Yo Brighty- you are about to enter a whole new world. Anxiety and fear of the unknown are natural. Don't sweat it. The beauty part of your situation, is that everyone around you is entering that realm of life under the same or at least very similar circumstances. The majority of people do not know anyone when they go, which makes meeting people easy and necessary and part of the whole experience. Do not sweat the future too much, just enjoy the moment that you are in. I don't mean go out and get bombed every night, sleep through class and fail out...but you are a long ways off from that be-all, end-all career and these days most people change 'careers' many times.
If you have a passion for film, you have to ****ing go for it. Cut-throat industry, work is usually feast or famine, but you have to stick to your guns. My sister's fiance is a producer in television out in Hollywood. He goes through droughts sometimes and talks about switching careers to something more traditional. I think this is the easy way out, especially if you have a passion for it. If showbiz is not really for you, that is one thing, but if you love it and then give it up you will look back one day and regret it. I am in a very traditional career with a track to money, status, good job, etc. but it is not for me. My job has been very good to me, but I can tell you this is not what I want to do for the rest of my life because it just doesn't fit, so right now I am building my bank account so I can free myself of a day-job for about a year.
If you do not go out and follow your dreams, you will regret it. You can always fall back into a paper-pushing job, with a house, a wife, a two car garage with two over-priced metal coffins that you fight traffic with all the rest of the lemmings on the way to another day of office monotony, 2.5 kids and the coulda, woulda, shoulda outlook....but if you don't go for it, you will never know. And if you 'fail', life is just giving you the opportunity to build character and resolve and learn from your experience, an opportunity that you will not get if you take the typical 'easy' way out. Granted, my easy way out has been filled with late-nights, grad-school, long work-weeks, etc....but for what it's worth I knew from my first grad school class that the 'career' wasn't for me, but I had been given an opportunity that others had been denied, and I had quit other things in my life and regretted that so I decided that I would not give up but if they kicked me out fine. I didn't go the track of the rest of my classmates but I am in the field that they are, however I travel quite a bit, which was the motivating factor in my decision to pursue this career. And like I said I have an objective I am pursuing, and for now my job is a means to an end.
Dude, at 18, heading to college in a few weeks in a new city, new state, this is your opportunity to spread your wings and fly...Try new stuff. Talk to people, especially the girls that you will be surrounded by.
Try to get an internship at a television station in St.Louis to get a feel for being behind the scenes.
I read somewhere, can't remember where and don't know how they gauged it, that statistically speaking the first three weeks of college are the most promiscous of an American girl's life. Take advantage of that. I didn't my freshman year because I was in 'love' and invloved in a relation****...however the next few years I definitely did.
People get that glazed-over look in their eyes when they talk about college for a reason...because it is a blast.
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