Hard to deal with skittish Very insecure girls half my age..

[Poonani Maker]

I have one on my line. She's a gas station attendant, Very poor, and kinda "mental" I suppose, but she is surrounded with pretty good people, though poor also. I'd call her trash or she *thinks* of herself as worthless so she carries that on her face, on her body, etc. She forces smiles at me, but of late, she smiles genuinely at me, and tonight she was going out of her way to have me notice her, but she is SO insecure, so frail, and probably thinks that I think her so low. That I think she is just 'nothing,' but I don't Know her, and I have given her the impression that I give all women that I am Very easy and open, and HERE for them to lay a shoulder on, if need be. She's coming around, but I am at a loss as to how to approach a Very skittish, insecure girl (over 21 but not by much). No college, I'd imagine. You can just tell that she thinks sooo low of herself, but that's better than 99.9% of American women who think WAY TOO HIGHLY of themselves ain't it?? So that's what's attractive about her, that Idk, it'd be like Marine Basic Training where they are beaten down to nothing, and you mold them, or build them up to rely on You. I don't want today's American spoiled hoe that is so prevalent everywhere you turn. I want a girl who's Very dependent and Poor.

 

[gravityeyelids]

Are you going to be her friend and help her then?

Because sleeping with a girl with these type of dynamics to the relationship is likely a very bad idea.

 

[Poonani Maker]

Are you going to be her friend and help her then?

Because sleeping with a girl with these type of dynamics to the relationship is likely a very bad idea.

No, I'd fvck her and have a baby with her IF she was to become Loyal to me and show a serious attachment or commitment, but that's far off. When I said "mental" issues I meant, well you know, almost ALL women have a disturbed bird brained mentality, a doh-doh bird if you will. She has this NERVOUS State of being about her At. All. Times. Many women are Nervous throughout Every Day of their lives (while us men, like me, can be calm and completely at peace for months even YEARS, like I have been, calm cool and collected for a while now, just calm blood, hard to Really get upset these days. This one in particular is More Nervous that the average woman, I mean, she's just fingernail chewing, on edge, and you know, confused or well, you know how Church people are just "caught up" in their own worlds and are disturbed or seem to be disturbed ALL the time. They never learn to Chill. That's how she is.

I just don't know how to go about fvcking up what I see as of this evening, her obvious Now yearning to see me or have me see her, but she's so young, but I'm young at heart too, but cool and refined and in a light-year-ahead-of-her position obviously, but it would not necessarily be a mis-match between 2 people because I'm just as "loser" as she is because I've quite frankly haven't found a woman (American) worthy of my seed, so-to-speak. So many American women are idk, like a desolate wasteland of pure I'll think to myself no, no, no, no, no, everywhere you turn is NO to all these women, but every now and then you think about one that is NOT with the program or with society, a lost in the mix one that might be Good for you, but of course, they can All change after a while and then rape you in the courts if you get bogged down with them. Really, the Only way to be sure (almost) is in a country that doesn't have these ridiculous divorce laws, Or to have one in a cult that never leaves, or to have your woman SO mind-controlled (for Life) that she just would never think of betraying you. This woman I see (have seen for all this year eh since I guess May), is the type that you could "brainwash" so-to-speak. I guess Many are capable of being brainwashed, and it really is the Only way you can Keep one for life I think, to keep one from turning on you and taking everything or half of what you've accumulated throughout your lifetime (financially and kids).