Haven’t been on here in a long time still trying to get my life together

[needimprovement250]

I haven’t been on the forum since late 2025 and thought I would revisit it. I’m now 33 and still struggling with dating, I have still never had a girlfriend or dated at all and I feel more hopeless about it with each passing year. Especially because inexperience is such a big turn off for women and I feel like I’m stuck in a catch-22 that I cannot escape from because I can only get experience by dating women, which I cannot do without having experience in the first place. This is a belief I’ve held onto since age 20 and all it’s done is make things worse.

Turning 32 last year was a key inflection point for me because at 16, I turned to drugs and alcohol because I felt that I would never be successful with women and wanted something to numb myself. At 32, the amount of years that I’ve been using that as a coping mechanism matched the age I was when I first started doing it and made me realize it has not worked and never did.

Then about exactly a year ago, I got kicked out of my parents house after getting into a fight with my dad. I ended up living in motels for 3 months before I came back home. I do not want to be living at home with my parents, but I’m living there by force of financial circumstance. I enrolled in college classes back in 2024 for vocational certifications in agriculture and I will have my certificates soon, then I hope my income will be high enough to leave my parents house for good.

Just wanted to share because I literally don’t have anyone in my life I can talk about these struggles with and I have talked about them here on the forum previously.

 

[Gamisch]

Here's an urgent to do list( aka a TODAY list)

- tell your father you appreciate him and everything he does. Tell him you are grateful you can stay at home.
- kick off from the garbage. Seek prof help.
- enforce this by going to the gym.
-get ANY kinda job. Save at least 30% .

Be honest: how much income do you waste in substances?

I expect that by tomorrow you set all of this in motion. Report back please.

 

[needimprovement250]

Here's an urgent to do list( aka a TODAY list)

- tell your father you appreciate him and everything he does. Tell him you are grateful you can stay at home.
- kick off from the garbage. Seek prof help.
- enforce this by going to the gym.
-get ANY kinda job. Save at least 30% .

Be honest: how much income do you waste in substances?

I expect that by tomorrow you set all of this in motion. Report back please.

I already do have a job, I’m not unemployed. How much I spend on substances kinda varies. Alcohol is the most expensive one, weed I don’t buy as often as I used to because friends give me some for free. I actually enjoyed my time living in motels more and miss it pretty often. I’m trying to burn fat by improving my diet and then plan on joining a gym

 

[Gamisch]

I already do have a job, I’m not unemployed. How much I spend on substances kinda varies. Alcohol is the most expensive one, weed I don’t buy as often as I used to because friends give me some for free. I actually enjoyed my time living in motels more and miss it pretty often. I’m trying to burn fat by improving my diet and then plan on joining a gym

From today, save 30% per month. And try to do the rest I advised.

Be ruthless

 

[needimprovement250]

From today, save 30% per month. And try to do the rest I advised.

Be ruthless

Yeah I should be saving more, my pay rate being so low makes that a little more difficult. I work at minimum wage, which is really bad for a 33 year old man. But the work I’m doing now is just to keep money in my pocket while I finish education and launch a career. I’m two classes and an internship away from being done with education. Then hopefully I will be making enough money to move out. When I was living in motels, I gained 20 lbs because I was mostly eating fast food since the room obviously had no kitchen and I had to eat cheap to conserve money and pay for the room. I’ve lost a significant amount of that weight, but I still need to lose more.

 

[Cheeky_James]

I haven’t been on the forum since late 2025 and thought I would revisit it. I’m now 33 and still struggling with dating, I have still never had a girlfriend or dated at all and I feel more hopeless about it with each passing year. Especially because inexperience is such a big turn off for women and I feel like I’m stuck in a catch-22 that I cannot escape from because I can only get experience by dating women, which I cannot do without having experience in the first place. This is a belief I’ve held onto since age 20 and all it’s done is make things worse.

Turning 32 last year was a key inflection point for me because at 16, I turned to drugs and alcohol because I felt that I would never be successful with women and wanted something to numb myself. At 32, the amount of years that I’ve been using that as a coping mechanism matched the age I was when I first started doing it and made me realize it has not worked and never did.

Then about exactly a year ago, I got kicked out of my parents house after getting into a fight with my dad. I ended up living in motels for 3 months before I came back home. I do not want to be living at home with my parents, but I’m living there by force of financial circumstance. I enrolled in college classes back in 2024 for vocational certifications in agriculture and I will have my certificates soon, then I hope my income will be high enough to leave my parents house for good.

Just wanted to share because I literally don’t have anyone in my life I can talk about these struggles with and I have talked about them here on the forum previously.

Where do you live?
dude . Imo in your situ, the fastest way to get better with women is to get some sexual experience (pronto) and then hang around with some reasonably attractive ones in any capacity , just to get some exposure time to reduce the anxiety.

So with that in mind, the most rational way is to pay for it , if it’s available and an affordable and safe option imo.

I mean you are getting on in age , you need to catch up quick I’d say.

In tandem with the above, try and make some female friends at your college classes.

what looks rating out of 10 would you give yourself and how tall are you.
Do you have any issues with being maybe ND or anything?