For the past 2 weeks I've been "seducing" a slightly feminist (I may be able to make her a 'former' feminist idk) veterinarian. I shared with her what we had in common - family in NC. I shared photos, and what we both like to do, she likes hiking (I told her I prefer the beach), she told me about her dad (I now forget what she said about him heh), she's blond early 30s good smile. She has been calling me "sir" for the past 2 days, I think I know how to take it yet not sure her implication. I talked to her friend (not pretty to me) more today than her, she smiled Real big at me as we parted ways today. "Sir!" I think I can be too butting in to people's lives and cut to the chase and start acting like we already know each other. It's very crass, very bold, and "pushy" I'd say...it's like a "When did he (a stranger) just move in??" I'm not very professional, but I'm a professional rule-breaker and will get my foot in the door of people quickly and build familiarity from A to Z. I must seem VERY strange to a lot of women, just not normal, but fvck I can't help it as I've just tried to build a real connection quick, to share, to act as family too fast really I push it past them and it's not nice it's rude, but I push it, keep pushing it and they do not resist cause they're women (now what they say when I leave who knows? and I ignore that possibility and don't really care what they say behind my back let em they're b!tches they talk behind EVERYONE's backs when the door shuts and you're gone outta sight). I have no idea how grotesque my behavior is, but I get away with a lot and may be considered a boar, just careless in a china shop knocking over all protocol and rules and proper ways. I'm walking freedom and most people can't live like that, especially at all times. I kinda wish I had more restraint and thus would be just like everybody else. I wouldn't know how to act though after all these years of no fux. I gotta seem so deplorable, so disgusting to these girls though, but I am far beyond. No matter what I do, at my age, I could never turn back, the damage is done, the deal is done. When I was younger I had to worry about am I being improper here untoward there? Am I overstepping my bounds? Today, I am free-flowing incarnate and it must offend somebody, but I keep moving and rolling on so I guess they let it slide, just this once, then again and again and then again and before long we are in on each others' biz, we are yoked, well, might as well Fvck or get to know each other better. I get away with it. I'm all wrong though, I know.