I've changed... and I've done it extremely quickly. I finally had a moment to sit and ponder about it and I freaked myself out! Who is this guy I've become? And how did I get there so quickly?
Before all of this I was a drunk. I had no ambition, responsibility, job or direction. My girlfriend of 1+ year left me for her ex and I was left standing in an empty field. I could of gone two ways... back where I was or drop everything I knew and start from scratch.
Well I chose the latter and started chipping away at my former self to build the person I wanted to be.
The first thing I did was completely stop drinking alcohol. I don't need it. All it did was empty my bank account, get me laid a few times and force me to spend the next day in bed. I threw out all my liquor and told myself I'd never drink again.
The second thing I did was get a job... any job. I needed something to hold me accountable. So I called my friend who's a business loan manager at Wells Fargo and he hooked me up with a sweet job on the spot. If I had only know it would of been that easy!
The third thing I did was get a new hobby. You could of called drinking my former hobby so I needed something constructive to replace it with. I decided to take up flying lessons and get my pilots license! I've already started and it's absolutely amazing. I suggest everyone go out and get one. You will feel like a new man. I already do.
The fourth thing I decided to do was workout on a consistent basis. I now go to the gym 3x a week... on top of playing softball and tennis 1x a week. It's only been a few weeks but I can feel the change.
The fifth thing I did was get some new clothes. I threw out a lot of my old stuff and went and got myself a new style of sorts.. nothing drastic but not what I was wearing before. The key is feeling comfortable with what you wear and I totally do.
My ex is still gone... with her ex and I couldn't care less. I hope she's happy... honestly. I tried to make everything work but it was a lost cause. She was already gone and just holding on to make sure he was there for good. If I would have realized that earlier I would have saved 2 months of my life trying to keep her. Live and learn I guess. But I wonder what she thinks of everything I've done. Does she even care? She is surely shocked as hell I would imagine.
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So now I'm sitting here in my den... pondering everything that's happened over the last few months of my life... and I'm scared. I'm scared in a good way. I never thought I'd get to this point in my life so quickly. I feel like I have an indentity now and I'm not just the "drunkass" who loves to party. I have substance and I have style. It feels great. Sometimes when I start talking I don't recognize myself... but I'm getting better.
So now I ask everyone... where do I go from here? I'm afraid I'll run out of ways to improve myself! What does a 'man' do at this point? I don't want a girlfriend... she would just hold me back. But what do I do?
Before all of this I was a drunk. I had no ambition, responsibility, job or direction. My girlfriend of 1+ year left me for her ex and I was left standing in an empty field. I could of gone two ways... back where I was or drop everything I knew and start from scratch.
Well I chose the latter and started chipping away at my former self to build the person I wanted to be.
The first thing I did was completely stop drinking alcohol. I don't need it. All it did was empty my bank account, get me laid a few times and force me to spend the next day in bed. I threw out all my liquor and told myself I'd never drink again.
The second thing I did was get a job... any job. I needed something to hold me accountable. So I called my friend who's a business loan manager at Wells Fargo and he hooked me up with a sweet job on the spot. If I had only know it would of been that easy!
The third thing I did was get a new hobby. You could of called drinking my former hobby so I needed something constructive to replace it with. I decided to take up flying lessons and get my pilots license! I've already started and it's absolutely amazing. I suggest everyone go out and get one. You will feel like a new man. I already do.
The fourth thing I decided to do was workout on a consistent basis. I now go to the gym 3x a week... on top of playing softball and tennis 1x a week. It's only been a few weeks but I can feel the change.
The fifth thing I did was get some new clothes. I threw out a lot of my old stuff and went and got myself a new style of sorts.. nothing drastic but not what I was wearing before. The key is feeling comfortable with what you wear and I totally do.
My ex is still gone... with her ex and I couldn't care less. I hope she's happy... honestly. I tried to make everything work but it was a lost cause. She was already gone and just holding on to make sure he was there for good. If I would have realized that earlier I would have saved 2 months of my life trying to keep her. Live and learn I guess. But I wonder what she thinks of everything I've done. Does she even care? She is surely shocked as hell I would imagine.
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So now I'm sitting here in my den... pondering everything that's happened over the last few months of my life... and I'm scared. I'm scared in a good way. I never thought I'd get to this point in my life so quickly. I feel like I have an indentity now and I'm not just the "drunkass" who loves to party. I have substance and I have style. It feels great. Sometimes when I start talking I don't recognize myself... but I'm getting better.
So now I ask everyone... where do I go from here? I'm afraid I'll run out of ways to improve myself! What does a 'man' do at this point? I don't want a girlfriend... she would just hold me back. But what do I do?