Yup that's right, went out with this chick last night, walked her back to her dorm, and kissed her goodnight and that, my friends, was the first time I have ever kissed a female. Lemme give you all some background:
I grew up very poor but didn't realize it until middle school when all of a sudden 'being cool' became an issue and my parents couldn't afford to buy me things the other kids had. No need to say I was made fun of relentlessly which put a dent in my self esteem. Fast forward to high school: Same **** but amplified like 20 times. I was the kid who had holes in his shoes that everyone laughed at, I was the kid who couldn't really attend social functions because I didn't have the money or the clothes.
Now I've always been a humble guy so I dont brag when I say this but I'm pretty handsome, but I was always the good looking guy with no game/personality. In high school there were one or two pretty nice looking chicks interested in me but by that time my self esteem had taken such a nosedive I didn't feel like I could get these girls. My very low self esteem led me to act out in school. I was doing a lot of stupid **** just so I could say: "Ha, look at me doing this **** all of you all are afraid to do, I'm worth something after all!" Looking back, it was ****ing pathetic. Anyway, this soon led to me being arrested and kicked out of all of the public schools in my city after which I got a GED and went to a local college. Still with low self esteem I ****ed around, got arrested again, and was basically kicked out of there.
So I'm now 19 at this point and start at a community college and began on the quest for answers and self improvement so I turned to religion. I read the Bible all day everyday, I read the Quran, the Bhagavad Gita, the Confucian Analects, the Tao Te Ching, whatever I could get my hands on, but I was mainly a devout Christian and basically have been since then. So that of course means, NO WOMEN so I basically have 0 experience.
I have since transferred to a very large (~25,000 undergrads) school and have lately stopped reading these religious books and have started to think for myself. I've realized that religion is indeed based on fear and it holds us back from TRUE self-improvement, from grabbing your balls, going out there, and making a man of yourself. Why learn about the opposite sex, destroying many of your fears along the way when you can remain a virgin until age 31 then marry a woman from your religious sect? That's a lot easier.
Well, I've recently given up religion and have chosen the path of REAL self-improvement. I once read a quote on here by a master DJ and he said something along the lines of: "Most guys never die, they just cease to exist because you have to live to die" That being said, I choose life right now! I don't wanna be a father one day and have my son ask me about women and only be able to tell him: "I don't really know about women son, because I waited until I was 30 like a fag to ever have sex with a woman." This is the main reason I want to live: to be able to tell my future son all he needs to know, not just about women, but about life itself and to do this I must experience it all.
So, this girl I went out with, I met her in a class in which I had never seen her and SHE asked ME my name and then the next day I saw her somewhere I had never ever seen her before and then SHE asked ME for my number. Admittedly, I'm no DJ, but I'm no ****ing fool either, she clearly wants it. This was around the time I decided to grab my balls and make a ****ing man of myself so I truly believe that there is a power out there, call it the universe or what the **** ever, that wants me, hell all of us, to be the best people we can and I believe that when I made that conviction, that force brought me into a situation in which I can better myself. Also, since I've made the conviction, (2-3 months ago) I met another chick who's feeling me, and just earlier today I ran into this cute Asian girl who I had been talking to last year and thought I would never see again on this big ass campus. DJ's, I wasted no time in getting her digits. So I now, theoretically at least, am beginning to spin 3 plates, more than I've ever had in my life.
I wrote this here because this is my promise to myself, all of the DJ's who have come before us, and all of those who have yet to come that I am stepping up to be a man, and I burden this community with holding me accountable.
-the count
I grew up very poor but didn't realize it until middle school when all of a sudden 'being cool' became an issue and my parents couldn't afford to buy me things the other kids had. No need to say I was made fun of relentlessly which put a dent in my self esteem. Fast forward to high school: Same **** but amplified like 20 times. I was the kid who had holes in his shoes that everyone laughed at, I was the kid who couldn't really attend social functions because I didn't have the money or the clothes.
Now I've always been a humble guy so I dont brag when I say this but I'm pretty handsome, but I was always the good looking guy with no game/personality. In high school there were one or two pretty nice looking chicks interested in me but by that time my self esteem had taken such a nosedive I didn't feel like I could get these girls. My very low self esteem led me to act out in school. I was doing a lot of stupid **** just so I could say: "Ha, look at me doing this **** all of you all are afraid to do, I'm worth something after all!" Looking back, it was ****ing pathetic. Anyway, this soon led to me being arrested and kicked out of all of the public schools in my city after which I got a GED and went to a local college. Still with low self esteem I ****ed around, got arrested again, and was basically kicked out of there.
So I'm now 19 at this point and start at a community college and began on the quest for answers and self improvement so I turned to religion. I read the Bible all day everyday, I read the Quran, the Bhagavad Gita, the Confucian Analects, the Tao Te Ching, whatever I could get my hands on, but I was mainly a devout Christian and basically have been since then. So that of course means, NO WOMEN so I basically have 0 experience.
I have since transferred to a very large (~25,000 undergrads) school and have lately stopped reading these religious books and have started to think for myself. I've realized that religion is indeed based on fear and it holds us back from TRUE self-improvement, from grabbing your balls, going out there, and making a man of yourself. Why learn about the opposite sex, destroying many of your fears along the way when you can remain a virgin until age 31 then marry a woman from your religious sect? That's a lot easier.
Well, I've recently given up religion and have chosen the path of REAL self-improvement. I once read a quote on here by a master DJ and he said something along the lines of: "Most guys never die, they just cease to exist because you have to live to die" That being said, I choose life right now! I don't wanna be a father one day and have my son ask me about women and only be able to tell him: "I don't really know about women son, because I waited until I was 30 like a fag to ever have sex with a woman." This is the main reason I want to live: to be able to tell my future son all he needs to know, not just about women, but about life itself and to do this I must experience it all.
So, this girl I went out with, I met her in a class in which I had never seen her and SHE asked ME my name and then the next day I saw her somewhere I had never ever seen her before and then SHE asked ME for my number. Admittedly, I'm no DJ, but I'm no ****ing fool either, she clearly wants it. This was around the time I decided to grab my balls and make a ****ing man of myself so I truly believe that there is a power out there, call it the universe or what the **** ever, that wants me, hell all of us, to be the best people we can and I believe that when I made that conviction, that force brought me into a situation in which I can better myself. Also, since I've made the conviction, (2-3 months ago) I met another chick who's feeling me, and just earlier today I ran into this cute Asian girl who I had been talking to last year and thought I would never see again on this big ass campus. DJ's, I wasted no time in getting her digits. So I now, theoretically at least, am beginning to spin 3 plates, more than I've ever had in my life.
I wrote this here because this is my promise to myself, all of the DJ's who have come before us, and all of those who have yet to come that I am stepping up to be a man, and I burden this community with holding me accountable.
-the count
