy out of me trying to put on a front just to try to win over some females who, in reality, I only really want for 10 minutes anyways. That’s kind of a harsh statement and not entirely true, but you get my point….
But it’s such a cycle, I need them so I can stop needing them. And I’m starting to think that respect from my fellow men and to be able to feel like a “normal” guy, and get on with things that actually matter, are more of the reason for it than the actual physical pleasure of it all….
So, all you DJ’s, please tell me that this goes away. I don’t like having my world revolve around women. And yet it does. Is all of this time spent trying to “improve” myself going to be worth it in the end? Do you reach a point when, you can look back and say “there, I did it, I’ve had X number of women, and now I’m a man, and now I can move on with my life.” Or are we, by nature, doomed to chasing tail for the rest of our days?