please bare with me, im gonna try and make this as short as i can.
With the help of this site, got a gf at my senior year. It lasted until the end of the school year, im a graduate and shes a senior now so its over. We decide to give it 'closure' but it was hard for me to move on ( i know..****in chump) coz while she was gone for summer, i was stuck here doing nothin coz my family was gonna move. but we got delayed to the point where she arrived three days before i leave.
i still have some feelings for her and my instincts tell me she does, but shes acting like she doesn't to protect herself. shes done something similar in the past (during our relationship) coz she was 'scared to lose me'. long story short: i called her on it, said im not the kind of person to take this kind of bull****, gonna break up, she apologized and all was fine.
Anyways she arrives and calls me. i acted as my usual self and started busting jokes on her coz her english had gotten worse (english is her 2nd lang). she was laughing a lot and calling me names she would call me when we were in a relationship. id tell her to stop because we arent anymore but i thought it would make things too awkward. I told her that there was something different abt her voice and it wasnt her english but i couldnt figure out what it was.
Anyways, (iv been abusing that word) she asks if i wanna meet up and go to a sheesha/hookah cafe with her and my friend who we'll call Joe. Joe WAS one of my close friends and knows ill be leaving soon. he even said we'll do something before i leave for good but he disappears without a trace and now is makin plans to hang out with my ex without me knowing. am i right to think hes a ****ing backstabber?
i call her and shes already out with him at the cafe but before i could say anything she just BURSTS out laughing for like 1 minute straight. i ask whats so funny? she says i cant tell u, joe would kill me. somehow i think it could be related to me. mother****er, this girl kept nothing from me. me being pissed and crushed, i replied: i wont be meeting up with u guys, im not in the mood for sheesha and it would be awkward. She replies: i dont think its awkward, im fine. This irritates me and i replied: stop acting so high and mighty, i can make it awkward....btw i found out what was missing in ur voice. she says: "what?" i reply: "affection." Her Response: "......" i said bye and hung up. did i do the right thing? should i have gone? i find out they went to her house to hang out after. as far as i know im the only guy that shes had over. **** maybe im thinking too much into this joe guy but i cant help feeling betrayed.
LAST PARAGRAPH. so i go out with another friend and come back home. i get a message from her: "Im sorry i was acting wierd, i would love to see u before u leave. i miss u..." ****ING MIXED MESSAGES :cuss: and my instincts were right! now...WTF DO I DO? do i just tell her no? do i see her? if i do see her what do i do? what should i say?! how should i act? iv gone way too rusty, feel free to be hard on me, im going to use this experience to improve myself.
With the help of this site, got a gf at my senior year. It lasted until the end of the school year, im a graduate and shes a senior now so its over. We decide to give it 'closure' but it was hard for me to move on ( i know..****in chump) coz while she was gone for summer, i was stuck here doing nothin coz my family was gonna move. but we got delayed to the point where she arrived three days before i leave.
i still have some feelings for her and my instincts tell me she does, but shes acting like she doesn't to protect herself. shes done something similar in the past (during our relationship) coz she was 'scared to lose me'. long story short: i called her on it, said im not the kind of person to take this kind of bull****, gonna break up, she apologized and all was fine.
Anyways she arrives and calls me. i acted as my usual self and started busting jokes on her coz her english had gotten worse (english is her 2nd lang). she was laughing a lot and calling me names she would call me when we were in a relationship. id tell her to stop because we arent anymore but i thought it would make things too awkward. I told her that there was something different abt her voice and it wasnt her english but i couldnt figure out what it was.
Anyways, (iv been abusing that word) she asks if i wanna meet up and go to a sheesha/hookah cafe with her and my friend who we'll call Joe. Joe WAS one of my close friends and knows ill be leaving soon. he even said we'll do something before i leave for good but he disappears without a trace and now is makin plans to hang out with my ex without me knowing. am i right to think hes a ****ing backstabber?
i call her and shes already out with him at the cafe but before i could say anything she just BURSTS out laughing for like 1 minute straight. i ask whats so funny? she says i cant tell u, joe would kill me. somehow i think it could be related to me. mother****er, this girl kept nothing from me. me being pissed and crushed, i replied: i wont be meeting up with u guys, im not in the mood for sheesha and it would be awkward. She replies: i dont think its awkward, im fine. This irritates me and i replied: stop acting so high and mighty, i can make it awkward....btw i found out what was missing in ur voice. she says: "what?" i reply: "affection." Her Response: "......" i said bye and hung up. did i do the right thing? should i have gone? i find out they went to her house to hang out after. as far as i know im the only guy that shes had over. **** maybe im thinking too much into this joe guy but i cant help feeling betrayed.
LAST PARAGRAPH. so i go out with another friend and come back home. i get a message from her: "Im sorry i was acting wierd, i would love to see u before u leave. i miss u..." ****ING MIXED MESSAGES :cuss: and my instincts were right! now...WTF DO I DO? do i just tell her no? do i see her? if i do see her what do i do? what should i say?! how should i act? iv gone way too rusty, feel free to be hard on me, im going to use this experience to improve myself.
