I am Alpha

[donking]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superiority_Complex

Superiority complex is a psychological defense mechanism in which a person's feelings of superiority counter or conceal his or her feelings of inferiority

 

[adam225]

Although I admire the OP's dedication...holy sh1t I cringed bad when I read the entire post.



Here is what I view of this situation...

1. Low self-esteem girl breaks up with low self-esteem guy.
2. Low self-esteem guy then acts extremely beta and tries to get her back.
3. Low self-esteem girl denies him.
4. Low self-esteem guy then tries to turn into a "real man" but also still trying to act "sensitive" and "caring".
5. Low self-esteem girl on the other hand, is getting no attention from higher value guys and deems the low self-esteem guy as "convenient", and convinces herself that the guy has "changed" and become more valuable.
6. Low self-esteem girl convinces herself take the guy back.
7. Low self-esteem guy thinks he's master of the universe now, falsely giving him self-confidence that will shatter in a second.


How I see this ending? The OP will revert back to his former self because all this "new side of him" is just a weak facade because no one can just change into a better, more wholly confident self in just "13" days.

Then the girl will break it up with him again and this will be a neverending cycle until she meets a real man who will sweep her off her feet and the OP will be completely forgotten.


~BSmooth

Very well put.

 

[Justin Time]

First off. My ex has NO self esteem issues. She gets hit on by guys all the time. She is hot as f*ck.

That said, I don't have low self esteem. You guys are on some type of f*cking crack. If anyone has any low self esteem, it's half you egotistical bastards on here running your mouth thinking you're hot **** and you know how to get all the b*tches. If you knew all that sh!t you wouldn't be here in the first place. Grow the f*ck up.

I used to be a shy a$$ kid growing up. I didn't like being put on the spot, and tended to do **** on my own. I used to wear my heart on my sleeve, brilliant in school and everyone looked to me for not just questions about the world they couldn't answer, but matters relating to general knowledge and everyday life. I wont brag about myself on here to you jack*sses who claim to know and are "gods" of sex. You're retarded if you think you know more about what I'm doing than I do. Now read and enjoy the damn doc. You obviously have nothing better to do at this time.

You're all a bunch of f*cking lunatics if you think I'm some AFC Beta b!tch. Here's my latest entry:


I actually do care about her. Can I stand to be without her? YES. I know it's a difficult concept for some people to wrap their heads around, however it's not impossible. I've gotten to a point I consider to be the relationship equivalent of the event horizon. This isn't my first/longest relationship. I know that I'm capable of forgetting about someone if I wanted to. I've been in a relationship twice as long as this last one and feel very confident with my approach and the reasons I'm doing it. Yes, I might crash and burn if I gravitate towards her without the necessary security, but I still leave myself open to go the other way. If I thought she was a waste of my time, I'd be gone. Either way, this would be a totally different conversation if we didn't get busy four times in a row a couple nights ago...


...After we came back from the partying in the city, she claimed she had no regrets, and would do it again. We had a little disagreement not long after that, where she showed up to my apt. at 1am and we ended up talking four almost two hours about what we argued about. She later apologized for doing that and we continued on as usual. Texting back and forth, we basically just chatted about random stuff, then she changes the topic, and let's quote:

her: I enjoyed the time spent with you in ny and also enjoyed you holding me.
her: Yes that is harder to admit than you think. Good night

The conversation got a LOT dirtier....but I'll keep it pg. That naughty girl wanted me, but no matter what words she chose, none could convey the lust, the tension, the desire built up inside. I suggested she could come over...but as late as it was 2am, she said she didn't wanna keep me up from going to work since I work early in the AM. She had other plans...

That night, she told me good night at least five times (because apparently she couldn't sleep), She begged to talk to me on the phone. She asked me to call her, so I did, and we chatted for a few. I told her I couldn't stay on the phone and that I had to get in the shower. Of course her next suggestion was... "Well, take the phone with you."...


...I'll carry on. We got off the phone after much pleading by her for me to stay on and called it a night, she texted me till I fell asleep. We talked about how she'd get upset if her phone went off and she had gotten a text, but it wasn't mine...and how excited she'd get when it was in fact a text from me. I thought to myself...It's close...but I'm a very patient man. I know the road she's traveling. I wont walk by her side there, but I'll meet her at the destination. If she chooses to exit early, or not continue...well then, her loss, and she'll know it.

Next day (Tuesday of this week) I woke up to a text message "good morning, handsome".

Tuesday night was LOADS of fun...

edit: There's a reason this thread is called "I am Alpha". There's a good f*cking reason. You obviously don't know my life story, so if you're one of the dumb sonofa*****es that cUn't get what I'm saying through your thick skull, lay off the pipe.

