Hey SoSuave,
My name is not important, my age is 33 and I am from Germany,
This may be a long post so prepare.....and there are many details, which I do not tell you because they are too long.
Lets have it short: when I was young, i got many girls, then i believed in love, did not get it and became a heremit: just reading, learning, training etc. I had no girl or friends over 10 years.
After this, I found this side and learned from it. I adapted many "DJ stuff" to my live because I became lonesome. After 10 years, I made out, got laid and had dates with many girls in clubs, from work, sports etc. again.
Then I met another woman, a major RED FLAG, but i liked here. She was the first woman which did not asked me which car i have etc.
So were interacting several months and all the time she was saying: she likes me, she wants to be with me but all the time I am hurting here with my speech, often she cried. One day it escalated ( no, not the good way
) I started insulting here, threaten here and she got afraid.....so she said its over.
Then i wrote here a letter and a SMS ( yes, stuff young people do not know
) and we talked again. She said, that she needs time to think about which i did to here and i found out that she has a new guy....to my shame i flipped out and started to insult and threaten here again.....since then its all over; I know.
I know, I am a major RED flag ( never had a LTR, was 2 times in a withdrawal threatment since last December, nice, humble and educated etc) but at the other hand I am OK ( have an average of 1.2 in college and university, good looking etc.) but the whole stuff is crushing me....
I am desperate; it never comes to me; it comes to guys with neck tattoo, without degree, ugly and no use for the world. Then I have to ***** slap them ( not the girl....
) and everyone ( e.g. a girl) defense them.
Meanwhile, I think I am stupid or insane, I do not really know. I could write a lot more but i do not want to borrow you
Just ask me if u are interested 
Well.....SoSuave....U changed my live....were are u now?
Greetings
Bael
My name is not important, my age is 33 and I am from Germany,
This may be a long post so prepare.....and there are many details, which I do not tell you because they are too long.
Lets have it short: when I was young, i got many girls, then i believed in love, did not get it and became a heremit: just reading, learning, training etc. I had no girl or friends over 10 years.
After this, I found this side and learned from it. I adapted many "DJ stuff" to my live because I became lonesome. After 10 years, I made out, got laid and had dates with many girls in clubs, from work, sports etc. again.
Then I met another woman, a major RED FLAG, but i liked here. She was the first woman which did not asked me which car i have etc.
So were interacting several months and all the time she was saying: she likes me, she wants to be with me but all the time I am hurting here with my speech, often she cried. One day it escalated ( no, not the good way
Then i wrote here a letter and a SMS ( yes, stuff young people do not know
I know, I am a major RED flag ( never had a LTR, was 2 times in a withdrawal threatment since last December, nice, humble and educated etc) but at the other hand I am OK ( have an average of 1.2 in college and university, good looking etc.) but the whole stuff is crushing me....
I am desperate; it never comes to me; it comes to guys with neck tattoo, without degree, ugly and no use for the world. Then I have to ***** slap them ( not the girl....
Meanwhile, I think I am stupid or insane, I do not really know. I could write a lot more but i do not want to borrow you
Well.....SoSuave....U changed my live....were are u now?
Greetings
Bael
