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Senior Don Juan
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Ok, this is more of a diary/stress relief. It is long. If you dont want to read/comment, thats fine. I know it will help me to get my thoughts out though.
Met this girl at a cookout in June. Hit it off great, set up a date for a couple nights later that went great with kiss close. She invites me over a few days later for coffee and a jog. Heavy making out before i leave for work (i work overnights). She tells me she will crawl into bed with me the next morning when i get home from work to sleep. She does. Starts getting hot and heavy. She stops me and says she has had a rough life and that her first boyfriend gave her genital herpes. I get scared and she leaves. She texts me later and she comes over so we can talk.
She tells me that she only sleeps with people she is in serious relationships with and is very picky and has never passed herpes to anyone. She then tells me how good she is at head and likes sex from behind.
Comes over a few days later and gives me head. We start talking about her STD again. She tells me she has slept with 12 people (she is 25, lost virginity at 19, had a 1 yr relationship, a 3 yr relationship, and a 2 yr on and off relationship, so you do the math lol). Tells me all her ex bfs cheated on her. After her last bf, she slept with 4 guy friends/acquaintances. She claims that she dated them for a month before sex, and thought they would all go somewhere. She ended it with one, and the other 3 ended it with her.
She told me at first that she ended it with the last guy...a month later it comes out that he ended it with her (why lie?) it also comes out that she gave herpes to her ex. I asked why she lied and she says "Well i thought you asked about a certain ex, like the 2nd ex, not about the last one (the one she gave it to). This was a huge lie by her. I kick her out, but eventually let her back into my life.
She also lies about making out with a girl once, for some reason. She tells me her mom left her family when she was young, and it was tough. She felt alone and insecure. Had a lot of guy friends in college. Has 3 close male friend now. She is no longer friends with the male friends she slept with.
She is 25 and lives with 2 other single girls who always want her to go out. She is somewhat flirtatious. Seems very concerned with going out and being close with her girls. She is obsessed with her friends, more so than any other girl i have ever met.
I acted insecure due to the lies and I was scared that if i caught herpes and we broke up, I would be screwed. We had sex after 2 months(protected, and im clean). I asked her a lot of questions about EVERYHTING in her past, becasue the whole relationship scared me. I also fell for this girl becasue of her good qualities. The questions by me caused a ton of fights.
She also wasnt completely over her ex, depsite sleeping with a bunch of people. I told her many times maybe she should be alone. She was always stressed, and up and down. One day she loved me, then wasnt sure about "us". She works with kids and is ALWAYS stressed out.
How the HELL did I let this girl in to my life so much? I feel pathetic! There are SO many red flags....herpes, lies, family issues, etc. What the hell? I'm very disappointed in myself.
She then breaks up with me and says "you made me realize I still need to be alone and im not ready for this type/serious of a relationship"
*note she went on 2 dates with a kid about a month before me and ended it after that. Part of the reason was becasue she felt like she wasnt ready for anything yet. She said when she met me a month later, she felt different and our connection was huge (it was).
How did i let myself get wrapped up in a girl like this?? Please, be very harsh with me! haha
Met this girl at a cookout in June. Hit it off great, set up a date for a couple nights later that went great with kiss close. She invites me over a few days later for coffee and a jog. Heavy making out before i leave for work (i work overnights). She tells me she will crawl into bed with me the next morning when i get home from work to sleep. She does. Starts getting hot and heavy. She stops me and says she has had a rough life and that her first boyfriend gave her genital herpes. I get scared and she leaves. She texts me later and she comes over so we can talk.
She tells me that she only sleeps with people she is in serious relationships with and is very picky and has never passed herpes to anyone. She then tells me how good she is at head and likes sex from behind.
Comes over a few days later and gives me head. We start talking about her STD again. She tells me she has slept with 12 people (she is 25, lost virginity at 19, had a 1 yr relationship, a 3 yr relationship, and a 2 yr on and off relationship, so you do the math lol). Tells me all her ex bfs cheated on her. After her last bf, she slept with 4 guy friends/acquaintances. She claims that she dated them for a month before sex, and thought they would all go somewhere. She ended it with one, and the other 3 ended it with her.
She told me at first that she ended it with the last guy...a month later it comes out that he ended it with her (why lie?) it also comes out that she gave herpes to her ex. I asked why she lied and she says "Well i thought you asked about a certain ex, like the 2nd ex, not about the last one (the one she gave it to). This was a huge lie by her. I kick her out, but eventually let her back into my life.
She also lies about making out with a girl once, for some reason. She tells me her mom left her family when she was young, and it was tough. She felt alone and insecure. Had a lot of guy friends in college. Has 3 close male friend now. She is no longer friends with the male friends she slept with.
She is 25 and lives with 2 other single girls who always want her to go out. She is somewhat flirtatious. Seems very concerned with going out and being close with her girls. She is obsessed with her friends, more so than any other girl i have ever met.
I acted insecure due to the lies and I was scared that if i caught herpes and we broke up, I would be screwed. We had sex after 2 months(protected, and im clean). I asked her a lot of questions about EVERYHTING in her past, becasue the whole relationship scared me. I also fell for this girl becasue of her good qualities. The questions by me caused a ton of fights.
She also wasnt completely over her ex, depsite sleeping with a bunch of people. I told her many times maybe she should be alone. She was always stressed, and up and down. One day she loved me, then wasnt sure about "us". She works with kids and is ALWAYS stressed out.
How the HELL did I let this girl in to my life so much? I feel pathetic! There are SO many red flags....herpes, lies, family issues, etc. What the hell? I'm very disappointed in myself.
She then breaks up with me and says "you made me realize I still need to be alone and im not ready for this type/serious of a relationship"
*note she went on 2 dates with a kid about a month before me and ended it after that. Part of the reason was becasue she felt like she wasnt ready for anything yet. She said when she met me a month later, she felt different and our connection was huge (it was).
How did i let myself get wrapped up in a girl like this?? Please, be very harsh with me! haha
