Hi everyone!
Well, I've being the DJ Journey for about 4 - 5 months now, my mindset has changed drastically to one where I don't care about the fact I'm still a kiss,date and sex virign at the age of 19. However, right now, I feel a little lost....
Last weekend was a bit of a write off for me, namely because of issues concerning the family and alcohol problems ad following the weekend, I feel a little lost, like my sense of direction has gone to the gutters.
What I'm trying to say is, well, is my home area doesn't suit me at all, not one bit, all that people care about here is themselves, drinking, drug dealing, stuff like that, almost everyone goes out for the sole reason of getting drunk ( not me, the reason being connected to family alcohol problems )
Its like everything is against me, I can't enjoy myself because I never have enough money but I know that getting a part time that I'll hate would be really bad for my own mental health. I can't express myself because of the barbaric treatment from family of it when I was younger, so I have to keep it a secert.
I dream of getting out of this area and making something better of myself but right now, its like my mind is blank and doesn't want to do anything, it doesn't want to endure another 4 years of this in order to be able to escape ( college degree ) , it doesn't want to work, it doesn't want to do anything.
In short, I feel a little lost at the moment. Any suggestions op how to get of this rut?
Thanks in advance everyone.
NHY
Well, I've being the DJ Journey for about 4 - 5 months now, my mindset has changed drastically to one where I don't care about the fact I'm still a kiss,date and sex virign at the age of 19. However, right now, I feel a little lost....
Last weekend was a bit of a write off for me, namely because of issues concerning the family and alcohol problems ad following the weekend, I feel a little lost, like my sense of direction has gone to the gutters.
What I'm trying to say is, well, is my home area doesn't suit me at all, not one bit, all that people care about here is themselves, drinking, drug dealing, stuff like that, almost everyone goes out for the sole reason of getting drunk ( not me, the reason being connected to family alcohol problems )
Its like everything is against me, I can't enjoy myself because I never have enough money but I know that getting a part time that I'll hate would be really bad for my own mental health. I can't express myself because of the barbaric treatment from family of it when I was younger, so I have to keep it a secert.
I dream of getting out of this area and making something better of myself but right now, its like my mind is blank and doesn't want to do anything, it doesn't want to endure another 4 years of this in order to be able to escape ( college degree ) , it doesn't want to work, it doesn't want to do anything.
In short, I feel a little lost at the moment. Any suggestions op how to get of this rut?
Thanks in advance everyone.
NHY