I think I finally did it

[backbreaker]

As anyone who reads any of my posts can see.. although for the most part, accecpted my mistkes I made with my old oneitis, I'd be lying if I said I never thought about her from time to time. I dont' know why.. well... being hot helps, but I run into alot of hot women, I guess it was the competitive nature of me, getting something I can't have. However, as far as dating other women, jealousy, etc, I have long moved on.

Anyway, I get a call today, she says she is in my area and wants to stop by. I haven't seen her in about half a year. So she comes over, and the entire time I am looking at her thinking "damn... you aren't worth it" And funny thing is, she looks better now then she ever has. But all I could see is I don't know what it was, but I just was thinking, as good looking as you are, you aren't worth it, even as a friend.

And she thinks she is doing me a favor for stopping buy for 5-10 mintues... which is honestly my fault from mistakes i made int he past, can't complain about it, but nevertheless.

So she leaves, and I delete her phone number the second she leaves. I actually felt kinda disgusted wtih myself after she left, like I finally turned around and looked in the mirror or something.

Anyway, I don't know what it was, but I don't think I will be thinking about her too much in the near future. I am proud of myself but at the same time, sorta disgusted that I not wasted, but spent that long, pretty much wanting something that bad, that wasn't worth the value I placed on it.

 

[Last Man Standing]

Beauty is more than skin deep - she is "hot" on the outside and "cold" on the inside makes her an ugkly woman!!

Good looking Hors become bland as time passes - what you need is a good woman who has a good character and values and one who genuinely cares for you - I take it you are tiring of the hor scene!!

 

[backbreaker]

well, i've known her for 5 years, know her like the back of my hand... is she a *****? no.. is she childish, very.

Just a bunch of silly ****. And I have enough friends, but as good looking as she is, there are thousands of woment hat look better, hell I saw one today. She just irriatates me now. She gets these guys, who literarly worship her, she wont'' date a guy she is very attracted to, he is either extremely aveage or like her last BF of 3 years, ass ugly, just so she can get the constant ego trip.

What the **** did I do? It's all starting to seriously sink in.

 

[Bible_Belt]

Everybody has their weakness. It seems like everybody has a oneitis. We think we want that one girl, but in the end it turns out to be a blessing because we would have been whipped anyway. So many married couples are ruled by the woman because the guy married his high school girlfriend and could never imagine himself with another woman so he ends up a whipped husband whom no one respects, not even the oneitis wife he is sucking up to.

 

[backbreaker]

I mean it's REALLLY sinking in... DAMN.. and I actually have alot going for me. I'm soo happy I never dated her, because I can a) do better in all honestly and b) would not be where I am, not the same drive

But everything happens for a reason

 

[Bonhomme]

Props, backbreaker.

What you did in the past is not what counts (unless it has resulted in consequences that are making your life more difficult now), but your current attitude is what's important.