dipset_mafia
Don Juan
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OKay, without explaining to much of the backstory....
My ex girl and I were together for about a year... we broke up three times and got back together twice.. hence we're broken up... anyway.. I was under the impression I love this girl, and I do still.. but I've convinced myself its best to move on... I got really drunk and cheated on her (ya, I know, chump move, I feel like ass and won't let that happen EVER again) anyway, that relationship is ****ed, so I decided to stop chasing and LET IT BURN....
we last broke up in september.. Since then I've ****ed 2 other chicks, had an 18 year old fall in love with me (dropped her), and now I'm seeing an extremely attractive 20 yr/old.... everytime i put a rating up someone gets pissed.. he's a hb9 1/2 (cause apparently i can't say 10
)
ANYWAY.. ex girl calls... "hey, lets get together" .. stupid me: "sure, sounds like a plan"... meet her at a pub cause i was at the gym late.. we met at 12...
the whole time i felt very risky, and paranoid.. i didn't really engage her in the way i usually do.. I entertained her small talk and her conversation, but didn't really talk to her like I cared, or wanted to share anything current with me... .anyway... so 1 am 1:30 am rolls around.. I suggest we call it a night... (we live in a student ghetto - her house is on the same street as the pub.. and mine is a few blocks away...) so at the intersection that I have to part ways with her.. I hug her and turn to leave.... she says "NO, don't do that!" im like.. What?? she goes.. "don't just walk away like that... " i was pretty confused so i told her if she stilll wanted to hang out we could go somewhere, her house, or my house.... after like a minute of standing there she said she wanted to come over, only if i walked her home... I agreed.... [[[WHAT THE ****]]] So we're lying on my bed watching chappelle show on my computer - i have my arm around her and shes holding me close... as if i was sleeping on my back, she had her head resting on my chest and her legs in the according position......... which is ridiculous... then she says "I miss this" - and i cracked... i almost started to CRY, cause i had been pouring it out to this chick and she always had been really close, but she never wanted to get back together since september.... anyway.. that really made me angry that she came over and did that.. I really wanted to kiss her, but im seeing someone else.................... i didn't tell her that....... i walked her home... we spoke about it a bit........she emails me the next night apologizing.... i emailed her back with "if there is a day you want me back, on that day I'm gone" and some other stuff, but that was the jist............
Im still screwed up by this! It makes me wonder if she found out that im seeing someone and is jealous, or what?! she said she was feeling lonely and sad and that she came over because she thought i might be feeling the same way................... but me seeing this other girl has subsequently had a positive effect on my esteem and flipped off my oneitis!.....
***anyone else have a similar experience? comments? the thing is.. I'm scared if she ever actually clearly stated that she wanted me back - that i might actually do it... ***
Oh WELL, Mark Morrison puts it best....
Return of the Mack! (it is)
Return of the Mack! (common')
Return of the Mack! (oh my god!) You know that I'd be back
Return of the Mack! (here I am)
Return of the Mack! (once again)
Return of the Mack! (top of the world)
My ex girl and I were together for about a year... we broke up three times and got back together twice.. hence we're broken up... anyway.. I was under the impression I love this girl, and I do still.. but I've convinced myself its best to move on... I got really drunk and cheated on her (ya, I know, chump move, I feel like ass and won't let that happen EVER again) anyway, that relationship is ****ed, so I decided to stop chasing and LET IT BURN....
we last broke up in september.. Since then I've ****ed 2 other chicks, had an 18 year old fall in love with me (dropped her), and now I'm seeing an extremely attractive 20 yr/old.... everytime i put a rating up someone gets pissed.. he's a hb9 1/2 (cause apparently i can't say 10
) ANYWAY.. ex girl calls... "hey, lets get together" .. stupid me: "sure, sounds like a plan"... meet her at a pub cause i was at the gym late.. we met at 12...
the whole time i felt very risky, and paranoid.. i didn't really engage her in the way i usually do.. I entertained her small talk and her conversation, but didn't really talk to her like I cared, or wanted to share anything current with me... .anyway... so 1 am 1:30 am rolls around.. I suggest we call it a night... (we live in a student ghetto - her house is on the same street as the pub.. and mine is a few blocks away...) so at the intersection that I have to part ways with her.. I hug her and turn to leave.... she says "NO, don't do that!" im like.. What?? she goes.. "don't just walk away like that... " i was pretty confused so i told her if she stilll wanted to hang out we could go somewhere, her house, or my house.... after like a minute of standing there she said she wanted to come over, only if i walked her home... I agreed.... [[[WHAT THE ****]]] So we're lying on my bed watching chappelle show on my computer - i have my arm around her and shes holding me close... as if i was sleeping on my back, she had her head resting on my chest and her legs in the according position......... which is ridiculous... then she says "I miss this" - and i cracked... i almost started to CRY, cause i had been pouring it out to this chick and she always had been really close, but she never wanted to get back together since september.... anyway.. that really made me angry that she came over and did that.. I really wanted to kiss her, but im seeing someone else.................... i didn't tell her that....... i walked her home... we spoke about it a bit........she emails me the next night apologizing.... i emailed her back with "if there is a day you want me back, on that day I'm gone" and some other stuff, but that was the jist............
Im still screwed up by this! It makes me wonder if she found out that im seeing someone and is jealous, or what?! she said she was feeling lonely and sad and that she came over because she thought i might be feeling the same way................... but me seeing this other girl has subsequently had a positive effect on my esteem and flipped off my oneitis!.....
***anyone else have a similar experience? comments? the thing is.. I'm scared if she ever actually clearly stated that she wanted me back - that i might actually do it... ***
Oh WELL, Mark Morrison puts it best....
Return of the Mack! (it is)
Return of the Mack! (common')
Return of the Mack! (oh my god!) You know that I'd be back
Return of the Mack! (here I am)
Return of the Mack! (once again)
Return of the Mack! (top of the world)
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