To clarify a bit,
I've known the girl since august. And that's enough time for me to gauge with what I think it pretty reasonable accuracy the things I like about her. Firstly, she knows how to treat a man. She waits on me whenever I'm anywhere, gets me drinks, refills them, makes me food, sets the table, brings me a footstool when I'm sitting on the couch, ect. She recognizes that I am very intelligent and wise, and respects that. She said as much last night. I kept teasing her and laughing at her and she just stopped for a moment and I looked at her like I was expecting an answer. And she said "Rubato, you're just so smart and wise, and... I'm... just...." and I interjected with what was probably the smoothest thing I've said this year. She's humble. She's got a certain sass about her that I really like. I think she's hilarious. She has great taste in music, which is different than mine, but still appreciable. She has a strong ballet background and I've been teaching her to ballroom dance, which she has been enjoying a lot. She's very interested in physical fitness and healthy eating, ran track in high school and has continued running nearly every day through college. And as a result, she's beautiful. I realize I'm freaking brilliant when it comes to academics and have an extremely sharp mind... the girl is spot on about that... but she's no intellectual slouch either. She's about ready to go to grad school to get her PhD in chemistry. She shares my general sense of spirituality. I mean, I could keep going on and on.
But the point of this was to say that I have substantive reasons why I want to have a relationship with this girl. It's not like for some purely random reasons I happened to run in to a beautiful girl willing to entertain dates with me and decided I like her because of the way she makes me feel. And I won't pretend there isn't some degree of that last element going on.... no girl has made me feel the way this one does probably since my very first relationship when I was 16.
I have also used jealously plot-lines with this girl and she knows I have a ton of stuff going on in my life (hobby and non hobby wise). There's one particular girl I know who is actually more beautiful than the one I like, and I've used her to my advantage a few times. The more beautiful girl has a boyfriend, but really likes me and will flat out open me even when I'm in the middle of talking with the girl I like. This happened last week in a pretty dramatic way... she just walked up to me and told me I looked like I was stressed, took my hand and started doing some reflexology crap on it. The girl I like looked like she was poised to blow a blood vessel out in her eye! This more beautiful girl is also in the class I have with the girl I like, I will make sure that the girl I like frequently sees me walk in to the classroom with her and usually at least one other girl.
The girl I like also knows I run my own business and am an actively involved musician when school and the legal realm aren't eating up all of my time.
So I feel like I'm doing everything right.
But to be honest, the one thing I'm worried about is staying level. Like I said, I think I've only felt like this one other time.
