Brasileiro
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Well,to put a long story short.
Male,20 years old,caucasian,5`4/2 height (Short,but here in brazil the average height is less than in USA).I dont know my weight,but i have some years in bodybuilding,and my body looks pretty good (At least people tell me that).
Some pictures of me:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v...Znn_y80uYF-O0dakDijqElg1-cwu.jpg?t=1265922596
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v327/Passageiro/DSC03763.jpg?t=1265922406
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v...tuwVrT7If1ph7ATAGL7YONuwpLyv.jpg?t=1265922629
I dont know about you guys...But when i see this picture,i see a happy,young,male,with his whole life in front of him.
It could be.But i I Am ****ing Insane.
It just that my mind likes to think a lot.She is so noisy,that i cant do anything without asking myself 1.000 times about it.I cant decide how i wanna live my life,because if i choose,my mind remembers me of what i am losing if i choose another way.
Some examples:
I discovered SoSuave a few years ago,and learned a lot.My whole vision of women and the world has changed reading pook.With that,i know more about the female mind and female behaviour than all my friends could wish for.I advise then,and they get laid.
But me?No.
Why?
Because i cant put it all together.It is like i wanted to discover all,so,finally then,i can go to the field.
I know that experience and and theory go hand to hand,but my mind dont accept that.She wants to study and think and do it forever.And there always so much more to learn...
But that is not my major problem.When i think i am insane,i mean much more than just problems about girls.
Did you guys realize how life has infinite possibilities?It could be lived in a thousand diferrent ways.The thing is,i dont know how i wanna live.
I want you guys to imagine this:One big island.Surrounded by bridges that connect the islands to other mainlands.The bridges is choices,and the mainlands is the life that you will live if when you choose the bridge that particualr bridge.
So,in other words,every mainland is a different lifestyle.
So for example,one Mainland is the mainland of the player.Its the land of girls,parties,DJism,cool clothes,bodybuilding for women,pu$$y.And such.Sounds pretty cool!
But life is a question of time.We only have one life and only so much time.Maybe there is betters mainlands?What if we choosed the wrong bridge?
Another bridge is the bridge of the carrer man.Is the bridge the responsible man,he doesnt have so much time for girls,because he have to study and work a lot.In my case,i want to be a military police officer,and that requires a lot of discipline,study and hardwork.Also,is a lifestyle too.A military police officer cant go to rave partys,cant do threesome,cant be imoral with girls.Is a lifestyle different of the player.
Another bridge is the lifestyle of a professional fighter.He likes BJJ,MMA,and his work is solely to pay his trainings and so,because his really passion is not police,not girls,but fighting.A different lifestyle requires diferrent ways of spending time,so,he doesnt study a lot,he doesnt party a lot.His bodybuilding is not for show,but for work.
So different lifestyles,diferent choices,but you have to take one.My problem is i cant choose anything in the detriment of the other.Its like a choose something,but then,in the middle of the bridge i think "Well,i think the other bridge is better!".And i do it again,and again,and again.3 years already spended like that.
My mind is so open,that i cannot choose nothing in life,because every choose is also a rejection...
I have so much more bridges.Another example:I dont know if i am atheist or christian.Currently,i am atheist,but tomorrow i may start to study about christianism and change my mind.Last week i was christian,i prayed,i readed the bible,but a few days later,i readed some more about atheism,and decided that religion is bull$hit.But i im sure that in a few months,i will change my mind again.
Its been like that for years.I cant choose how i wanna live life,because there is so much options that i cant choose one to close another.I really wold like to have a closed mind,but i dont,i like so much to think.
Different lifestyles require different behaviors,different ways of thinking,different clothing styles,different hairstyles.
For example,for the last few weeks,i really decided to tryed to live like a don juan,i bettered my wardrobe,i went to parties,i readed about DJism and such.I really started to see positive things in my life and then i thinked "Thats how i wanna spend my life!"But my mind is cruel.I soon began to think "Thats not the way a police officer should behave.And to live my life for DJism and women is a shallow existance!I am wasting my time living for women."So,back to beggining.
And again,and again,and again...
Last night i couldnt sleep,full of anxiety.
