Recently, I seem to have changed something about my personality, because the amount of friends who are girls I have have skyrocketed, with them saying regularly they love me, that I'm very funny, and etc. For a while last year I tried reading lots of seduction stuff on the internet - tried getting into it all, tried to incorporate it into my life, but nothing really happened with that. I was too unconfident. Now I'm being told by my male friends that some of my female friends have said they though i was quite confident in that they thought I talked to them the same way I'd talk to guys. None of this has come about consciously - but my personality seems to have changed nonetheless.
And now that I seem to be able to present myself better - that I've become funnier and more likeable - I don't know what to do when I find I like someone or am attracted to someone. My eighteenth birthday is coming up in a month and its got me thinking that I've never had a girlfriend, never kissed a girl, never had sex... etc. Not only this but I've realised that the personality I have now that girls seem to like it entirely unsexual - as in, if I wanted to ask out a girl, I couldn't do it as the confident funny me I am now. I'd have to switch into a completely insecure and weird little boy who'd say it out of the blue with no build up whatsoever. I like who I am now - but I'd like to be able to reconcile my desires with who I am, if that makes any sense. Because right now, the positive effects of having all these girls saying they love me or that I'm funny is turning negative - I'm thinking to myself that its all as a friend, and that's great, but why can't I be the same and be attractive at the same time?
If it sounds like I'm whining then apologies. It's just my thoughts over the last few days, and I was wondering whether anyone had any comment.
And now that I seem to be able to present myself better - that I've become funnier and more likeable - I don't know what to do when I find I like someone or am attracted to someone. My eighteenth birthday is coming up in a month and its got me thinking that I've never had a girlfriend, never kissed a girl, never had sex... etc. Not only this but I've realised that the personality I have now that girls seem to like it entirely unsexual - as in, if I wanted to ask out a girl, I couldn't do it as the confident funny me I am now. I'd have to switch into a completely insecure and weird little boy who'd say it out of the blue with no build up whatsoever. I like who I am now - but I'd like to be able to reconcile my desires with who I am, if that makes any sense. Because right now, the positive effects of having all these girls saying they love me or that I'm funny is turning negative - I'm thinking to myself that its all as a friend, and that's great, but why can't I be the same and be attractive at the same time?
If it sounds like I'm whining then apologies. It's just my thoughts over the last few days, and I was wondering whether anyone had any comment.