defensiveend96 JOURNAL

[Watawata]

Go with what rice said. She may or not like you, but if you dont do a move youl never know, and, most importantly, get the reference experience.

 

[defensiveend96]

Yeah I am going to ask her out next chance I get in person. If I don't then I will force myself to do 500 push ups every day until I ask. I caught her looking at me in class a lot today and when she was sitting next to me she was trying to get closer. I know she likes me. I just gotta man up and ask her. People in my school ask girls out every day that they don't even know and they still get dates. AFC's even have the balls to ask out girls so I have to man up and ask her. I'm gonna ask her out the next chance I get. I will update this when I do.

Also, how can I remove this negative mindset I've been having recently? I keep thinking that things with me and Crystal aren't going to work out and that she doesn't like me and all that crap. I don't want to think like this but I still do sometimes. How can I stop this?

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Why are you not enough? Think about why and fix it immediately.

 

[Watawata]

Do It

 

[defensiveend96]

This week has been alright.

Football training is going great. I feel like I've gotten a lot faster. I am also really starting to enjoy running. I didn't really like it when I started my journal but now I really am enjoying running. I'm still lifting and doing strength training too.

Things with Crystal aren't going to we'll. I hardly talked to her this week because my confidence is completely shot. I keep doubting myself and I keep thinking that she doesn't like me. I know I said this in my last post but it is still bothering me. I texted her yesterday asking a question about school because I missed the class and I needed the homework assignment and she's the only person in the class who's number I have. She read the text but she never texted me back. It really pisses me off that she doesn't care enough to even text me back when I needed the homework. So that really didn't help my confidence either. I also get nervous to talk to her because I keep thinking that she doesn't want to talk to me. I know I shouldn't think like this but my confidence is completely shot. I am gonna try to talk to her tomorrow and see what's what but I have honestly been thinking of just giving up on her and going no contact because I keep doubting that I will ever date her.

 

[defensiveend96]

Yesterday didn't go well with Crystal. I didn't talk to her at all but in class she had very open body language towards me and I caught her looking at me a few times. I deleted her number from my phone since she hardly ever texted me back so I don't see the point of having it. Part of me thinks I should just move on from her but another part of me really wants her and thinks about all the signs she gave of liking me. I don't know what to do.

 

[defensiveend96]

I've decided to talk to her the next time I see her and see what her IL is and then ask her out if it is still high. Let me know what you think.

 

[Tudeeee]

Ask her out! You can not even properly gauge her IL without asking her out. F*ck what anyone tells you about her liking or not liking her, could be tests could not be tests. Point is: Ask her out and you'll find out.

Also, try to get into the mindset where you don't worry whether they like you or not. Now don't misunderstand me here, what I'm saying is that you should always assume attraction! Overexaggerated: Think of yourself as this awesome guy that every chick wants, because 1. if you don't believe it, no one else ever could 2. it's always better to get stopped pushing too fast (i.e. going for a kiss and the girl rejects you) than missing an opportunity because you were afraid she might not find you attractive (not asking out a girl/not going for a kiss/other close).

All the best man!

 

[defensiveend96]

Alright time for some updates. Lifes been good lately.

Im not sure if I would classify this as a date with Crystal, but we walked around our schools yard together just the 2 of us for an hour and we talked and laughed and teased each other. The teacher let us work outside and he didnt watch us so we just went for a walk. I realized that what her friends said about her not liking me was just a sh*t test that I should have ignored in the first place. Live and learn. So yeah things are really great with her. I could write a ton about how much fun it was today with her but Im feeling lazy. I will go for the official date next time I see her. The funny thing is that we are polar opposites. Shes one of those good girls who does what shes told and all that, Im more of a guy who just likes to have fun and do bad stuff sometimes. Nothing illegal just bad like skipping class to go play sports and stuff like that. She saying that Im so bad which I am assuming is a good thing.

Football training is going good. I feel faster and stronger than ever before. I want to improve my conditioning the most. I also havent benched in a while so I will get on that.

I keep thinking back and seeing how much I have improved since this time last year. I was AFRAID of talking to girls last year and now I cant stop talking to them. My confidence and self esteem are at all time highs. Life is good.

On a bit of I side note I have decided to make a plan to make the upcoming summer really awesome. So far my plans include: going biking, swimming, playing football and other sports, lifting weights, meeting new girls, and moving things forward with other girls. Also hanging out with friends and just relaxing some days and enjoying the time off. I dont have much time for some of these things right now as its approaching crunch time in school and I have to get my marks up because if I fail my summer will be ruined. I am planning to study most of the weekend so I probably wont update this unless something good happens.
Overall life is good right now. Just gotta keep working at all my goals.

