I saw a girl today at my gym who I met 4 or 5 years ago. She was cute then - she is even more attractive now....really attractive now to where she is close to my ideal level. From what I remember, she is a little younger than me, pretty smart and very nice. Right up my alley - dark features, naturally cute, etc...
...and I just could not make myself say anything to her. My automatic first instinct when I saw her - "maybe I'll have a chance with her in future if I continue to self improve and make myself perfect"
this obsessive desire to be perfect is just never ending. I never ever feel like I'm good enough for the women I want. 10 years ago, I told myself I would get girls when I was attractive - I lost my baby fat and was a good looking dude at 18. 5 years after, I thought I would get girls for sure when I started being successful - I made 100K at 23. 2 years after, I thought I would get girls when I had a nice car and had my own house - I had a $70,000 luxury car and my own 2500 square foot house at the age of 25. Yet, none of it convinced me. It's just never enough. I feel like I can never make myself good enough for the women I want to like me.
What is causing this? Why have I convinced myself so deeply that dating is totally impossible and that the challenge of getting a woman to like me is equivalent to climbing mount everest??
...and I just could not make myself say anything to her. My automatic first instinct when I saw her - "maybe I'll have a chance with her in future if I continue to self improve and make myself perfect"
this obsessive desire to be perfect is just never ending. I never ever feel like I'm good enough for the women I want. 10 years ago, I told myself I would get girls when I was attractive - I lost my baby fat and was a good looking dude at 18. 5 years after, I thought I would get girls for sure when I started being successful - I made 100K at 23. 2 years after, I thought I would get girls when I had a nice car and had my own house - I had a $70,000 luxury car and my own 2500 square foot house at the age of 25. Yet, none of it convinced me. It's just never enough. I feel like I can never make myself good enough for the women I want to like me.
What is causing this? Why have I convinced myself so deeply that dating is totally impossible and that the challenge of getting a woman to like me is equivalent to climbing mount everest??
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