 

[The_411]

Guys you've got it all wrong, I was able to come here and after three days and turn my life around so Justintime knows exactly what he's talking about.

 

[1-800-HellNo]

inb4 she finds someone else and flips on you so quick.
inb4 she goes NC on YOU and your left feeling 100x worse than you did before.

 

[Justin Time]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superiority_Complex

Superiority complex is a psychological defense mechanism in which a person's feelings of superiority counter or conceal his or her feelings of inferiority

Dude...quit smoking...it's bad for your health. I've never EVER thought I was inferior to anyone. My old problem was I used to be captain save-a-ho. I'll admit I always wanted to rescue the damsel in distress. I did that for the longest f*cking time. Bad habit...but I was determined to break it.

I eventually found this site...and decided I was gonna stop doing that **** because people walk all over you whether they realize it or not IF you let them. Yeah it's ****in difficult, but I decided I would no longer make people's problems my own. If I have a problem with someone, I let them know there's a f*cking problem. I'm not sure if you guys get it. I couldn't even disagree with someone without feeling some kind of way about it. Now, however, I couldn't care less what anyone else thinks. If you're not a part of my family, you're just another person out there. If I can't benefit from you some way or another, then wtf am I doing talking to you?

Bigsmooth, you remind me of some of my younger years, haha. grow a f*cking pair dude, you sound like a douchebag with no facts.

Stop jumping to conclusions and WAIT till you know more before you start talking sh!t. Just because I'm not acting beta to your GOD-SENT Alpha advice, you're gonna start yakking and b!tching that I'm an idiot. The same sh!t you guys are preaching to me, you negate by expecting me to forget about it when I'm talking to you people on here. :crackup:

 

[Justin Time]

I think I'll spend some time updating here.

Tuesday (Not the last Tuesday, but the one prior) was a lot of fun. Like I said, she had plans and she revealed them to me that night. She came over and we greeted each other at the door with a hug. She seemed a little excited as she told me about her day before we even got to the living room. After some small talk in the kitchen, we went to the living room and she sat in the couch while I finished up some stuff in the kitchen.

I came into the living room and sat down in the couch across from her and told her that I still had those episodes of the show to which she had been going through withdrawal. She grew excited and said Let's watch them!...I'll take the liberty to say we did not watch a single one from start to finish...

...Three minutes into the first of four episodes, she was in the couch next to me. I had motioned for her to come over and she gladly obliged. She sat with her legs on my lap and I begin to stroke them.. five minutes in and I was rubbing her stomach and working my way as the show progressed... Within the first ten minutes of the show..her pants were off and I was rubbing her inner thighs softly as she stayed "focused" on the show...

At this point, I already knew I had her, so I could play all the games I want, this was already over. I slipped my hand in her panties and started caressing her little button, along with the occasional slip of my finger inside her. She started grinding on my finger and then i started giving her full attention with both arms. Her entire body began to obey my every physical command. I gently massaged my way into her bra and touching all her sensitive spots at once by introducing my lips as well.

I slipped off her bra and we began kissing...She was voracious. She had an appetite for me, and I for her. She couldn't help but grab me and pull me onto her as we made out. She could feel how hard I was and couldn't keep her hand off...the package... I would playfully push her hand away, but she kept coming back for more. She ripped the only thing I was wearing...off (shorts) and proceeded to (redacted).

(redacted)

We came to rest on the couch and we both realized the episode had been finished. I got us both something to drink as we sat there reclined in the couch, sweating under the cold of the A/C...I then suggested to her we should finish watching the show. She agreed.

So we positioned ourselves as we were, both in the same couch. We finished watching the episode and got a full 5 mins into the second episode (they're 20 mins long) before we both decided we were more interested in exploring each other than this show we both have been addicted to.

We started kissing each other slowly at first, then we (redacted)

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and then (redacted) (redacted)

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She then sat on my (redacted) (redacted)
(redacted) after (redacted)

whew!! We started laughing by the end of round two at the fact that we missed the second episode. We again had to put the second episode on a second time. By this time it was around midnight and we still had two more episodes after this one!

We started watching the third one..and I'd be lying if I said that lasted three minutes. The more we fvcked, the hornier she'd get...and I was willing to lay it down. (Keep in mind...this is the guy who has not been fapping either!) We went hard...and long. The screaming i almost feared would wake up my upstairs neighbor..but I didn't care...she didn't either. If I didn't know my name before then, I'm pretty sure she left aural imprints on my inner ear. The couches had moved about a foot away from the walls by this point and we just ravaged each other. We had our third orgasm for the night and after sweating profusely for the third time, we figured we've had enough.

