Have you ever had Suicidal Thoughts?

[corrector]

Here is a clip from Annihilation that seems to suggest that everyone self-destructs in some way (ie "slow suicide" by bad lifestyle choices).

 

[corrector]

Also here are a few songs that depict that "The Calvary Has Arrived!!!"

In this music video there is a lady with an army of horses behind her coming to the rescue:

In this other music video there is a reference of an army sent out to find you in the darkness

I mean, if anyone must go off the deep end, these are good videos to look at. It is just good to look at something lovely. You deserve it.

 

[jhonny9546]

The first step to solving any problem is recognizing you have one. Second step is identifying why and what triggers it. Third step is changing habits and the way you think, becoming disciplined so healthier patterns develop.

I'll likely need medication to address aproblem I have.
What I want to say is that there is only one thing that truly bothers me: having to rely on external factors instead of something internal within myself.


Even if I find a cure, I must still place my trust in other people. This means that it won’t make me an independent, mature, and healthy person; I will always need someone I can trust to help me in difficult times, when ideally, it should be the opposite: I should be the MAN

 

[The Duke]

I'll likely need medication to address aproblem I have.
What I want to say is that there is only one thing that truly bothers me: having to rely on external factors instead of something internal within myself.


Even if I find a cure, I must still place my trust in other people. This means that it won’t make me an independent, mature, and healthy person; I will always need someone I can trust to help me in difficult times, when ideally, it should be the opposite: I should be the MAN

Small steps.

 

[RoadKing_Rabbit]

No one is immune to their demons. I had such thoughts even after becoming an accomplished martial artist and US Marine. I didn't quit. I told myself "You want to feel better? Be better? You can't do those as a dead man." I told myself again. And again. And again. I highly encourage you to listen to the very last broadcast of Tom Leykis. A lot of people think he's a POS, but he's got a heart. It's there. His general message is you have to tell yourself "I'm better than this. And if you don't believe it, you must become better than this."

The later part in his broadcast, he stated something I hear my own mind echoing. "No one told me how good it would all be. No one could." I find myself honestly living life in a way I wish every man could. They won't though. Unfortunately some give up.

I know you are capable of doing more than even you believe you can with 100% conviction. It's up to you. Why am I so convinced you can? Because I know men who accomplished a lot in life, were bad a$$ 'hard charging' men and they're under our feet. I recommend a couple of songs that helped me to shake the tears loose and move along. Randy Travis "Out of My Bones" and Seventh day Slumber "I know." For that second one, ignore or don't ignore the religious connotations. It's still powerful.