Zion
Senior Don Juan
Hey guys,
I'm new on these forums so I'll introduce myself a little.It's gonna be quite a long post ,so sit back ,relax and enjoy.
I'm a 20 year old university student from Europe.
As far as my dating life goes , it's not extremely bad. I had my first girlfriend when I was 14 and she was 16. My first real kiss was with her.
Few months later , while still 14 (nearly 15), I made another girlfriend which was almost 17 and dated her for a good 6 months. I had the chance of losing my virginity with her but I was a major pvssy and didn't seal the deal. She was living alone at the time so I was always at her place , and she was always hinting me to take off my shirt. For some reason I currently can not possibly comprehend , I never did. Was probably scared to be honest. I did however feel her up through her clothes multiple times. First bare tits ,ass and pvssy I ever touched. She was a hb8 almost 3 years older than me. Felt pretty damn proud ,obviously.
Eventually she said she loved me , to which I responded with a blunt "Say what now ?" , which was pretty much the awkwardest moment of my life until then :crackup: . Anyway , she never touched the subject again , and I broke up with her shortly after.
A few months later ,at her birthday , I was determined to fvck her brains out although we were not together anymore.I managed to seduce her , and after everyone left , we were stripping each other to the point where I only had my boxers on and she was completely naked. Fingered her a bit , and just as she was about to give me a BJ the door rang. It was her aunt , comming to check up on her.Very unexpected visit. Needless to say , new 'most awkward moment' achieved. That was the absolute end of that , no sex with the chick.
Next major opportunity came when I was 15 and a half-ish , in a club. Met this girl ,hb8-9, a few years older , danced with her all night. Stupidly enough , got myself pretty much face planted drunk in the meanwhile. Got into a wild make-out with her , after which she was telling me to follow her to the bathroom because she wants to ' give me a real good time '. Again , for some incomprehensibly stupid reason I cannot recall (probably being piss drunk had something to do with it ) , I chose to not go. Instead , I went to my find my best friend and continued having fun. That was the end of that.
One day before my 16th birthday I scored a major major Moldavian ( extremely hot eastern european chicks , like Russians) hb10. This girl was gorgeous , she told me she was an animator in a club. Went on a insta-date , scored a kiss and invited her to my birthday that would be the day after.
She showed up at my birthday , we danced all night , both got drunk and made out for about an hour.My best friend was having an after-party at his place in my honor , to which I took the hb10. Drank some more , isolated her in a empty room and started striping. This time I was determined to not **** up , had everything ready. Everything was set , except one little fvcking thing. The room had no key and could not be locked. I didn't give a fck about that so I got her almost naked , only panties left. Immediately before the magic happened , some dead drunk idiot literally stumbles across the room and passes out on the floor , near the bed. Some of his friends came to assist him , see if he was ok , as we were simply standing there , naked. I was so pissed I though that if he wakes up ,I'd kill the guy myself. Anyway , the night was ruined ,couldn't make it happen and broke it off with her a day after since she would go back to her country. (she was on some sort of vacation).
Fast forward through 1 year of random makeouts and nothing more , and I freshly turned 17 ,at a party where I meet this 15 year old chick. She was 15 , but don't get me wrong , nothing about her pointed to that age. She had the body of an 18 year old , huge tits , tight ass and the face of a damn angel.The perfect 10. I started gaming her ( I had no idea what I was doing since I knew nothing about DJ-ing at the time) , but recalling it with the knowledge I have now , I did a lost of things right. When I walked into the room I was greeting everyone , showing social proof. I was talking to all the girls (I pretty much knew everyone at the party) , so my value was high. I started hitting on hb10 for a while , then broke rapport with her and started talking to other girls , which made her chase my attention. Anyway , she was with her 1 month boyfriend , but I managed to sneak in a kiss and get her digits. She was more than happy to also add her facebook and email to the mix. Messaged her the next day , talked for another few days and set up a date. In the meantime she broke up with her guy , and I was set.