 

[defensiveend96]

Been good lately. Pretty normal stuff the past couple of days.
Today was good. Talked to HB Sarah from history class, not sure if I mentioned her before. She is really nice and pollite. Also talked to a new girl, HB Mary, she is really fun. I made her laugh a lot in class and we joked around a bit. Good stuff. Also there was this one girl I wanted to talk to on the bus, she gave me some eye contact, but some other guy was talking to her. He seemed really AFC and nervous when talking to her. I was really thinking about going to talk to her regardless but she got off the bus before I could.
I was going to ask Crystal out today but when I talked to her she seemed like she was in a really bad mood and she didn't look at me. Her body language was pretty cold towards me for a bit but then she pointed her whole body in my direction. I caught her looking at me several times today too. I think she slowed down in the hall to talk to me but she might have just needed to get something from her bag. I know I should have talked to her then but I thought she would still be cold towards me so I decided not to. She was a lot different today than she was when we walked and talked together for an hour. It seemed like she was mad at me but I dont think I did anything. Maybe she found out that I deleted her number off my phone but I doubt she is mad about that. I always get discouraged when we dont talk and I start wondering if she likes me and all that crap. I wish I could ditch this negative mindset I have and just ask her out. I know this sounds AFC but I really want her to be my girlfriend. I am getting tired of just talking to her and laughing with her. I want more. I want to walk and talk with her outside of school and hold her hand. I want to show her how to play guitar and I want to play sports with her. I just keep dreaming about doing stuff with her. I want to actually do these things.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Youre gonna lose her if you wait.

 

[defensiveend96]

Good news and bad news. Good news first.
Workouts and football training is going great. I have been doing a lot of cardio, mostly running and biking, because I need to improve that to survive those longer practices and games. Also I am noticing more muscle tone on my body which is really good and I look really good in t shirts. My arms and upper body are probably the most muscular places of my body. I notice I am getting more looks from girls now too Today I was walking to school and I walked past a group of girls I knew and they all smiled and giggled when I walked by. I saw one of them later on and she smiled and me so I said hi and she just giggled. Girls can be really funny sometimes.'
Alright time for the bad news. I pussied out and didn't ask Crystal out today. I am so f*cking tired of not escalating with her. I know she likes me and I know I have to ask her out. I know I need to just man up and do it or else I am gonna lose her. I keep telling myself that but I keep *****ing out when I want to ask her out. Today I asked her for help in class and I looked right into her eyes and she gave me this big smile and she blushed. I didnt do sh!t worth about it. I've known this girl since September and I haven't done sh!t worth about it. I know she likes me and I know she wants me. She gives me so many signs of liking me. She stares at me in class, she smiles at me, we talk and laugh and tease each other all the time, she touches me by "accident", she gave me her number, she texted me back. This girl clearly f*cking likes me and I need to ask her out. I need help bad. Time is running out in the school year and I really want this girl. I am so angry that I haven't asked her out. I've decided that if I don't ask her out the next chance I get, I am going to do 100 pushups and 100 situps. I am going to do that today too because I didn't ask her. Every day I don't ask her I will do 50 more of each. I hope this helps me.

I am considering adding Crystal back to my contacts list. I still have her number, I wrote it down somewhere. Is this a good idea? Or should I not bother?

On a brighter note I am making a checklist to set some goals. I want all of these goals to be completed by summer or during. These goals will help me make this summer the best one yet. I've realized that is what I really want. I want to have an awesome summer. So here is the checklist.
Goal 1: Get a girlfriend. To have a great summer, I am going to need a babe to spend it with.
Goal 2: Play sports everyday. Whether it is team sports or individual, I want to play sports.
Goal 3: Lift weights and run to get bigger and faster for football.
Goal 4: Hang out with friends and goof off.
Goal 5: Relax. After a long ass school year I need time off.
Goal 6: DON'T END UP IN SUMMER SCHOOL! DON'T FAIL ANYTHING!!!Self explanatory.
Goal 7: Be outside most of the time. I love the outdoors and I hate being inside.
Goal 8: Go on a camping trip somewhere and go fishing while I am there.
Goal 9: Biking. I want to bike around parts of my town I've never seen and explore.
Goal 10: Sleep in on some days. Not really a goal but still I wanna do it.

This summer is going to be crappy if I don't ask Crystal out by then. I don't think I can go the whole summer wondering what could have been.
I know some of you guys are going to flame me and yell because I haven't asked her out yet. But I need some serious help. I don't need to be yelled at. I yell at myself. I need a way to fix my problem.

