Feeling GUILTY every time I have sex...

[Tantric]

Well...I scored FB #2.

I am getting back to where I was at about 4 years ago when I had 2 girls I was sleeping with...so I am proud that I'mslowly breaking past my retreat from AFC after 2 years of hell with the runway model.

One thing that has been going on for a LONG time is that after I have sex with a girl (lover, ONS, friend, etc.)...I feel "really" bad.

Guilty thoughts go through my head like, "shyt...I should not have done that"...or, "why did I do that...?"

This has been going on for years.

I think it dates back to about 10 years ago when I lost my virginity to my freind's girlfriend (please do not give me flak for that...or call me an a$$hole...it was a very fuct-up 3-way relationship I do not want to get into).

That was the first girl I slept with. i felt really guilty then...

If I don't allow myself to orgasm, I feel fine...but if I do, about 30 seconds after, I feel like I've made the worst mistake in my life.

When I look back, I see that there has only been 1 girl I did not feel this with...and it was the runway model. hell...I was TOTALLY into her and wanted her BAD.

All these other FB's I have had are attractive and cool...HB7 - HB8. But it is like I don't want them or want to be around them after I sleep with them...and I am REALLY hard on myself (no pun intended) and I feel like shyt.

I NEVER allow these girls to sleep in my bed (spend the night) because of how I feel.

When I see them next (even as soona s the next day), this guilty feeling has gone and I'll totally fvck them. An hour later, back to feeling guilty...

5-6 years ago I backed away from sex because if how bad it made me feel. Now that I am feeling it again, all I want to do is back away again...

I am thinking that I have this "guilty" feeling because I really do not want more than casual sex and instincts say "they" do?

Only girl i did not feel "guilty" with was the runway model...

Any thought on this?

 

[eko]

same thing :/

it's getting better now that i'm more into this girl though

 

[KontrollerX]

Well you've pretty much said it.

Your conscience is making you feel guilty because the girls you sleep with now are just for sex whereas you really wanted the runway model.

Maybe to stop this feeling you just have to find another chick you really want or see if you can talk to one of the girls you are getting it on with now to see if they really view the situation with you as a mutual FB setup.

 

[SomeKindaHate]

I do feel the same way sometimes too. Usually its when I hook-up with HB7's and lower. I tend to dwell on it for only that same day/night, then it goes away.

 

[Tantric]

hmmm...

Seems a lot more common than i thought...