Now here's the kicker. Aside from looking gorgeous , this girl managed to impress me on an intellectual level. She wasn't your typical 'party girl / slut'. She was actually a virgin , and a very very smart girl. I fell for her like a hopeless idiot , and was in a great relationship with her for the next 3 years.
We had sex 3-4 months after we met , after we already had the I love you talk. So I finally lost my virginity at age 17. I was her first , also. My relationship with her has been close to perfect , only problem we had was with sex. Actual intercourse is what I mean. She was ridiculously tight and intercourse was almost always painful for her. I never figured out why. I'm not an idiot , she was always wet , foreplay , lubricant, what-have-you. Nothing worked. We tried everything. At times it would hurt so bad she would actually cry in pain. Weird stuff. But the oral and everything else was amazing. She'd have these amazing orgasms and I barely would even touch her. I can only dream about what it would've been like if intercourse would've been a enjoyable option.
Regardless , one year ago I moved away to University. As we all know , LD never really works out and so we broke up at the beginning of 2013. We both agreed that we should end it now ,while we still love each other rather than waiting until LD gets the better of us , and one of us does something to ruin our entire relationship and the memory of it. We wanted to remember each other on pleasant terms. Not sure if this makes sense for any of you guys , but it did for us. LD was limiting our social life and things started getting colder and colder between us. I was pretty devastated for a few weeks , but I'm better now.
She's 2 years younger than me , so the LD would've went on for some time, considering she'd even pick an University in my current city.
That being said , she was the most amazing girl I ever met.
Ok , enough with the past. Here I am today , quite confused and in what feels to me as a all-time low.
My current problems are as follows:
Although my relationship with her was amazing and I don't regret any of it , the guy I used to be seems to have...well,died. First year of college (while I was still with her) ,I didn't really try to make any friends , because I was going home on a regular basis to meet with both her and my highschool mates. So I was basically that guy that no one really knows in college.
Another problem is that I'm a student in Computer Science. I love coding and learning how technology works, but the problem is that as you can imagine , there is MAJOR lack of girls at this specific faculty. And those that are ...well,hb6 would score the highest. As for the guys , they're one of 2 types. Complete nerds with whom I cannot bring myself to hang with , or wannabe gangsters. Seriously fvcked up individuals. I chose to hang out with the latter group , because the nerds would only further my social suicide. Problem is , compared to my highschool entourage ,I simply cannot enjoy the guys at university and as a result ,I cannot be as social as I would like. I just find them plainly boring. Also , add to that the fact that I've been around for 1 year and barely spoke to people in general , it just makes it more and more awkward.
So yeah, In highschool I was somewhat of a champ. Popular , had tons of friends , great times. In university I feel more like a chump. On a sidenote , the highschool I went to had an elitist policy. Only the best students would get in. Opportunities of meeting cool people were higher than they are now.
Bluntly , I'm quite unsatisfied with my current social life , and don't really know what to do to improve that ,considering Uni is a dead-end in the matter. As a student , finances are quite tight so I can't afford to go out as much as I'd like to ,sadly. To top that off , I can't really say I have an established social circle here. I do have people who invite me to certain events , but I really dislike them and take no pleasure in their company..so yeah.
Lastly , like I mentioned before , I find that my LTR killed the 'past me'. I'm out of practice so now I find it difficult to talk to girls , and feel somewhat uneasy doing it. I do have days when I'm all over it. I never leave the club without at least 1 make-out with a stranger , but I can't take it any further. I think the problem is the lack of satisfaction with my social life and tight finances that are subconsciously bringing me down and making me feel somewhat 'unworthy'. In retrospective , I know I'm a great guy and have a lot to offer.
Anyway, I'm new to this DJ-ing thing and currently reading the Bible. It's fun to see how I was unknowingly doing some of the right stuff before.Also , it makes so much sense it's insane. I'm really enjoying it.
Other than that ,I consider myself to be an above-average good looking guy. I work out almost religiously, 6 days a week.I also dress pretty well.I know I could dress better, but again , finances are damn tight.
Thanks for reading my long-ass topic. I really look forward to feedback from you guys.
