Well it finally happened i think my AW GF of 1.5 years and myself have ended it so i think this is like the 3rd time this has happened. That b*tch is out of her mind. After I moved out i didnt talk to her for one day then called her once she called back had a little discussion. Its just so weird how its like a drug and shes pretty potent. I was feeling like i couldnt control myself like I knew I shouldnt havent called her but I did and told her well we can fix our little problems or we dont have too so think about it. The next night i get a missed call from her I call her an hour later like 11pm and at midnight she probably didnt want to embarass herself infront of her roomate so she didnt call back(her talking to me after what happened). The next day I have a huge urge to call her so I do once. She calls back we talk about the dog and everything. She then goes on to say I still want to see you on the weekeneds (now I live about 45 min from her) so I said ok so you want to fix things and she says not right now i need to make decisions on my own and i said whats the point then how dumb would it be. She says well fine throw everything we went through away and I was like sorry but I think we should cause I want ot fix it and you dont. This girl drives me crazy when i talk to her not so much when i dont. Then i was like fine ill be up there this weekened and she said ok call me. So i never called her cell phone yesterday or today and she never called. Im willing to bet the sl*t will go out and find some random chump fvck him or suck his d*ck then call me tomorrow afternoon saying she wants to see me and misses me cause she will feel really empty and used or she wont find anyone tonight and call me for the same reason. I dont know i feel bad for her but at the same time she deserves to feel like that. I always tell myself to never talk to her again or see her but i do. But the funny thing is i should be all worried about her doing whatever but to me it doesnt really bug me even thinking about it. yea maybe if i saw it i would get a little heated how weird is that? probably cause she busted a 180 like 3 days after i got let go by my job for a stupid reason. goes to show how AWs are in ltr's. Im going out tonight and whatever happens shes not gooing ot be involved in any way. They make for good practice though casue you probably get to see about every bs situation in the book and you learn how to deal with it. Thats the way I see it.