 

[narcissist]

Interesting journal.

Keep up the good work. Bettering yourself is the best thing to do and considering you are only in highschool and on this website that is a really good step towards becoming the best you.

As for crystal, man you are being to outcome dependent. Go up to her and be like "ey girl, your cute, I'm obviously adorable, so this weekend were going on a cute date, ill text you the details tonight"

Then text her the details two days later. Boom! You got a date. Escalate and kiss close. Two dates later fvck the **** outta her. Make her a consistent plate and go out and get more numbers. Simple as that

Forget about a girlfriend my dude. Spin plates its way better.

I recommended you go to the dj bible and check out plate theory.


I know you are going to be nervous but realize that you are young as fvck and as you get older you are going to slam so many girls dude and have so many girlfriends you won't even remember about crystal. So grab your balls dude. You got this.

 

[Maximus Rex]

Impressive Potna

First of all you young cats, need to be commended for ACTUALLY applying the rules of the game and hollerin at chicks. You guys are putting those in main forum to shame and there's no KBJing going here. Again, and much respect.

DE96, you have what is called "approach anxiety," and there's only one way to conquer approach anxiety, and that is to approach and holla at so many women that it becomes second nature. When that happens you'll notice that your fear of approaching women has vanished.

Believe it or not, you're a high status dude. You're a starting DE on the football team, (believe that you mentioned you team went to the playoffs,) so not only are you on the football team, you're on a winning team,) chicks are going to not only going want to be with you, they're going to be flattered that you even gave them the time of day.

As with Crystal and asking her out here's what you do. Later with all of this "setting a date to go on a date." The next time you're with her, say "I'm going to get some ice cream, chesseburgers (whatever,) come with me." Believe me, based off what you've posted so far, she'll go. When she agrees to go with you, guess what? What Rex? You're on a date and treat it as such. Rex can tell you from experience that you have to strike when while the iron is hot and you can't be as PrettyBoyAJ so eloquently put, "loitering around hoes.," If you don't move on ole girl while her interest is high, she'll eventually lose interest in you and she'll direct her affections and attention elsewhere.

Also, if you don't get this particular chick, don't trip, you're a young cat and you're new to the game so it's pretty fine to make mistakes and learn from those mistakes, in the end they'll make you a better man. Finally, even though you don't believe me and you don't want to here it, you really don't need a girlfriend right now. Good luck potna.

 

[defensiveend96]

Thank you both for your advice. Its very helpful. I feel more confident and better about myself after reading your advice. And Maximus, I am going to use your idea tomorrow. Now for more updates.

I've noticed a lot more girls have been looking and staring at me more. There is this girl in my english class, HB Megan, who stares at me a lot. Its just a blank stare though. Mostly every time I look over she is blankly staring at me. Its kinda weird because its not the same look other girls have given me when they are interested. Maybe I am over analyzing. A girl in my math class, HB Jenny, stares at me a lot too but its an interested look not just blank. HB Megan is better looking than Jenny so I will probably talk to Megan and not Jenny. I wouldn't want to date either of them, just use them as FB's. HB Hannah seems a lot more interested in me. I mentioned her a while back in my journal but I dont talk about her much because I heard she had a boyfriend. I don't think she does though because I always see her around her girl friends and honestly I dont think guys talk to her. Anyways, I catch Hannah looking at me sometimes during class and we have talked and joked around a little. I want to get her number and make her a consistent plate. She seems like a good quality girl. The thing is, she is close friends with Crystal so I don't know if I should go for both of them. Speaking of Crystal, I am going to ask her out for ice cream tomorrow. I was going to do it today but it was pissing rain so we couldn't go out. I am going to ask her out after school just so we will have more time to walk around and talk without having to get back to school for class. I really like Maximus Rex's way of asking her out. I am just going to tell her that I am going to get some ice cream and that she should come. If she says no, oh well thats one less thing I gotta worry about. If she says yes, which I am 99.9% sure she will, then we will have a lot of fun together. Ultimately, I just want to ask. I know she likes me so what do I have to lose? I will post the results tomorrow.

I joined a spring/summer football league so it should be a ton of fun. First practice with equipment is tomorrow. I can't wait to hit. Also our team might have cheerleaders. That would be awesome.


One thing that has been bothering me for a bit is should I invite Crystal to my contacts list again? I am really having the urge to do so but I dont know how good of an idea it will be.

Thats it for now. Again thanks to everyone who has given me advice. I will update this tomorrow after I ask her out.

 

[Maximus Rex]

I wouldn't want to date either of them, just use them as FB's.

