dat journal

[asianbboy]

here's my 2nd journal attempt. my lil bro is a natural. I got too obsessed with schoolwork in my middle school years and self-conscious about how i looked... before that i was just like him, his entire personality is basically me 6-7 years ago. My bro literally commands like a crowd of 15 girls everyday at lunch. i need to step it up.
My main problem is that I haven't tried to be social for two years. it's junior year and i'm not sure how i can change that. I'm not a loser but i also have few connections in the hot *****es group... sucks. there's a party in late oct. where i'm planning to hookup.. but at this rate i'm going to ***** out for sure.
hb tall - got choded by someone when i was talking to her the other day but still has interest. shes relatively hot so shes not going to show it.
hb runner - prettty sure i could hook up if i played my cards right. friend of hb tall.
hb rachel - good friend of mine. 6-7, could hookup easily. but not worth it imo, shes too awkward.

As you can see. Very few choices.

My main problem is inside. I have really high expectations of myself but I'm also ****ing lazy all the time. i end up being depressed when i don't meet those goals. oof

 

[apocolipto]

Then close your friend "you could so easily". It'll give you confidence. Fvck her silly.

 

[Dorchester]

My main problem is inside. I have really high expectations of myself but I'm also ****ing lazy all the time. i end up being depressed when i don't meet those goals. oof

I've found that aerobic exercise and a healthy diet do wonders for depression and laziness. Granted that it takes a bit of motivation to start up, but the difference is really significant.

 

[asianbboy]

Today I felt awesome. went up to a girl, sat her down, threw my arm over her and had a great conversation. girl is 8 or 9 on looks, but kind of skinny serious game. I have a very strange feeling that this is correlated with my week of no-fap. but i broke it today out of boredom.. ****.
I don't think no-fap contributes to game. but it contributes to more energy -> better game. I'm going to go for a up until the end of the month from now on, there's a party then and i need to be on my game for a hookup.

 

[asianbboy]

Then close your friend "you could so easily". It'll give you confidence. Fvck her silly.

i really might.. there's no way to do that around here except by going into a dark theater and watching a movie. might try to get some head.

 

[asianbboy]

I've found that aerobic exercise and a healthy diet do wonders for depression and laziness. Granted that it takes a bit of motivation to start up, but the difference is really significant.

my diet, except for ****ty school lunch, is very healthy. well, i eat five guys or chipotle once a week but that stuff is relatively healthy fast food.
I work out 3 times a week and do aerobics dancing for two hours. i'm still really ****ing lazy... well this weekend, i worked on a business project of mine for 12+ hours but skipped over most of my schoolwork.

 

[asianbboy]

I hooked up w the friend. Kissing was a little boring tho, just the tips of tongues touching? The problem is, the girl I was planning to have hooked up w didn't show up, and now my friend thinks I like her. Which I do, but not as much as the girl who didn't show up. what should I do?