HB9.0 w/ LTR 3 years, kicked her out and broke up with her due to Alcohol delusion

[omgwtfm8]

I don't get it, why were you really partying hard? Were you meeting other girls, or just drinking to excess with the guys?

Did you get too many rejections after you broke up with her and that shook your confidence ("delusion")?

Were you dating other girls for a period?

What changed your "delusion" and what specifically was this "delusion" about? It seems like you're confusing "delusion" with confidence.

I was partying to excess with the guys, never just going out to meet girls etc. I was hanging out with a few bad influences, people that had drinking problems as well. It was our routine, work hard play harder mentality. My friends and I were doing great at our jobs too so we didn't care. I spent about sometimes $1500 on alcohol related costs a month...

My confidence is fine. I wasn't dating other girls as we were always together.

She warned me a few times I was drinking too much and I made excuses that 'I need to network' or said things I'm kicking butt at work so why not. All while not realizing it was affecting the relationship. She kept quite about it, and it seemed like she was after chasing me because our time together was small even though we lived together.

I openly invited her to everything I did and she just declined, probably because she knew we were out of control.

 

[omgwtfm8]

Ok, broke NC and simply asked 'Are you free on x?' She's going away that weekend with her Father. I've been feeling AFC lately, realizing that my initial email post breakup basically gave her some good closure.

I'm spinning plates, fvcking another girl on the regular but all I think about is her...