alright.. well i never thought i'd resort to posting some **** like this on the net...lol but i kinda need some advice..
about a year ago i broke up with the girl i was with for 2 years.. we still talk once in awhile and ****.. but usually it turns into arguing and ya.. i ****ing hate her... yet i think about her everyday and i think i still maybe 'love' her haha but i dunno.. plus after we broke up she kinda got dirty.. sleeping around and ****... maybe thats what pisses me off.. i ****ing dialed that **** in and then everyone else had some... but now i find it almost wierd being with other girls... like i was with her for so long i pretty much lost all my 'game' ( which was pretty good.. cuz i scooped her very nicely).. now i cant pick up ****.. and ive had a few 'girlfriends' but nothing got too serious.. which is cool cuz i dont want anything serious, im only 18.. and the other thing.. like my whole 'mental' is ruined man i used to be all about picking up girls and piecing them and everything.. now if a girl wants it real bad I: a) have a hard time letting things happen and/or b)bust quick ones
i know i know thats ****ed up.. but its totally a mental thing.. i get all nervous and ****.. like when i was with her i was soo comfortable and i ran the show .. (plus i was the only guy she'd been with).. now its like i know the girls im getting with have done **** and i feel like i need to meet a certain standard then i get all ****ed up and i think about it too much and bust quick..i aint trying to brag.. but i can more than hold my own... but it just keeps happening...like i can be doing anything at all, i'll think about some hot female and then right away this thought -- "****, i can't **** her i'll bust quick-- rushes in and i wanna end this BS, get out there and meet some females... let things happen as they should.. and be a man and not a ***** little *****.. bascially i need to totally 're-vamp' myself.. especially since im starting school (college) in september and wanna be ****ing alot of hot broads while im there hah (but then again..who doesn't?..lmao)
any ideas/advice/help would be awesome...
about a year ago i broke up with the girl i was with for 2 years.. we still talk once in awhile and ****.. but usually it turns into arguing and ya.. i ****ing hate her... yet i think about her everyday and i think i still maybe 'love' her haha but i dunno.. plus after we broke up she kinda got dirty.. sleeping around and ****... maybe thats what pisses me off.. i ****ing dialed that **** in and then everyone else had some... but now i find it almost wierd being with other girls... like i was with her for so long i pretty much lost all my 'game' ( which was pretty good.. cuz i scooped her very nicely).. now i cant pick up ****.. and ive had a few 'girlfriends' but nothing got too serious.. which is cool cuz i dont want anything serious, im only 18.. and the other thing.. like my whole 'mental' is ruined man i used to be all about picking up girls and piecing them and everything.. now if a girl wants it real bad I: a) have a hard time letting things happen and/or b)bust quick ones
i know i know thats ****ed up.. but its totally a mental thing.. i get all nervous and ****.. like when i was with her i was soo comfortable and i ran the show .. (plus i was the only guy she'd been with).. now its like i know the girls im getting with have done **** and i feel like i need to meet a certain standard then i get all ****ed up and i think about it too much and bust quick..i aint trying to brag.. but i can more than hold my own... but it just keeps happening...like i can be doing anything at all, i'll think about some hot female and then right away this thought -- "****, i can't **** her i'll bust quick-- rushes in and i wanna end this BS, get out there and meet some females... let things happen as they should.. and be a man and not a ***** little *****.. bascially i need to totally 're-vamp' myself.. especially since im starting school (college) in september and wanna be ****ing alot of hot broads while im there hah (but then again..who doesn't?..lmao)
any ideas/advice/help would be awesome...