In2theGame
Master Don Juan
Any guys out there also emotionally unavailable? Ive been feeling like this for a long time since my last LTR ended really bad and Ive been fvcked up ever since. I'm at a point where I'm realizing that i have absolutely no feelings of wanting to love a Woman again. Some remember my story already from a while back but to make a short point, The relationship was very serious and towards the end she initiated family get together to talk about wanting to marry me as she always stated and I truly loved her, I wasnt the best guy in the world but i knew i could let myself open 100% and wanted to make her my Wife. Soon after, at the end she suddenly went distant and seemed depressed one day. Ever since then i started digging and i found conversations with other men in her Email and how she was going to "suck their c0ck" and telling them "I dont satisfy her and a piece of sh!t" I couldnt believe what i was reading. it only got worse as she began calling me telling me she fvcked a bunch of guys during multiple ONS. I tried speaking to her in person one night as i took a cab to her place and she told me to my face not to kiss her because a bunch of guys came on her face. I'm telling you, Ive never felt more hurt than what i thought possible at that moment. To make things worse she started saying some really hurtful things about her letting other guys fvck her and she doesnt care about anything. This was a woman i loved deeply after 5 years together. A month and a half later i found out she was engaged to be married and embarrassed me on FB for family and friends to see. Ever since this has happened... i have never been the same....
Ive dated so many Women since then and they wanted to start a relationship with me but i would panic with anxiety and my moods would fluctuate many times. Ive been out to dinner with some and i would randomly feel a big wave of sadness that i would have to excuse myself from the table to walk outside and relax for a second. It would feel like my eyes wanted to get watery and feel so down. It would last for 15 min and then i could calm down again. Its been 4 years since the breakup and i still have those symptoms where i randomly feel down, anxiety and just feel like tearing up. I fvcking hate it. I get flashbacks of the breakup from time to time and it makes me breath hard and just brings me down overall. I havent been able to feel an emotional connection with a girl and when i tried, it was like fighting myself or forcing myself to happen but when it comes down to it, i just dont care anymore. Im seeing a girl right now thats really into me and although i like her, i just dont feel it, like i said... im just in a, i dont care anymore, mood. Has any of you guys been fvcked up like this or feel completely emotionless when it comes to being in a LTR again? or even Marriage? How did you guys rebound from this sh*tty feeling? It seems when you get hurt really bad, theres no coming back.
Ive dated so many Women since then and they wanted to start a relationship with me but i would panic with anxiety and my moods would fluctuate many times. Ive been out to dinner with some and i would randomly feel a big wave of sadness that i would have to excuse myself from the table to walk outside and relax for a second. It would feel like my eyes wanted to get watery and feel so down. It would last for 15 min and then i could calm down again. Its been 4 years since the breakup and i still have those symptoms where i randomly feel down, anxiety and just feel like tearing up. I fvcking hate it. I get flashbacks of the breakup from time to time and it makes me breath hard and just brings me down overall. I havent been able to feel an emotional connection with a girl and when i tried, it was like fighting myself or forcing myself to happen but when it comes down to it, i just dont care anymore. Im seeing a girl right now thats really into me and although i like her, i just dont feel it, like i said... im just in a, i dont care anymore, mood. Has any of you guys been fvcked up like this or feel completely emotionless when it comes to being in a LTR again? or even Marriage? How did you guys rebound from this sh*tty feeling? It seems when you get hurt really bad, theres no coming back.