Male,20 years old,caucasian,5`4/2 height (Short,but here in brazil the average height is less than in USA).I dont know my weight,but i have some years in bodybuilding,and my body looks pretty good (At least people tell me that).
Some pictures of me:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v...Znn_y80uYF-O0dakDijqElg1-cwu.jpg?t=1265922596
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v327/Passageiro/DSC03763.jpg?t=1265922406
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v...tuwVrT7If1ph7ATAGL7YONuwpLyv.jpg?t=1265922629
I dont know about you guys...But when i see this picture,i see a happy,young,male,with his whole life in front of him.
It could be.But i I Am ****ing Insane.
It just that my mind likes to think a lot.She is so noisy,that i cant do anything without asking myself 1.000 times about it.I cant decide how i wanna live my life,because if i choose,my mind remembers me of what i am losing if i choose another way.
Some examples:
I discovered SoSuave a few years ago,and learned a lot.My whole vision of women and the world has changed reading pook.With that,i know more about the female mind and female behaviour than all my friends could wish for.I advise then,and they get laid.
But me?No.
Why?
Because i cant put it all together.It is like i wanted to discover all,so,finally then,i can go to the field.
I know that experience and and theory go hand to hand,but my mind dont accept that.She wants to study and think and do it forever.And there always so much more to learn...
But that is not my major problem.When i think i am insane,i mean much more than just problems about girls.
Did you guys realize how life has infinite possibilities?It could be lived in a thousand diferrent ways.The thing is,i dont know how i wanna live.
I want you guys to imagine this:One big island.Surrounded by bridges that connect the islands to other mainlands.The bridges is choices,and the mainlands is the life that you will live if when you choose the bridge that particualr bridge.
So,in other words,every mainland is a different lifestyle.
So for example,one Mainland is the mainland of the player.Its the land of girls,parties,DJism,cool clothes,bodybuilding for women,pu$$y.And such.Sounds pretty cool!
But life is a question of time.We only have one life and only so much time.Maybe there is betters mainlands?What if we choosed the wrong bridge?
Another bridge is the bridge of the carrer man.Is the bridge the responsible man,he doesnt have so much time for girls,because he have to study and work a lot.In my case,i want to be a military police officer,and that requires a lot of discipline,study and hardwork.Also,is a lifestyle too.A military police officer cant go to rave partys,cant do threesome,cant be imoral with girls.Is a lifestyle different of the player.
Another bridge is the lifestyle of a professional fighter.He likes BJJ,MMA,and his work is solely to pay his trainings and so,because his really passion is not police,not girls,but fighting.A different lifestyle requires diferrent ways of spending time,so,he doesnt study a lot,he doesnt party a lot.His bodybuilding is not for show,but for work.
So different lifestyles,diferent choices,but you have to take one.My problem is i cant choose anything in the detriment of the other.Its like a choose something,but then,in the middle of the bridge i think "Well,i think the other bridge is better!".And i do it again,and again,and again.3 years already spended like that.
My mind is so open,that i cannot choose nothing in life,because every choose is also a rejection...
I have so much more bridges.Another example:I dont know if i am atheist or christian.Currently,i am atheist,but tomorrow i may start to study about christianism and change my mind.Last week i was christian,i prayed,i readed the bible,but a few days later,i readed some more about atheism,and decided that religion is bull$hit.But i im sure that in a few months,i will change my mind again.
Its been like that for years.I cant choose how i wanna live life,because there is so much options that i cant choose one to close another.I really wold like to have a closed mind,but i dont,i like so much to think.
Different lifestyles require different behaviors,different ways of thinking,different clothing styles,different hairstyles.
For example,for the last few weeks,i really decided to tryed to live like a don juan,i bettered my wardrobe,i went to parties,i readed about DJism and such.I really started to see positive things in my life and then i thinked "Thats how i wanna spend my life!"But my mind is cruel.I soon began to think "Thats not the way a police officer should behave.And to live my life for DJism and women is a shallow existance!I am wasting my time living for women."So,back to beggining.
And again,and again,and again...
Last night i couldnt sleep,full of anxiety.