That was gonna be it. We shouldn't even have been doing this according to her, but when we're around each other, the sexual energy is enormous. We can't help but to desire this full contact sexual dominance that envelops our bodies when we touch. Lust that felt so good, nothing else feels necessary.

We finished the third episode...and started the fourth... As we watched, we were surprised as we got through the first ten minutes and were still watching...though some minimal teasing had begun. Before we knew it, I was on top of her and she was screaming in between panting and thrusting "I ....Thought...we....were......done!" I reply "I...guess...not!"

We took this one to the other couch, behind the couch, on the arm of the couch, into the bedroom, on the left side of the bed, on the right side, near the back of the bed, near the front of the bed for the finale. I then introduced her to something I hadn't in the first three rounds. Though she was familiar with this...she hasn't had this in a while. I call it the jackhammer...

...The orgasms and screams were out of this world. The muscular contractions of her entire body were completely involuntary. We held each other for the duration of muscle spasms that betrayed her lack of natural physical strength as her pelvic thrusts were enough to keep me aloft as i was on top of her and inside her at the same time. As I kept going, she released...and I released...only briefly till I pulled out and just laid next to her in exasperation...

 

[Syrio]

I was going to make a legitimate comment here stating why I disagree with some of the points you made, Just In Time, but there is waaayyyyy too much here that you've said that is just ridiculous. So I'm just going to point out one thing you said:

"I've never EVER thought I was inferior to anyone."

If this is true, that's not a good thing - that's an extremely bad thing. Part of being an intelligent, reasonable human being is realizing that there are people who are better than you at a lot of things and you can LEARN from them. People here are trying to teach you ideas but you're hiding behind your wall of "every situation is different and you guys don't know my situation very well so therefore your one-size-fits-all advice doesn't count". If there's one thing I've learned in life, it's that people who have more experience are right a surprisingly high percentage of the time.

So I guess I sort of did make a legitimate comment actually, but there's still SO much more I could say about how absurd everything you are saying here is...

 

[Justin Time]

What happened July 19th and 20th.??

I'll get to that soon. Things are continuing on the same path. She's out of town with family this weekend. We spoke yesterday/last night and i'll be speaking to her in a couple minutes.

Syrio, I've never felt inferior..never have, never will. People are too different to be direct copies of each other, and I've not met another person quite like myself...(unless my mom hid something/someone from me all my years growing up?)

I used to be the most gullible person on the planet...well, maybe not the most gullible, but I was extremely gullible when I was growing up. At the same time, however, I was the one most people sought for information. Feeling inferior is problematic because that traps you mentally. The feeling of inferiority in my opinion is a lost battle. I'm obviously not the best at many things, but why should I let the fact that I'm not the fastest man in the world, the president of the free world, the first man to fly to the moon, make me feel inferior? We are all parallel beings-None greater than the other.

 

[hockeyfreak79]

So I came here 13 days ago, broken like a three legged puppy that was just abandoned by its owner. Unrelenting pain and anguish after much failure in trying to win her back. Desperation, blood sweat and tears tore me to pieces day after day, night after night. Lost and confused, lost focus and just total hopelessness. Ahead was nothing but a lonely road into never ending darkness. All was lost...

Today, 13 days after I posted here, 30 days after I initiated NC, 9 days after I broke NC, I am a different man. She wants me...and she just can't get enough. Stay tuned.

This first post says it all. She dumped your ass, ripped your heart out and will do it again with no regrets. The reasons she left you still exist man! And now you want get her back so she can do it again!?! Why the hell would you care about this woman after what she put you through?

Congrats man all you have managed to do is pretty much get some pity sex from the EX. That is all you've done really, Alpha males do not need EX GF as friends. SMH, apparently when she dumped you she didn't give you enough closure. Man she dumped you that's all the closure you need, MOVE ON. The next time she cuts ties with you it will hurt even more especially when you find out she's fvckin someone else.

 

[Justin Time]

This first post says it all. She dumped your ass, ripped your heart out and will do it again with no regrets. The reasons she left you still exist man! And now you want get her back so she can do it again!?! Why the hell would you care about this woman after what she put you through?

Congrats man all you have managed to do is pretty much get some pity sex from the EX. That is all you've done really, Alpha males do not need EX GF as friends. SMH, apparently when she dumped you she didn't give you enough closure. Man she dumped you that's all the closure you need, MOVE ON. The next time she cuts ties with you it will hurt even more especially when you find out she's fvckin someone else.

