backbreaker
Master Don Juan
Sometimes I amaze myself at how hardheaded I can be. I really do.
I decide to go out tonight, because it's been a long, long week and I have worked my ass off this week and I have more work the rest of the week.
So I get downtown and the popular spot on thursdays and no more than 5 mintues after I walk though the door, I see a girl I used to mess around with.
to be a little more detailed, she was married when I meet her, I played hard to get.. well, I was hard to get, and she got to the point where she literarly couldn't take it anymore and we ended up messing around for about 2-3 months.
The second I walk though the door, there is this older woman all on me.. and I mean the second I walk though the door, so it looked like we came in together. that's when she spotted me. The first thing she said was something to the account of "Why are you with her", so I say "why does it matter, I'm a free man, I can **** who I want to ****"
Let me get to the point.. the reason I am so damn mad at myself is I have been here long enough, that I KNOW what she was doing, I KNOW what type of girl she is, yet she gets under my skin... I have ****ed wayyy better looking women, she is probably a 6-6.5... but she is one girl that I can honeslty say has my number to some extent. No where NEAR the point that my oneitis had, but more than I would like to admit nevertheless.
She got a divorce about 10 months ago, is single for all I know, and we get along.. no hard feelings either way.
Anyway, the second I see her, I say hi and keep moving.
So she comes upstairs basically to track me down, and draggs me down there with her. She is with these two guy "friends" of hers.. which I honestly know they were friends.. neither were good looking, both AFC's to the max. One liked her I could tell, kept buying her drinks, even bought ME a drink.
So she basically beggs me to dance with her, and at first I wasn't ,because she was texting some guy the entire time she was with me... we were touching, etc. all that good ****.
So we are on the dance floor and we are dancing and she keeps leaving and texting people while we are dancing.
Now, if I was in my right mind, I would have stopped right then and there. As a matter of fact, I tried to, but she grabbed me and put her phone and my pocket and told me she was sorry.
Now.. the entire time, we are on each other... I mean, we have had sex at least 30 times, so grinding is nothing new.. but she knows me well enough to know that I wanted to ****, which I did.. and I know her well enough to know that she wouldn't be dancing with me this long, all on me if she didnt' have the intentions of ****ing.
so some guy she was supposed to meet up there comes.. she lied and said it's some guy she is cool with because his ex did blah blah blah, but I'm not dumb.. I don't even know why she lied. So she left again, and left me with her phone, which was not a nice thing to do.
So it's about 1:00..the club closes at 1:30... until then I am just chilling, dancing and having a good time.
So when they close, she comes up to me and says " why did you leave the dance floor"
I was on my way home, but she BEGGS me to go to a nother spot with her.. I tell her what's in it for me.. she says "we are going to have fun", so I say "hell I can go home and jack off, that's fun" So she says it will be worth it.. so I read between the lines and follow her to the spot.
Let me wrap this up.. nothing happened, but basically SHE invited me to dance with her, SHE invited ME to the other spot, yet when I asked her to come back to my place, she gives me some lie about spending the night over her best friends house.
What's really sad, is the entire time, I guess because I have really started to learn the information here more like a motor skill, but everything she did shouted attention *****. She was always around guys... like 4-5 guys...
She would always go talk to other guys, and everytime she did, she would keep looking back at me.
One of the other guy friends she was with, the AFC that bought me a drink told me "she was saying some stuff about you", when I asked "like what?" he said "don't worry, it's good stuff, but she was talking about you like you are a legend"
then it really really hit home... just how pathethic both of us were at that moment.. First me, because the entire time I was with her, I had to run into at least 5 girls that seemed interested in me, and I didn't pay any attention to any of them because of this girl.
There was 2 times I should have just walked away.. the first time I mentioned and again at the other spot when she kept leaving me alone to talk to other guys. I mean, the sex was good, but not THAT damn good to wear I would be around her like a sick puppy.
And her... She had to drink like 5 drinks and she isn't 100 pounds, if so barely.. it hit me what she was... nothing more than an attention *****.. she craves, no NEEDS attention from the opposite sex to funcion, hence why she is so flirtatious, sending mixed signals and is partying every weekend, because I honestly believe the control she thinks she has over men is one of the only thing she sees going for herself, which is sad because she is the smartest girl I have ever ****ed.. seriously, at least book wise.
If I wanted to **** her, I should have played it toally different than I did.. I didn't do a horrible job, but I didn't do enough to make her want to **** me..she wants me to go out with her Saturday night but i'm not.. she wants me to go out with her tomorrow as well but that's definatly a no no, espically if we arent' ****ing, it's no fun.
Anyway, I should have played it like I played it a year ago... I wanted to **** her than, but i wasn't going to die if I didn't. I had better looking girls that I was into and she saw them and became jealous..
a year ago, once I let my guard down just a tad bit, she left. At one point she was talking about leaving her husband for me (don't even ask, hell no) only a month later to just cut me off completely, all because i let my guard down.