I'm new on these forums so I'll introduce myself a little.It's gonna be quite a long post ,so sit back ,relax and enjoy.
I'm a 20 year old university student from Europe.
As far as my dating life goes , it's not extremely bad. I had my first girlfriend when I was 14 and she was 16. My first real kiss was with her.
Few months later , while still 14 (nearly 15), I made another girlfriend which was almost 17 and dated her for a good 6 months. I had the chance of losing my virginity with her but I was a major pvssy and didn't seal the deal. She was living alone at the time so I was always at her place , and she was always hinting me to take off my shirt. For some reason I currently can not possibly comprehend , I never did. Was probably scared to be honest. I did however feel her up through her clothes multiple times. First bare tits ,ass and pvssy I ever touched. She was a hb8 almost 3 years older than me. Felt pretty damn proud ,obviously.
Eventually she said she loved me , to which I responded with a blunt "Say what now ?" , which was pretty much the awkwardest moment of my life until then :crackup: . Anyway , she never touched the subject again , and I broke up with her shortly after.
A few months later ,at her birthday , I was determined to fvck her brains out although we were not together anymore.I managed to seduce her , and after everyone left , we were stripping each other to the point where I only had my boxers on and she was completely naked. Fingered her a bit , and just as she was about to give me a BJ the door rang. It was her aunt , comming to check up on her.Very unexpected visit. Needless to say , new 'most awkward moment' achieved. That was the absolute end of that , no sex with the chick.
Next major opportunity came when I was 15 and a half-ish , in a club. Met this girl ,hb8-9, a few years older , danced with her all night. Stupidly enough , got myself pretty much face planted drunk in the meanwhile. Got into a wild make-out with her , after which she was telling me to follow her to the bathroom because she wants to ' give me a real good time '. Again , for some incomprehensibly stupid reason I cannot recall (probably being piss drunk had something to do with it ) , I chose to not go. Instead , I went to my find my best friend and continued having fun. That was the end of that.
One day before my 16th birthday I scored a major major Moldavian ( extremely hot eastern european chicks , like Russians) hb10. This girl was gorgeous , she told me she was an animator in a club. Went on a insta-date , scored a kiss and invited her to my birthday that would be the day after.
She showed up at my birthday , we danced all night , both got drunk and made out for about an hour.My best friend was having an after-party at his place in my honor , to which I took the hb10. Drank some more , isolated her in a empty room and started striping. This time I was determined to not **** up , had everything ready. Everything was set , except one little fvcking thing. The room had no key and could not be locked. I didn't give a fck about that so I got her almost naked , only panties left. Immediately before the magic happened , some dead drunk idiot literally stumbles across the room and passes out on the floor , near the bed. Some of his friends came to assist him , see if he was ok , as we were simply standing there , naked. I was so pissed I though that if he wakes up ,I'd kill the guy myself. Anyway , the night was ruined ,couldn't make it happen and broke it off with her a day after since she would go back to her country. (she was on some sort of vacation).
Fast forward through 1 year of random makeouts and nothing more , and I freshly turned 17 ,at a party where I meet this 15 year old chick. She was 15 , but don't get me wrong , nothing about her pointed to that age. She had the body of an 18 year old , huge tits , tight ass and the face of a damn angel.The perfect 10. I started gaming her ( I had no idea what I was doing since I knew nothing about DJ-ing at the time) , but recalling it with the knowledge I have now , I did a lost of things right. When I walked into the room I was greeting everyone , showing social proof. I was talking to all the girls (I pretty much knew everyone at the party) , so my value was high. I started hitting on hb10 for a while , then broke rapport with her and started talking to other girls , which made her chase my attention. Anyway , she was with her 1 month boyfriend , but I managed to sneak in a kiss and get her digits. She was more than happy to also add her facebook and email to the mix. Messaged her the next day , talked for another few days and set up a date. In the meantime she broke up with her guy , and I was set.