I sincerely appreciate the concern. This isn't pity sex though. Trust me..I've had it before...As far as her doing this to me again...not a chance. I've dissociated myself from those feelings. Unlike you seem to be assuming, however, I'm not using this to "get close" to her, nor get "closure". I've broken the hard ties I had to her. There is a lot more substance than what's on the surface. She's not the type to sleep around, very quiet...and definitely confused. Well, I'm not gonna be the ******* that just disappears because things got a little tough. Meanwhile she's trying to figure this out, I'm further distancing myself emotionally. I'll stay only as close as I need to. That way, I don't end up hurt like I was before.

 

[VladPatton]

This first post says it all. She dumped your ass, ripped your heart out and will do it again with no regrets. The reasons she left you still exist man! And now you want get her back so she can do it again!?! Why the hell would you care about this woman after what she put you through?

Congrats man all you have managed to do is pretty much get some pity sex from the EX. That is all you've done really, Alpha males do not need EX GF as friends. SMH, apparently when she dumped you she didn't give you enough closure. Man she dumped you that's all the closure you need, MOVE ON. The next time she cuts ties with you it will hurt even more especially when you find out she's fvckin someone else.

↑↑↑↑↑↑↑Well put...and under 1,000 words! Agree 100%

 

[Justin Time]

FYI, she does not think she's better than me, or too good for me. I thought the alpha male was the guy that lives by the quote:

"I may not be Mr. Right, but I'll fvck you till he gets here!"

Here's some details on the break-up:

her: I'm going to x
me: I'm going with you
her: No, you're not
me: then you're not going
her: well I'm leaving now so you wont be in my way when I go tomorrow
me: if you leave don't come back

she left. The actual conversation was a lot more emotionally charged. She was very upset, as was I. There are precursors that I left out that are kinda relevant, but I'm not about to tell an entire story. Either way, until she starts showing interest in other men, and less interest in me...actually.. she just said a few nights ago we have more sex now than we did when we were together.
The only difference between us now and when we were together is that I didn't talk to other women romantically and she lived here. Both those things have changed, so how am I losing?

 

[Dalshtröm]

Someone mentioned attention seeking-eh? Attention vhoring.. Now that brings back a lot of memories.

Now, Justin seems real. There is nothing special in going back with an ex. In fact, it can make you closer than before. We tend to take for granted the things that we have. So Being apart can easily make you realise what is going away. There is a contrast. And life is illogical. So your theories that you are making here will fail. In this life, we have seen it all; we have seen that everything is possible. And as far as lovers getting back together is concerned, we have seen it happening so many times. In fact, it happens more often than the real break ups.

The sex that Justin is mentioning is quite beautiful. Never had an experience like that before. I guess I am just being doubtful because of lack of experience. But yes, that is my only doubt, the sex was pretty intense!

I have a deep feeling that if you can pull out a sex like that, like porn stars! You don't need to ever again come to this site seeking advices. And in just 13 days you have become an porn star. That is quite something!

Keep us updated. And also just to remind you, it is not very beautiful once you set the mentality of not getting deep into her. With that it starts to become manipulative, and all the joy of being in relationship is lost. There is much joy and beauty in relationships because there is in th first place, authentic love! So remember that.

 

[iamnobody]

her: I'm going to x
translation: Going to x is more appealing to me than you right now
me: I'm going with you
translation: I'm needy and controling
her: No, you're not
translation: Are you slow? I already told you I want to meet new guys.
me: then you're not going
translation: I'm even more insecure
her: well I'm leaving now so you wont be in my way when I go tomorrow
translation: I'm a fairytale princess and I do what I please. OH, AND YOU ARE IN MY WAY. Can you say entitlement issues?
me: if you leave don't come back
Yes, the ultimatum, the ultimate declaration of powerlessness. That was the kiss of death.

There are precursors that I left out that are kinda relevant, but I'm not about to tell an entire story.

Shocks. The plot thickens and I'm running out of popcorn.

 

[Plutoman]

This is entertaining.

 

[Justin Time]

I mentioned earlier that she was out of town. She was scheduled to come back monday afternoon and I would see her after I got out of work. I had done some work to her car today (Without it, coming to see me would be kind of difficult!) and mentioned to her that it'll cost her for the parts I purchased. I told her nein on the labor costs.

Lots of stuff happened today. I'm pretty close with her family so I took her younger brother and daughter out for ice cream today and to give her car a test ride after fixing it. I had a lot of errands to to and ended up getting home at 11:15pm tonight. She told me while I was running around that she had a surprise for me. I couldn't think what it could possibly be, but I was a patient man, I can wait. It's only a day anyway, right? wrong!

