The replies in the thread which brought up the question of what value are field reports convinced me they were worth doing, so here I am. Prime among the reasons is that posting them will help me gain clarity on what is occurring in my interactions and where I generally stand with respect to picking up girls.
FR: Deer in the headlights
I decided I was tired of being alone and had to go out even if it meant going solo. The current crop of friends I have are valuable to me from a career and intellectually stimulating standpoint, but they are way too dweebish to go out with.
I dreaded going out by myself but once inside I realized it's not so bad, that no one's really thinking about you.
I was standing near the dance floor when HBEnergy (face 5-6, body close to 10) "bounced" towards me and just started talking out loud about what a great time she was having or something. I made some comment about it and the next thing I know she's right next to me. I can't recall what she was saying but she looked pretty interested in me and at one point brought up some "fcck buddy" of hers that she missed or that wasn't around or something. That was the first time I'd heard that term spoken out loud and it took me aback.
Another girl then appeared next to me out of the blue, HBBlue (7.5-8ish). HBEnergy said she had some pot and needed some papers to make a joint and HBBlue began emptying tobacco from a cigarette by rolling it between her fingers. The two of them engaged in some conversation (while standing right next to me) that I couldn't hear, but I think it was something about HBEnergy's fcck buddy. HBEnergy then took off to look for some papers (or so she claimed0.
"Do you know that girl?" I asked. HBBlue said, "No! She seems like such a slut!" HBBlue then brought up her having a boyfriend but added that it was an open relationship. "What does that mean?" I asked. "It means we can see other people but we don't want each other to find out about it," she said. In hindsight, this was a come on, but dammit, I'm a fcckhead, and the shyness and cautiousness took over and I asked her some stupid personal interview-style question which she answered and I followed up with another and pretty soon she lost interest and wandered off.
Bottom line is I was shocked and intimidated that these two girls approached me and flirted so forwardly. I shouldn't have been, because this sort of thing has happened before, when I was younger, but I guess I kind of figured that since I had grown and matured that the rest of the world had too, so this sort of "couldn't" happen to me again. Well it did and I was unprepared for it.
Still, I was thrilled to be out, so I didn't feel as disappointed by this performance as I should have been. Plus I'm former shy guy who once worked up a half-decent level of confidence and I'm now trying to do that again, so I'm trying to focus on the positives rather than dwell on the negatives.
FR: Deer in the headlights
I decided I was tired of being alone and had to go out even if it meant going solo. The current crop of friends I have are valuable to me from a career and intellectually stimulating standpoint, but they are way too dweebish to go out with.
I dreaded going out by myself but once inside I realized it's not so bad, that no one's really thinking about you.
I was standing near the dance floor when HBEnergy (face 5-6, body close to 10) "bounced" towards me and just started talking out loud about what a great time she was having or something. I made some comment about it and the next thing I know she's right next to me. I can't recall what she was saying but she looked pretty interested in me and at one point brought up some "fcck buddy" of hers that she missed or that wasn't around or something. That was the first time I'd heard that term spoken out loud and it took me aback.
Another girl then appeared next to me out of the blue, HBBlue (7.5-8ish). HBEnergy said she had some pot and needed some papers to make a joint and HBBlue began emptying tobacco from a cigarette by rolling it between her fingers. The two of them engaged in some conversation (while standing right next to me) that I couldn't hear, but I think it was something about HBEnergy's fcck buddy. HBEnergy then took off to look for some papers (or so she claimed0.
"Do you know that girl?" I asked. HBBlue said, "No! She seems like such a slut!" HBBlue then brought up her having a boyfriend but added that it was an open relationship. "What does that mean?" I asked. "It means we can see other people but we don't want each other to find out about it," she said. In hindsight, this was a come on, but dammit, I'm a fcckhead, and the shyness and cautiousness took over and I asked her some stupid personal interview-style question which she answered and I followed up with another and pretty soon she lost interest and wandered off.
Bottom line is I was shocked and intimidated that these two girls approached me and flirted so forwardly. I shouldn't have been, because this sort of thing has happened before, when I was younger, but I guess I kind of figured that since I had grown and matured that the rest of the world had too, so this sort of "couldn't" happen to me again. Well it did and I was unprepared for it.
Still, I was thrilled to be out, so I didn't feel as disappointed by this performance as I should have been. Plus I'm former shy guy who once worked up a half-decent level of confidence and I'm now trying to do that again, so I'm trying to focus on the positives rather than dwell on the negatives.