BE RESPONSIBLE, BRUH!

HB Hannah seems a lot more interested in me. I mentioned her a while back in my journal but I dont talk about her much because I heard she had a boyfriend.

Not that it matters, but is you want to know ask her. Since Easter, (or whatever they're calling it now,) approach her engage in some mundane conversation. Casually, inject with "I did this that and the next thing over the break? What did you and you're BOYFRIEND do. Or did you kick it with your boyfriend. Now, one of two things are going to happen,

1) Hannah will tell you what her and her boyfriend did over the break or

2) She'll say, "I don't have a boyfriend." If she inquires about the boyfriend, give the classic Rex answer of "I was just being nosy." If she inquires further about why you asked about the boyfriend, do one of the following,

A) Change the subject.

B) Nonchalantly, say you were just making conversation and playfully accuse her of hitting on you. Say something like, "Oh my God Hannah, you keep going on and on about this boyfriend thing, like you WANT me to be your boyfriend."

C) Say in a sarcastic tone, "Damn, are you taking applications?"

I want to get her number and make her a consistent plate. She seems like a good quality girl.

Ask for the number.

The thing is, she is close friends with Crystal so I don't know if I should go for both of them.

Doesn't matter. It's your frame and if it's strong enough they'll willingly fall in line just to please you and it is possible for you take both of them for ice cream, but that's superior level advanced game.

Speaking of Crystal, I am going to ask her out for ice cream tomorrow... I am going to ask her out after school just so we will have more time to walk around and talk without having to get back to school for class.

If she says, "Yes," you're officially on date and you need to treat it as such, at least from your perspective. Along have the date planned out in her mind. Know what you're going to do after you've finished with the ice cream. It's extremely important that you have a game plan, but in her mind it's all serendipitous. Also, be sure to ask the right questions. Start out with summer plans, college plans, and lead that into romantic conversation about what she finds romantic. Play close attention to what she says because that's future intel that can be used at a later date.

I really like Maximus Rex's way of asking her out.

You're suppose to Rex suggested it. Seriously though, I can't take all of the credit, the insta-date comes from, "The Game, Penetrating the Secret Society of Pickup Artists," by Neil Strauss and the things to do on the date, comes from "How to Succeed With Women," by Ron Louis and David Copeland.

One thing that has been bothering me for a bit is should I invite Crystal to my contacts list again? I am really having the urge to do so but I dont know how good of an idea it will be.

What is your reason for doing this and how do you think it will benefit you?

 

[defensiveend96]

Hey thanks again Rex. Lifes been good lately. I feel really good about myself, my confidence and self esteem is really high. Now for some updates.

Football practice was awesome. I feel so great playing football. Its the best feeling in the world when you make a big hit or a big play. That feeling of anticipation before the ball is snapped, chasing down the ball carrier, making the offensive line scared of you, its all so great. Our defense is doing really great too. We work as a team and everybody does their jobs. I have a good feeling about the upcoming season. Also, I am the starting defensive end on the team

Now lets talk girls. Warning I might go off on a bit of a rant here and get a little off track but I got to right down my thoughts right now. I have been thinking a lot over the past few days about girls, specifically Crystal. I think I have lost a lot of my attraction towards her. I still think she is sexy and I would fck her but that's all I would really do. And there is girls who are hotter than her in my school. I used to like her a lot for her personality but lately she has been boring. When we talk she just smiles at me and stares. I just feel very bored when we talk. All she wants to do is work work work and follow the rules and all that crap. I want a girl who likes to goof off and have fun like I do. So I didn't ask her out. I've thought a lot about this and realized that I don't really want to date her anymore. Maybe its because I know that she likes me. Maybe I just like a challenge and I like wondering if she likes me or not. I felt better talking to her when I wasn't sure about her interest level. But I know she likes me now and maybe that's why it's getting boring. I see her stare at me all the time, smile at me, talk to me, her friends smile when I walk by, just today in the cafeteria her friends kept looking at me and smiling and pointing, I see her with her friends around my locker a lot,. I think I liked it better when I wasn't sure that she liked me. I think I liked it better when I tried hard. Now it just seems like an everyday thing. Oh look there's Crystal, oh yeah she is in love with me. I think that I like a girl who is a little for of a challenge and a lot more fun. Crystal just seems boring. She always follows the rules and never does anything fun in school. I really want a girl who has fun and goofs off during school. I want a girl who's got the same personality as me. I tell jokes, I am really funny, I like to speak my opinion, and I am a bit of a class clown. Crystal is the complete opposite of this. She just sits there quietly and does her work. Even if its stupid busy work that has no implications in the real world. If she was just a little bad sometimes, or goofed off sometimes, or just wasn't so boring then I would like her again. I would ask her out. But shes not. Shes just boring old Crystal. I have starting eyeing her friend Hannah a lot more. She seems like more fun. She plays sports and she jokes around in class. That's the kind of girl I like. So I probably won't talk to Crystal anymore. I mean if I see her I will be polite and say hi but I am not gonna pursue her anymore. I don't need her and I don't really want her anymore. She's just not my type. I want to find a girl who is fun.