We were texting back and forth about random stuff. I asked her when they planned on leaving and she said she didn't know. I mentioned casually that it might be good to find out so she would know what time to wake up. Either way, after this convo was finished and I came home, I opened the fridge to grab something quick for dinner. Today had been a long day and I was hungry, thirsty, tired, but still enough energy to push through and get all this stuff done. I needed to make dinner, eat, finish setting up my music room, re-organize my bedroom, clear out the living room, work out and shower...all in an hour and a half! - That's what I told her. My first clue was her response "You wont do it" she said. I just thought she needed to have more faith in me...but she had plans...other plans. Does anyone else get the idea that this girl plots?

Anyway...after guzzling down some purposefully watered down cranberry grape juice, I threw some music on, switched the fan on high and I'm hustling away putting away stuff in between reps, organizing my music room, and just getting things done. As I was getting ready to head in the shower there was a knock on the door. My neighbor had just come in about 10 minutes ago and I'm figuring it's a little late and I must be keeping the poor guy up with my music. I said "just a minute" as I scoured the drawers looking for a pair of shorts as I stood there without any clothes on. Somehow it took me much longer than I anticipated to find a pair of shorts...especially since I just put them away not half an hour ago.

So I found a pair and head to the door. I got to open the door, but switched the lights on for my back porch, peeked through the blinds and who was standing there? Well...it was not the neighbor.

I opened the door in shock. I proceeded to pick my jaw up off the floor. There was this gorgeous young woman in a loose fitting mellow colored dress with a sweet potato pie and a smile that melts the heart of a man who couldn't love Jesus standing in front of him. We hugged each other as I was still in shock. "but you were supposed to be-"
"I know", she said with a smirk. "The look on your face was completely worth it"

I picked her up and we hugged again for a bit; after which I invited her in. We talked for a little about what happened and basically, she just really missed me and wanted to see me. She came back into town and went home just long enough to get in her car and drive her to see me. According to her, her mom caught a glimpse of her and said hi, she said "hey mom!" and just continued on her way out the house.

We were sitting on the couch talking casually, no sexual innuendos on my end, however...I did think how easy it would be to get in her dress (no crossdressing fag homo sh!t). A few moments passed and she climbs over on top of me...She said she wanted a hug...

...Well, of course I wont tell her no. She knows what she wants and how to get it. If you want a hug, from a guy, you climb onto him wearing your skirt, while he's wearing a pair of shorts, right!?

As we held each other, things started getting a little warm. I'd kiss her on her neck as she playfully nibbled on my ear. Our vocal conversation became much about nothing as our subliminal messages take over. This is the beauty in having two conversations at once with the same person... ( She just sent me a text as I'm writing this-I'll mention what it said in a bit). As she continued her lap dance, she said she'll have to leaving momentarily ( I took this as her telling me she can't wait any longer). I was getting harder as she was gyrating on top of me. Her a$$ was soft, plush and felt perfect. All I could think was how I wanted to slide my hard c*ck into this gorgeous woman.

In 2 seconds, my entire demeanor changed! I've resisted her long enough and now she's begging me! She's begging me to fulfill her fantasy and I will wait no longer. My animal instincts took over and my muscular arms picked her up and made way for my hands to get between us. I then discovered in this moment, she was wearing nothing but a thong underneath this dress...

Next update tomorrow-

 

[Justin Time]

News flash: If you havent banged another girl since the breakup you're not alpha.

banged 3 or 4

 

[JoeMarron]

Lol this thread was amusing. OP I think everyone is bashing you because you're calling yourself alpha when you've done things that are generally the complete opposite. However, regardless of whether what you did was alpha or not the fact is you're getting laid now. As long as you keep yourself emotionally distant and keep using her for sex you're good. You would be an idiot to try to resume an exclusive relationship with her.

 

[Justin Time]

Lol this thread was amusing. OP I think everyone is bashing you because you're calling yourself alpha when you've done things that are generally the complete opposite. However, regardless of whether what you did was alpha or not the fact is you're getting laid now. As long as you keep yourself emotionally distant and keep using her for sex you're good. You would be an idiot to try to resume an exclusive relationship with her.

I know a lot of people assume alpha to be an overdose of testosterone...however that's almost true. In a long forgotten era, this would be the case, but not in modern times. Social status symbols, attitude and a lesser dose of testosterone (the ability to relate) relating to the increased overall mate potential and competitive society we live in all play a part in shaping an alpha.

I'll use a popular example. Some would say that no way, Adam Levine is an alpha male, while in the minds of others, he is exactly where they'd like to be.


y'all gadda keep up wit da times brah!