DJ Life taking a BIG turn!

[Rudy_TubeSteak]

OK, I am in a big rut at the moment. I am currently doing uni studying Teaching (High School). I found that life is just currently on "just living" phase and need higher purpose. I was on a playing phase with girls (sometimes seeing 3 or 4 girls in a single day when I am free) but now settled with one girl.

I am just less than a year from finishing my degree and I am struggling to find motivation or interest to achieve high in teaching. I went on placement and I just struggled to find energy or passion in it. Teaching is something you have to be extremely committed to and work your a'ss off to make things work...I am 23 for f'cuks sakeand I just realise I need to explore the work and experience new things. I am a high achiever in something if its something I really want to do but I horribly do worse and even feel retarded in something my heart is no longer in. I get so cranky doing assignments, can't eat, sleep, f'uck just by thinking about teaching. I know I have the potential to do well in it but I feel as if something else is calling me.

I dont have trouble finding jobs. In fact I have jobs screaming out to me. I mite be small in nature but I believe I have what it takes to achieve in a practical world. I am a bouncer/security personnel (smallest I think...at a whopping 150-160lbs lol, BUT I always get high commendations from my boss and always picks me first whenever there's a big job ahead). I am due to get my armed guard progression which gives me 2-3times more money than teaching and at least it is more exciting. I've been also mad about joining the army but only going to join the reserves because I only want to get a taste before commiting big time.

These 2 options (security and army reserves) give me more motivation to improve my physical strengths and skills, job opportunity, money, security, excitement and satisfaction than studying and teaching. I feel that I have more satisfaction doing it. I've looked at teacher's lifestyle and it scares the hell out of me.

I find it hard to finish anything to do with uni. I want to live a life of action, get instant rewards. I have had to pass on $1500-$2000 a week just so I can finish assignmetns I'm flunking anyway.

With the girls I find that I am getting better, I used to get so crazy over them but girls come and go. I need a better use for myself. And I need a way to get of this mess at the moment because it is killing me just thinking about this big change.

I am only like 3-4 subjects away from finishing but I am so miserable in it.

I need help. But everyone's advice seems to be "just stick with it, the holidays are good" but I've just ran out of energy and I'd rather cut my own leg off than to keep doing assignments and pretend that I want to be a teacher.

 

[Rudy_TubeSteak]

With this new lifestyle I am looking for I fear that my progress with girls will take its toll...I can still play around though I have an awesome girlfriend as of now. I got sick of playing around and I think I am having a little oneitis over her.

 

[Rudy_TubeSteak]

My sincere apologise for the previous attack. But sometimes what people write gets misinterpreted by their own views or perspectives.

I still do want to aspire (from my previous post) I just dont see myself getting anywhere in my current situation. Opportunities literally come begging but I had to give them up to finish what I've started. I've literally put so much on my plate to "get in the midst of it"
*Studying High School Teaching and Placement
*Seeing 3-4 girls but now narrowed to one serious gf
*President of my college
*Working as Bouncer/Crowdcontroller/Security
*Helping out at paintball
*Lol, having a fall out with my alpha friend. Long story
*Had a very active social life but that had to die down by deciding to get my a'ss into gear and evaluate what I have to do

I am burnt out as f'uck, life is a game of patience as you said. You are right when you said I've ran out of patience, and it is because I am frustrated of the opportunities that run past me and I couldn't take them because I'm stuck in a degree I had to finish. (a few subjects spread over just under 2 years, so it is a little discouraging knowing you've found something else you want to do but couldn't do it because I'm stuck.)

Yes I am getting ridiculously distracted, but there are good reasons. People go through many career changes. I am just going through mine, I'm am only one of many others in my degree who feel life is too short to be committing to something large scale.

I've got enough qualifications to be as flexible as possible. I've done everything to do with teaching for over 5 years and I feel it's time to move on, but current situations "says" we dont let you out until the paper says so.

Anyway, much appreciation for your time and effort. You could have easily attacked and flamed me but you chose to help out with tough love. You're one cool cat I must admit. One question though, are you saying just get these huge distractions out of my head and plow on with teaching or get out and start new, grab all these opportunities and chase my "passion".

 

[shredhead7]

You sound like you have senoritis. We were all there suffering through the last year. You just need to suck it up, focus, but still time find to live your last year of Uni. I'm not sure about Aus, but in the US, teachers get 2 1/2 months off, plus 4 weeks during the year. That alone sounds like a great job to me. In the real world, most employers don't care what you have your degree in, just that you have one. My advice would be to suck it up and finish the year out strong. You'll be glad you did.

 

[Sir Juanalot]

Finish the degree, you will really regret it if you dont down the line.

Also, you could always travel teaching english if you didnt like formal teaching, theres a lot of doors down the line as a qualified teacher that you just want to throw away because "you are so miserable"?

Be qualified and miserable, rather than unqualified at least

Good luck.

 

[Rudy_TubeSteak]

I am miserable because there are so many other things I am itching to do but it is impossible to do at the moment.

How would you like it when your boss has organised a trip for you to work with Nicole Kidman and Hugh Jackman, only to pass up on the offer because you have to volunteer to teach snotty nosed spoilt rich kids and all you get is "constructive" feedback at the end of it. Security is a booming business here as of now although it is only a short term career. I am about to get a raise and a job promotion...which is $50hr! (thats over 100k/yr)And the holidays are far better than teachers get...And by the way the teaching profession is one of the highly stressful jobs you will encounter. Even the holidays are supposed to be spent planning work program for students.

Plus I am keen on joining the reserves and spend sometime improving many aspects of my mind, body and spirit. I could join the regular army but I feel it will just make me feel trapped and I want to keep my options open.

I have a lot of qualifications though, ranging from security operations, bartending, personal training, kitchen, child care (lol), factory, tutoring and some teaching (hence last lol).

I dont want to be stuck in a rat race, or be another drone keeping up with the "Jones". But it takes a lot to break from the mould.

I will stick to it, but I just think I will have another breakdown over stress and being burnt out.

 

[Rudy_TubeSteak]

By the way I just cut my degree shorter and graduated with a level down than what I was doing. It is still a degree. I have a cool casino security job which is a holiday camp with HEAPS of benefits (a break EACH hour, get paid to do training and free suit with everything else). I currently start on $19 which goes up after 4 weeks. Thats pretty cool eh? And then I have opportunities to meet the high rollers and see whats around the corner.

This job allows me to venture into other opportunities especially real estate, as they've freed up a lot of time I could use.

 

[Rudy_TubeSteak]

still in a rut lol.

ok Ive achieve a fair bit over the years, travel, work and other sh*T.

But I get stale within a job very,very easily. I currently own my own busy and its now struggling not because of exposure, demand etc. but my own undoing. no motivation, not doing the necessary leg work.

I still do the casino job, and get paid $26 an hour of doing nothing once more.

I dont want to be those guys who get frowned upon because he chops and changes careers because he cant hack it when his mind plays tricks on him.

Once I get stale I want to get away from it all. Its happened a few times and I dont like the feeling