Were you an awkward kid? As if to say, the stereotypical single guy?
Yes to both.
At thirty, its incumbent upon female nature to ask when...! Believe me, I bitebmy tongue. I've mistakenly had Freudian slip moments of foolishness. Don't bother. You look like an *******. Its lose lose. Just act accordingly.
Have you seen Cobra Kai? Growing up, watching the Karate Kid, it takes me back. The step mom is the accurate portrayal of "proud single mom." Absolute train wreck. ****ing random men and in front of her kid. No discretion.
Use that "lone wolf" mentality as motivation. Be warned, it has limits. Also, you'll come to realize what and how you assume people view you is actually your subconscious and how you view yourself. Its not to say, people don't have their opinions but, its not relevant unless you feed it and allow it to hold power over you.