I feel stupid, very very stupid, and to top it off, I got rejected at the end of the night.. now, I can deal with getting rejected, but I should have seen what was going on from jump
I decide to go out tonight, because it's been a long, long week and I have worked my ass off this week and I have more work the rest of the week.
So I get downtown and the popular spot on thursdays and no more than 5 mintues after I walk though the door, I see a girl I used to mess around with.
to be a little more detailed, she was married when I meet her, I played hard to get.. well, I was hard to get, and she got to the point where she literarly couldn't take it anymore and we ended up messing around for about 2-3 months.
The second I walk though the door, there is this older woman all on me.. and I mean the second I walk though the door, so it looked like we came in together. that's when she spotted me. The first thing she said was something to the account of "Why are you with her", so I say "why does it matter, I'm a free man, I can **** who I want to ****"
Let me get to the point.. the reason I am so damn mad at myself is I have been here long enough, that I KNOW what she was doing, I KNOW what type of girl she is, yet she gets under my skin... I have ****ed wayyy better looking women, she is probably a 6-6.5... but she is one girl that I can honeslty say has my number to some extent. No where NEAR the point that my oneitis had, but more than I would like to admit nevertheless.
She got a divorce about 10 months ago, is single for all I know, and we get along.. no hard feelings either way.
Anyway, the second I see her, I say hi and keep moving.
So she comes upstairs basically to track me down, and draggs me down there with her. She is with these two guy "friends" of hers.. which I honestly know they were friends.. neither were good looking, both AFC's to the max. One liked her I could tell, kept buying her drinks, even bought ME a drink.
So she basically beggs me to dance with her, and at first I wasn't ,because she was texting some guy the entire time she was with me... we were touching, etc. all that good ****.
So we are on the dance floor and we are dancing and she keeps leaving and texting people while we are dancing.
Now, if I was in my right mind, I would have stopped right then and there. As a matter of fact, I tried to, but she grabbed me and put her phone and my pocket and told me she was sorry.
Now.. the entire time, we are on each other... I mean, we have had sex at least 30 times, so grinding is nothing new.. but she knows me well enough to know that I wanted to ****, which I did.. and I know her well enough to know that she wouldn't be dancing with me this long, all on me if she didnt' have the intentions of ****ing.
so some guy she was supposed to meet up there comes.. she lied and said it's some guy she is cool with because his ex did blah blah blah, but I'm not dumb.. I don't even know why she lied. So she left again, and left me with her phone, which was not a nice thing to do.
So it's about 1:00..the club closes at 1:30... until then I am just chilling, dancing and having a good time.
So when they close, she comes up to me and says " why did you leave the dance floor"
I was on my way home, but she BEGGS me to go to a nother spot with her.. I tell her what's in it for me.. she says "we are going to have fun", so I say "hell I can go home and jack off, that's fun" So she says it will be worth it.. so I read between the lines and follow her to the spot.
Let me wrap this up.. nothing happened, but basically SHE invited me to dance with her, SHE invited ME to the other spot, yet when I asked her to come back to my place, she gives me some lie about spending the night over her best friends house.
What's really sad, is the entire time, I guess because I have really started to learn the information here more like a motor skill, but everything she did shouted attention *****. She was always around guys... like 4-5 guys...
She would always go talk to other guys, and everytime she did, she would keep looking back at me.
One of the other guy friends she was with, the AFC that bought me a drink told me "she was saying some stuff about you", when I asked "like what?" he said "don't worry, it's good stuff, but she was talking about you like you are a legend"
then it really really hit home... just how pathethic both of us were at that moment.. First me, because the entire time I was with her, I had to run into at least 5 girls that seemed interested in me, and I didn't pay any attention to any of them because of this girl.
There was 2 times I should have just walked away.. the first time I mentioned and again at the other spot when she kept leaving me alone to talk to other guys. I mean, the sex was good, but not THAT damn good to wear I would be around her like a sick puppy.
And her... She had to drink like 5 drinks and she isn't 100 pounds, if so barely.. it hit me what she was... nothing more than an attention *****.. she craves, no NEEDS attention from the opposite sex to funcion, hence why she is so flirtatious, sending mixed signals and is partying every weekend, because I honestly believe the control she thinks she has over men is one of the only thing she sees going for herself, which is sad because she is the smartest girl I have ever ****ed.. seriously, at least book wise.
If I wanted to **** her, I should have played it toally different than I did.. I didn't do a horrible job, but I didn't do enough to make her want to **** me..she wants me to go out with her Saturday night but i'm not.. she wants me to go out with her tomorrow as well but that's definatly a no no, espically if we arent' ****ing, it's no fun.
Anyway, I should have played it like I played it a year ago... I wanted to **** her than, but i wasn't going to die if I didn't. I had better looking girls that I was into and she saw them and became jealous..
a year ago, once I let my guard down just a tad bit, she left. At one point she was talking about leaving her husband for me (don't even ask, hell no) only a month later to just cut me off completely, all because i let my guard down.
I feel stupid, very very stupid, and to top it off, I got rejected at the end of the night.. now, I can deal with getting rejected, but I should have seen what was going on from jump
