Blacksheep
Master Don Juan
I don't know what is happening, but I think I'm sabotaging all the confidence and self-esteem I build those last months.
Yesterday I just turn on the "dont give a ****" mode, went to a party with a friend and didn't answered my gf. I don't appreciated it but I just act impulsive and couldn't be doing nothing in my home... just wanted to go out.
The problem was that I drink something and was enjoying this party. Then 2 girls approached me... the first was a 6 and the second was a 9. I coudn't resist this second and kissed her. There was a long time it wasn't happen and I just made this sh1t.
I've made something that was stupid. I can't just accept it... why do I have this love feeling for this gf I have and also I'm so freaked out by everything I've learned here and about Red pill? I really like her, but I just can't believe everything she say is true. And I can see that, if I want to make it work I can't have my music project anymore, because I know I can lose her.
It sounds pathetic, but I'm not feeling good with that, and I don't want to be depressive anymore... I almost made bull**** because of that and I'm working so hard to keep my mind healthy.
I really like this person and I didn't wanted to hurt her doing those things... but at the same way I have to fight with my male instinct and my fears.
So many cases I hear about friends who dated for years, got married and then everything just ****ed up... so many men that gave up on everything and live only by the relationship.
Is this "love" I feel killing myself? Or this fear was the whole problem?
Yesterday I just turn on the "dont give a ****" mode, went to a party with a friend and didn't answered my gf. I don't appreciated it but I just act impulsive and couldn't be doing nothing in my home... just wanted to go out.
The problem was that I drink something and was enjoying this party. Then 2 girls approached me... the first was a 6 and the second was a 9. I coudn't resist this second and kissed her. There was a long time it wasn't happen and I just made this sh1t.
I've made something that was stupid. I can't just accept it... why do I have this love feeling for this gf I have and also I'm so freaked out by everything I've learned here and about Red pill? I really like her, but I just can't believe everything she say is true. And I can see that, if I want to make it work I can't have my music project anymore, because I know I can lose her.
It sounds pathetic, but I'm not feeling good with that, and I don't want to be depressive anymore... I almost made bull**** because of that and I'm working so hard to keep my mind healthy.
I really like this person and I didn't wanted to hurt her doing those things... but at the same way I have to fight with my male instinct and my fears.
So many cases I hear about friends who dated for years, got married and then everything just ****ed up... so many men that gave up on everything and live only by the relationship.
Is this "love" I feel killing myself? Or this fear was the whole problem?