MoreThanSmooth
Master Don Juan
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I think I've been depressed for so long now that it kind of just feels like a state of normalcy to me. But I'm not 100% sure it's depression, so I thought I'd ask you guys what you think.
I've not ever been diagnosed or anything and I've tried online self-tests and usually I score kind of medium. But the weird thing is that it's mostly not altering my actual mood, but more my work, my sleep pattern and a total lack of energy.
In all honesty, I've been so tired at work I feel like I'm stoned or something. Even with plenty of sleep I'm often barely able to concentrate and very slow witted. I feel like Edward Norton in Fight Club - staring into space when I should be working, and only just managing to hide this from my co-workers. When working from home, I can go a whole week and barely get anything done.
I genuinely feel like in the clip above, and it's kinda scary.
In the morning, getting out of bed feels almost like an insane struggle too. I used to be quite fit but I hate exercise now, I've started a new programme but I have to force myself to do it or I just...don't.
Also my work project has taken me 3 years and is very important, but I almost feel like I don't give a sh*t about it anymore. Or anything else really, it all seems irrelevant. It's actually really stressful just knowing that I need to work harder but I can't seem to.
Does that sound like depression or am I just not sleeping enough or something?
I've not ever been diagnosed or anything and I've tried online self-tests and usually I score kind of medium. But the weird thing is that it's mostly not altering my actual mood, but more my work, my sleep pattern and a total lack of energy.
In all honesty, I've been so tired at work I feel like I'm stoned or something. Even with plenty of sleep I'm often barely able to concentrate and very slow witted. I feel like Edward Norton in Fight Club - staring into space when I should be working, and only just managing to hide this from my co-workers. When working from home, I can go a whole week and barely get anything done.
I genuinely feel like in the clip above, and it's kinda scary.
In the morning, getting out of bed feels almost like an insane struggle too. I used to be quite fit but I hate exercise now, I've started a new programme but I have to force myself to do it or I just...don't.
Also my work project has taken me 3 years and is very important, but I almost feel like I don't give a sh*t about it anymore. Or anything else really, it all seems irrelevant. It's actually really stressful just knowing that I need to work harder but I can't seem to.
Does that sound like depression or am I just not sleeping enough or something?