Now here's the kicker. Aside from looking gorgeous , this girl managed to impress me on an intellectual level. She wasn't your typical 'party girl / slut'. She was actually a virgin , and a very very smart girl. I fell for her like a hopeless idiot , and was in a great relationship with her for the next 3 years.
We had sex 3-4 months after we met , after we already had the I love you talk. So I finally lost my virginity at age 17. I was her first , also. My relationship with her has been close to perfect , only problem we had was with sex. Actual intercourse is what I mean. She was ridiculously tight and intercourse was almost always painful for her. I never figured out why. I'm not an idiot , she was always wet , foreplay , lubricant, what-have-you. Nothing worked. We tried everything. At times it would hurt so bad she would actually cry in pain. Weird stuff. But the oral and everything else was amazing. She'd have these amazing orgasms and I barely would even touch her. I can only dream about what it would've been like if intercourse would've been a enjoyable option.
Regardless , one year ago I moved away to University. As we all know , LD never really works out and so we broke up at the beginning of 2013. We both agreed that we should end it now ,while we still love each other rather than waiting until LD gets the better of us , and one of us does something to ruin our entire relationship and the memory of it. We wanted to remember each other on pleasant terms. Not sure if this makes sense for any of you guys , but it did for us. LD was limiting our social life and things started getting colder and colder between us. I was pretty devastated for a few weeks , but I'm better now.
She's 2 years younger than me , so the LD would've went on for some time, considering she'd even pick an University in my current city.
That being said , she was the most amazing girl I ever met.
Ok , enough with the past. Here I am today , quite confused and in what feels to me as a all-time low.
My current problems are as follows:
Although my relationship with her was amazing and I don't regret any of it , the guy I used to be seems to have...well,died. First year of college (while I was still with her) ,I didn't really try to make any friends , because I was going home on a regular basis to meet with both her and my highschool mates. So I was basically that guy that no one really knows in college.
Another problem is that I'm a student in Computer Science. I love coding and learning how technology works, but the problem is that as you can imagine , there is MAJOR lack of girls at this specific faculty. And those that are ...well,hb6 would score the highest. As for the guys , they're one of 2 types. Complete nerds with whom I cannot bring myself to hang with , or wannabe gangsters. Seriously fvcked up individuals. I chose to hang out with the latter group , because the nerds would only further my social suicide. Problem is , compared to my highschool entourage ,I simply cannot enjoy the guys at university and as a result ,I cannot be as social as I would like. I just find them plainly boring. Also , add to that the fact that I've been around for 1 year and barely spoke to people in general , it just makes it more and more awkward.
So yeah, In highschool I was somewhat of a champ. Popular , had tons of friends , great times. In university I feel more like a chump. On a sidenote , the highschool I went to had an elitist policy. Only the best students would get in. Opportunities of meeting cool people were higher than they are now.
Bluntly , I'm quite unsatisfied with my current social life , and don't really know what to do to improve that ,considering Uni is a dead-end in the matter. As a student , finances are quite tight so I can't afford to go out as much as I'd like to ,sadly. To top that off , I can't really say I have an established social circle here. I do have people who invite me to certain events , but I really dislike them and take no pleasure in their company..so yeah.
Lastly , like I mentioned before , I find that my LTR killed the 'past me'. I'm out of practice so now I find it difficult to talk to girls , and feel somewhat uneasy doing it. I do have days when I'm all over it. I never leave the club without at least 1 make-out with a stranger , but I can't take it any further. I think the problem is the lack of satisfaction with my social life and tight finances that are subconsciously bringing me down and making me feel somewhat 'unworthy'. In retrospective , I know I'm a great guy and have a lot to offer.
Anyway, I'm new to this DJ-ing thing and currently reading the Bible. It's fun to see how I was unknowingly doing some of the right stuff before.Also , it makes so much sense it's insane. I'm really enjoying it.
Other than that ,I consider myself to be an above-average good looking guy. I work out almost religiously, 6 days a week.I also dress pretty well.I know I could dress better, but again , finances are damn tight.
Thanks for reading my long-ass topic. I really look forward to feedback from you guys.
