It's been a year that I have no friends and no girlfriend. Sometimes I blame my "passion" for making money or my goal-oriented nature for my lack of a social life.
Stop thinking about it, if it's not what you want why torture yourself by thinking about it over and over? Your thoughts are a choice, say that 50 times a day from now on, you MUST internalize this. Choose to control how you talk to yourself.
Why should I be happy? How can you be happy and not risk becoming content?
You need to answer this first question yourself, why does content=bad? Maybe you will become content one day, why are you fighting against become a certain way? If you get emotional about a certain outcome, first quiet your mind before it runs away like a freight train, breath and ask yourself, why do i care so much?
As I've whined in the past and in this post, I don't have any friends or a sex life. I don't really want friends any more, but a girlfriend would be nice.
Stop thinking about it. Choose to stop thiking about it and come back and tell me which choice you prefer.
As I've whined in the past and in this post, I don't have any friends or a sex life. I don't really want friends any more, but a girlfriend would be nice.
You're STILL thinking about it? I don't believe you don't want any friends, you just want girls more and your limiting your life to center around women. You've read the bible enough to know this is completely dangerous, why are you giving in to outside opinions?
I know most conversations are nonsense...because I've been there, like I said I used to be very social and outgoing. But I see these nonsense ramblings as pointless. I don't see it as fun any more. I barely smile or laugh, and even when I do I feel both happy/sad at the same time...like you want to cry but there are no tears. If I could cry I would cry my heart out.
Small talk is not logical college discussion, it's connecting with people on an emotional level. CONNECTING WITH PEOPLE IS POINTLESS?? Think about this, I mean really THINK man, that's what I'm trying to get across to you. Don't read over this and process the words into intellect. If you feel what I'm saying you'll realize just how nonsense what your doing to yourself right now.
It's like I'm stuck in a very negative cycle and there's no end in sight. I can't see the light, because there is no light.
Stop the mellowdrama, it's destroying you. Choose to stop it. You don't need to see the light, have faith that it's there.
I understand that a lot of other people are also not happy. They drag on day to day with their double shot of espresso, and 'pretend' to be happy to save face around social groups and coworkers, etc. I doubt the majority of people when asked straight up...would be truly happy.
Stop focusing on how happy or unhappy or other people are. One day you'll wake up from this daydream and regret about all the time you wasted on not focusing inward. It doesn't who else is happy, only you and thats what you need to think about. Personally, I think the reason they put on this 'farce' is because they believe in happiness and are trying to reach it by trying to focus on it.....unlike you.
To be honest, this feeling of "down" is tearing me apart because on one hand I almost feel the 'depressing thoughts' are motivating me to strive for more...while on the other hand I am absolutely sick of it and want to be happy. But happiness doesn't exist...
Stop trying to act as though a third party is coming into your head is and is tearing you apart. You and only you are doing this. Do I sound redundant yet? You think you don't want any friends, happiness is a farce, and you aren't nearly as happy as you used to be.....yet you want happiness? I can't imagine how confused your brain must be right now, sort your beliefs out ASAP. Make them more congruent with how you want to live. This is your new part-time job.
