loving
Senior Don Juan
So I've decided to give my lack of a social life one last kick for glory.
My initial plans were to walk into school tomorrow and not talk to anyone, to allow myself the comfort I held in social deprecation. I still don't know if I will do this, it may end up seeming like the right thing to do. That is not the issue I want to address here.
More importantly, there is this girl in my class. She's on her second or third try at grade 12 and I assume this is her last semester at my school. I assume this because I've never talked to her. Anyway, she's gorgeous. An 11 on my meter if I rated girls when I wasn't talking to guys about them.
She is my oneitis.
I've never felt this way about another girl before in my 17 year old life and everything I've learned has taught me that I'd be a fool to let another day go by without dealing with this.
My question is, how?
Something deep inside me wants to just tell her how I feel deeply and romantically as those thoughts are in nature, but I have never done something like this before. Some of you might say that I will not, but to those of you I say tomorrow I will take action, based on the advice I get.
If it were my words expressing how I felt, they would go something like, "Oneitis, I can't stop feeling for you. Every time we're near eachother I go crazy with passion so overwhelming it stops me from speaking. Until now, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I'm telling you this because I'm never going to lie to spare someone's feelings or play the bull**** game and so I want to know if there's a point to keeping these feelings for you or not, because they cannot keep within me anymore."
This is one of the few posts I made with a time limit, but I think one of the most important as well. I want to say I am fine with rejection. My goal is to let her know how I feel so either I will benefit from her presence in my life or be able to move on - I know I will not be able to get over this without taking some action.
She has a boyfriend, he made her steak one night. That's all I know about their relationship, and it's the one thing keeping me from telling her my feelings. My other option, I guess, is to... Well I don't know what I would say.
So I am here to ask you, what should I do?
My initial plans were to walk into school tomorrow and not talk to anyone, to allow myself the comfort I held in social deprecation. I still don't know if I will do this, it may end up seeming like the right thing to do. That is not the issue I want to address here.
More importantly, there is this girl in my class. She's on her second or third try at grade 12 and I assume this is her last semester at my school. I assume this because I've never talked to her. Anyway, she's gorgeous. An 11 on my meter if I rated girls when I wasn't talking to guys about them.
She is my oneitis.
I've never felt this way about another girl before in my 17 year old life and everything I've learned has taught me that I'd be a fool to let another day go by without dealing with this.
My question is, how?
Something deep inside me wants to just tell her how I feel deeply and romantically as those thoughts are in nature, but I have never done something like this before. Some of you might say that I will not, but to those of you I say tomorrow I will take action, based on the advice I get.
If it were my words expressing how I felt, they would go something like, "Oneitis, I can't stop feeling for you. Every time we're near eachother I go crazy with passion so overwhelming it stops me from speaking. Until now, I couldn't hold it in anymore. I'm telling you this because I'm never going to lie to spare someone's feelings or play the bull**** game and so I want to know if there's a point to keeping these feelings for you or not, because they cannot keep within me anymore."
This is one of the few posts I made with a time limit, but I think one of the most important as well. I want to say I am fine with rejection. My goal is to let her know how I feel so either I will benefit from her presence in my life or be able to move on - I know I will not be able to get over this without taking some action.
She has a boyfriend, he made her steak one night. That's all I know about their relationship, and it's the one thing keeping me from telling her my feelings. My other option, I guess, is to... Well I don't know what I would say.
So I am here to ask you, what should I do?