These past few years i really lost most of my old friends and here I am now, I have nobody left and my life, to be honest, is pretty damn lonely (If you think I'm exaggerating, it's Saturday night and im sitting here in my room posting this)
Im 21 and live at home. i'm a little more mature than most guys my age so I'm not really into too much clubbing and partying, I love going out but to more family oriented activities like bowling, restaurants, mini-golf, places like dave and busters etc.
My main problem is how the hell do you start from scratch??? I don't really have any hobbies, most likely b/c I don't have any friends to share anything with (it's a viscious cycle).
I've tried going to a few places like this huge game room they have here and a bowling alley by myself... yea that took guts. Everybody is there with somebody, I can't just go up to someone and say "hey will you guys be my friends?" without looking like an idiot and possibly getting thrown out.
Ditto for school, I'll walk around through the cafeteria but everyone is in there with a group of people, you don't just go and sit with a random group of people without them thinking you are seriously ill in the head.
It really seems like you need at least one friend, ive been trying this whole year to start from scratch and it just doesn't seem possible. With one friend at least you can meet a friend or family member of theirs etc. and start branching out.... or you can actually go somewhere with them and strength in numbers, you don't seem as much of a creep if you start interacting with other people.