So yeah that's basically all I wanted to say. All advice and comments are appreciated.

 

[defensiveend96]

Hey hey hey. Updates from the exciting life of defensiveend96:

Like always, life is good. I look in the mirror and I smile. I look damn good.

Football is going good. Another good practice today. Our team is looking better every day. Also I made a lot of big hits last practice. I totally decked this one kid who was running the ball. I know it's not good to be happy about laying the boom on your team mates but it was still fun. Got the adrenaline pumping haha. One thing I really like about this team is that it feels like on big family and I think that is really going to help us. Nobody plays for themselves. It's all about the team.

I'm really getting tired of school. Most of the teachers are complete azzwipes and don't care whether you pass or fail. And if you don't do the work EXACTLY as they want it, they fail you. One of my teachers calls me stupid and slow all class and then expects me to work hard in his class. I have to restrain myself from punching him upside the head. The only classes I actually enjoy are the ones where you get to work with your hands like metal working and woodshop. I like to use my hands and work with tools. I can't stand working at a desk all day.

Not much to say girl-wise. I need to get some more numbers and focus on different girls. A lot of my attention the past few weeks has been going to Crystal. There's a couple girls I want to talk to tomorrow to see their IL. One question I have is how to talk to girls who are always around their friends? I was thinking about addressing the whole group but what if I really don't like their friends? I am thinking about talking to Hannah tomorrow but she's always around her friends and they annoy me a lot.

That's all for today. I might update this tomorrow if something cool happens.

 

[defensiveend96]

I feel like updating today.

I notice most of the hot girls that I see staring at me aren't worth even talking to. I talked to Megan today after I noticed she was staring at me and smiling when I was telling some jokes to my friends. So I went over to talk to her and she just smiled and blushed and gave one word answers. And this other girl, Jenny, I see her staring at me a lot in class too. But I talked to her and she seems like a slut so I don't want her. Most of the girls who are staring at me aren't really worth talking to. I'm gonna try to talk to Megan again, because I think she might have some potential. The only girl I have met in high school that I could actually talk for hours with and wanted to talk for hours with was Crystal. Part of me still wants her but another part of me doesn't. Also my parents are putting pressure on me to get her. I regrettably told them about her a few weeks ago because they asked if any girls liked me. So now they always ask me how she is and if I still talk to her and if I asked her out yet. Me and her haven't talked all week and I think she is mad at me. But the strange thing is that I still see her hanging around my locker with her friends and when we pass in the hall she avoids eye contact. I am really confused though, part of me still wants her and part of me doesn't. The reasons I still want her is because she is really a good quality girl, she's really cute, and we had good conversations. But I don't want her because she is so boring sometimes and she is all about being good and following the rules. So I don't know about her. If she talks to me again, I will see what's what and decide. I also want to talk to this really really hot girl who is a year younger than me. I've seen her looking at me occasionally, but I'm not sure exactly how to approach her and honestly for once in my life I am nervous to approach. I just gotta do it. The problem is that she is always around friends. If anyone has any suggestions for approaching girls who are always around friends, it would be appreciated. I really need to get some plates going before summer but I look around my school and see hardly any quality girls. I also think I need to get more numbers and start approaching more. I've only gotten 2 numbers the entire year. I don't feel like I have done enough.

That's it for now. One thing I wanted to mention is that I want to get really really good at guitar. I'm adding that to my list of goals for the summer.

 

[GetBetter]

I have to congratulate you man because you seem to be at a point of self fulfillment! I be at that point every now and then.

Also, about your reply on my Journal that girls notice changes in me. I didn't realize it until you said it because my main reasons for going gym are increasing social circle, increasing testosterone. So yeah I would say keep doing stuff regardless of wether you are actually reaping results or not because one day you definitely will.

Also I do not know why but I have a theory now which has become a belief due to various examples: The more you have something the more you will have it. For example the lesser girls you have the less you will have for your entire life until you do something to break the cycle. If you have abundance of girls, they will keep coming to you. It applies for success, richness etc etc.