I need to stop dating cougars...

[Johnny Alias]

Ugh. So one of my main plates as of late was a 45 year old barbie doll. We had a lot of fun together, but god she could COMPLAIN. She is one of those types that uses the all encompassing statements of "YOU ALWAYS DO THIS" or "EVERYTIME THIS HAPPENS". Etc. Nothing I did seemed to be good enough, or was completely brushed off in moments of her anger. Beyond that she was irritated that I didn't want to do a long term deal with her because i want a kid, "This is going to end! Why should I stick around?" were common lines, but she did because I'm fun and the sex was amazing.

She's been suffering from some clinical depression lately and I'm fairly certain some pre-menopausal hormone issues. Drama. Drama. DRAMA. And apparently I, rather than a chemical imbalance in her brain, was the root cause. Amazing.

What's my point? Yeah I'm spinning plates, but do you really want to spin plates with someone that doesn't have the slightest chance of becoming an LTR? I do want a kid. It cannot happen with her. It couldn't happen with my ex BPD alcoholic gf either. 43 and EXTREMELY unlikely to suddenly quit drinking and conceive miracle baby at her age.

Never again. My age (38) or younger... most likely younger. There's just no point in seeing women this old with all their baggage, bs, hormones, fading looks, attachment issues, and in my case, barren wombs.

Thanks for letting me vent.

 

[MillionBillionaire]

Get dem young chicks brah ... better eggs.

 

[Johnny Alias]

Thanks buddy. Needed to hear that.

I screwed up NC just now... sort of. Talked to the ex BPD's friend since I saw she and her new guy were going to a party I RSVP'd to ages ago. Apparently they're giddy that both I and his ex are going to be there. Had to ask if everything was peachy in their new relationship and apparently it is. They had been fighting for a while and now it's great??? Just sucks. I know I shouldn't care but I do. I want him to experience the same crap I went through. Why isn't it happening???? God, its not fair.

I'm still spinning plates. I'm still hanging in there.

Don't think I'm going to go. I'm taking a hottie out on Friday. That will help.

Any thoughts are much appreciated.

 

[Johnny Alias]

Hate to repeatedly post like this but I found out that second hand info is CRAP.

Another ex friend of hers just let me know things are FAR from peachy. Again I shouldnt care but this made me feel better. Apparently they were at a santa pub crawl recently, a bar fight broke out when she mouthed off to someone and he got arrested for fighting! WOW. Oh and the people they stayed with in the mountains NEVER want her back again because she's a complaining drunken disaster.

Sorry. Again I know I shouldnt care but man sometimes you need to hear "All is not well in Muddville."