I'm Not Satisfied - GoldenEra95 Journal

[GoldenEra95]

Hey guys, I guess I'll start out with I'm a senior in High School. I'd say I've have a pretty good High School career, I played sports(I was decent) and have been involved with music in school. I'm pretty well known for positive reasons. My passion currently lies in music and that's where I plan to pursue a career in. Although I have a good amount of friends, I'm not very good in new social settings at all. I like to stay in my comfort zone, and I know that's a bad thing. I need to get out of my shell. Im going to be going to college next year, and probably a pretty big one. Being cool is alright, but honestly I'm trying to be at the top of the social hierarchy. I know I can do more.


Me and girls have been alright. Usually the average ones come to me and that's how it's always been I guess. I don't want the average girls anymore, it's starting to become frustrating. I don't want to take just an average girl to prom. When I was a junior last year, I was talking to this girl who wanted me to take her to prom. I told her no because she was just average. I didn't actually say that, I just told her I wasn't good in big social settings (Which Is the truth) lol, but I couldn't do it. But truthfully, talking to regular girls does seem to be a lot easier than talking to the pretty ones. That's always been tough for me to do if I thought highly of her. Hopefully I can overcome that. So to wrap things up for this female paragraph, my goals are to One, Find a Prom Date. Two, Get a group of girls that I talk to often. And three, get a group of girls that just want a sexual relationship at the end of the day.



To sum things up, I just want to be more open in social situations, more receptive to people, get better looking women and be successful with my music career which is the least of my worries right now.
I'll be posting everyday, so hopefully you guys stick with me and help me become the better person I know I can be.
Goals:
- Be finished my album by the end of the year
- Find a prom date
- Five #'s of girls for casual sex
- Five #'s of girls for a possible relationship
- Be comfortable in social situations
- Become comfortable with college setting

How I'll reach my Goals:
- Continously work everyday on songwriting, new ideas and concepts
- Start getting #'s, talking with more women
- Approach, use Kino, Etc
- Put myself into more social situations, going to parties, etc.

 

[Watawata]

Congrats on not settling for average, so many people do it, and theyre lifes are meaningless.

 

[GoldenEra95]

Congrats on not settling for average, so many people do it, and theyre lifes are meaningless.

Thanks, I just decided to not live like that anymore honestly. I want to excel in my social life, family life and my craft.

 

[GoldenEra95]

10/31/2013
Things went pretty well today. There's this one girl in my math class who keeps staring at me. Last time I actually had a conversation with her was my Freshmen year but I think I'm going to start something up with her pretty soon. At least get her number. I've been procrastinating a bit with her, however she's showing me good signs. For now, let's call her Girl #1. This is one of the really beautiful ones.
Now, let's call this next girl , girl #2. I've been wanting to have sex with her for a while, but all I ever really had with her was mild conversations. She's pretty cool, nothing past sex with her though. Anyway, I had a conversation with her today and we were pretty much flirting. She told me I was attractive, etc. She'll be on my list.
Lastly, let's call this last girl , girl #3. Now, I've been texting this girl for a while now and we've been leaning towards sex. Every time I see her she says hi, she likes me a lot. Right now, I'm just trying to seal the deal with her. Thing is, when I first started texting, we used to text a lot. Then things started to die down on her part via slow text backs, **** like that. So, I slowed down the texting and now I'm just trying to get her in person outside of school. I'm trying not to get her bored, so I keep my distance sometimes.
Until I have sex with her, that's probably what I'm going to keep doing.