Well yes my problem is this came to my mind couse I'm young and not really a player (although I learnt from experience that serious things are not for me so I started from there) so I have feelings. I dont use most of the stuff here couse I have looks so its kinda easy for me.
But this girl met her months ago she visits my city rarely came to stay in the hotel I work at fuked up the healthy thinking I had. She is a mess "loves" some guy who left her (Ive pulled that **** keeping someone hanging on I know how it works), then dates some guy who she dont care about and so on... Long story short she shot me down, although I basically told her everything she is 5 min after meeting her so that was cool, it was transparent but I was in a tough period and didnt play my cards right then she tried to use me as a girlfriend only so I shot her down at that. So I kinda ruled her out of all equasions and just sometimes talked to her when bored at work couse were both born on 9th of October and have alot in common + she has a taste in music so she always evaluates the stuff I write correctly. But meh...
Ye so last week I kinda slept with her at the hotel (not on my shift) so that was kinda nice...
But ye this **** sucks. Now I have a couple of girls going on and I havent spoken to her since. I know this is how you kill emotion. But why does it have to be like that - perfectly intelligent and well mannered people who are supposed to be most OK, forced to turn to robots just couse of how the world works.
No, society is not evolving, its devolving to ****, and peeps just cant express themself no matter what so we become alienated. Been listening to Pink Floyd's Animals alot lately - it reflects my thoughts pretty well. And the human race stopped evolving when we realised we can make our surroundings work in our favour and not the opposite which is the way nature works.
That, or its just that Im a mess, maybe I cant handle playing for sex only correctly, but I see it all around me.
