illmatic1005 said:
i just wanna die...everyone who i become friends with always end up flaking on me(guy friends or girls)..some think i am annoying, some think i am too quiet/shy, some say i am too crazy/outgoing for them
wtf?..how can a person be all these at once..if ur shy u cant be outgoing
im just sick of every person (boy or girl, cousin or friend, lifelong buddy or someone i just met) flaking and whatnot...
i can get girls, do stuff with them, have fun, smart, good-looking but i never feel fulfilled in ANYTHING I do..no matter what..i just rather be dead i dont kno what to do!
Tell them to use Head and Shoulders... barring that, the guys should get buzz cuts. When I was younger, that helped, and I haven't had any issues since.
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Actually, sometimes it seems that way. Right now, it feels like all the women are choosing to flake out on me personally. I'm telling you, I can't get a woman to hang out as platonic friends in a group right now. And it feels like a lot of friends are doing that to me lately as well. It seems like I'm the one who calls and plans these fun things, and they don't initiate contact. But then I realize:
1) They're generally very flaky spaced out people (a lot of them)
2) It sometimes not personal at all. Sometimes it is, but not always.
3) It's not always true.
On occasion, when it's a bad day, it feels like: "Not 1 woman in the world is attracted to me" Actually, that's not true if I really think about it. There's one that finds me attractive - one of my exes... There's maybe two or three if you count some teen girls that I would never date (cause I'm no pervert). Ok, so there are people who are attracted. Well... so then I have to add in some details and caveats in there. And eventually it starts feeling silly, to have all those details in there.
It went from "No women are attracted to me..." to "Ok, well... no christian woman (who doesn't have baggage) who likes the stuff I like, between the ages of 19 and 30, who doesn't smoke or do drugs, or isn't 400 pounds likes me. Whoa is me."
"Nobody loves me." If you have responsible, decent, parents who are alive, then there's 1 or 2 people that love you. If you have a sister and or brother, and you have a decent relationship, and they're decent people, then you have several more. If you have a niece or nephew, most likely they love you. Add another few. Grandparents? Two more. Got at least one honest true, genuine best friend? Tack on one more. There could be anywhere from 1 to 1000's of people who love you (Granted, it's various types of love, but...).
It could be that.
And yes, the whole Jesus wants to be your friend thing too. But stay away from Luke, because he's probably going to be smited into next week for making a joke at the big guy's expense, and you don't need to get pulled in too.
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