Alexechoes
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Hi. I'm Alex.
A ****ton of changes happened in my life in the past 1,5 years.
Basically, I quit drinking. And drugs. I was hardcore abusing. I have been with maybe 50 girls in my life. Never first kiss one of them while beeing sober.
So now, im basically recycling the girls I've been with.
I saw one (which i dated in university) this summer, and we had a good thing going on, then she left for work 2 months, and didnt call, which i was desapointed. I kept in touch with her when she was away, anf to be honest, i wish she had call me when she got back, today. So i text her, she was going dancing... i was very desapointed. I also wanted sex, since last time i had sex was about 1 month ago
Also, i lost confident in myself during the past few years. I was in a LTR about 3 years ago, and really let myself go. I gain 70 pounds (peak at 245 pounds - 5,9ft, when i decided i quit drinking). I used to be in decent shape (about 170-180) before, womans were actracted naturally without too much effort, and alcool and drugs were my self-confidence booster.
I got back to trainning (bresilian jiu jitsu) about 8 months ago. I started eating healthy about 2 months ago. I'm now at 212 pounds. I also sold one of my small business (im an entreprenor) last week; i have 35 less hours to work.
I always have worked my ass off, so im kind of in the middle of a wtf i do now.
1. Get back to intense trainning and get that body back, beacause im not confident about my ****ing body right now, and it ****ing sucks.
2. Wtf do i do with that girl. I would really like to see her, but i fell like im getting emotionnal about this, and that basically, since i have no ****ing game since im sober, shes my best option for now (wasnt in the past), and i think i am acting like a needy little *****.
3. Now what the **** do I do. I need to start somewhere. Im intresting educated, funny, and i manage companies and make sales for a living for god sake. I am 10000% confident at work, but i become a ****ing afc qhen it comes to woman when im sober.
A ****ton of changes happened in my life in the past 1,5 years.
Basically, I quit drinking. And drugs. I was hardcore abusing. I have been with maybe 50 girls in my life. Never first kiss one of them while beeing sober.
So now, im basically recycling the girls I've been with.
I saw one (which i dated in university) this summer, and we had a good thing going on, then she left for work 2 months, and didnt call, which i was desapointed. I kept in touch with her when she was away, anf to be honest, i wish she had call me when she got back, today. So i text her, she was going dancing... i was very desapointed. I also wanted sex, since last time i had sex was about 1 month ago
Also, i lost confident in myself during the past few years. I was in a LTR about 3 years ago, and really let myself go. I gain 70 pounds (peak at 245 pounds - 5,9ft, when i decided i quit drinking). I used to be in decent shape (about 170-180) before, womans were actracted naturally without too much effort, and alcool and drugs were my self-confidence booster.
I got back to trainning (bresilian jiu jitsu) about 8 months ago. I started eating healthy about 2 months ago. I'm now at 212 pounds. I also sold one of my small business (im an entreprenor) last week; i have 35 less hours to work.
I always have worked my ass off, so im kind of in the middle of a wtf i do now.
1. Get back to intense trainning and get that body back, beacause im not confident about my ****ing body right now, and it ****ing sucks.
2. Wtf do i do with that girl. I would really like to see her, but i fell like im getting emotionnal about this, and that basically, since i have no ****ing game since im sober, shes my best option for now (wasnt in the past), and i think i am acting like a needy little *****.
3. Now what the **** do I do. I need to start somewhere. Im intresting educated, funny, and i manage companies and make sales for a living for god sake. I am 10000% confident at work, but i become a ****ing afc qhen it comes to woman when im sober.