Crusade of the Knight: A Journal.

[novaknight]

Thing is, I blown so many good chances, I don't want to blow another one again. This is highschool, not the outside where it doesnt matter if you get rejected.

 

[novaknight]

Argh. I tried to open, but I couldn't move it along. Gaah....this is pretty frustrating. Kinda sucks how my over the top persona wouldnt work in that setting.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 38
Gonna try again on Monday. I'm definately overthinking the opener. But the issue isn't opening, it's keeping conversation going. I know that openers don't mean sh!t half of the time because I usually do fine (I run into problems when pulling the trigger, I pull it and the girl isn't attracted to me). Hell, I even did OK till that point whilst opening about freaking DINOSAURS (damn, I love dinosaurs, but then again who doesn't).

The issue here is keeping conversation going. Even with my few close friends I may run into that sometimes, when restrained in a bad environment.

I identified the primary problem. The problem is that in a classroom environment, I'm not allowed to use my bawdy, over the top, politically incorrect persona. There's no way I'll be able to say 90% of what's on my mind in a classroom setting.

And this is where I'm stuck. Guess I'll have to find a solution. But I won't be stuck forever. Every problem has a solution, you just gotta keep trying.

Also, I got SATs next Saturday. Somehow I'm really worried. I scored a 2060 on my final practice test, but I have no idea how I'll do. I'm usually allowed extra time on tests in case my ADHD gets the best of me and I zone out completely. However, I can't get it for SATs because I simply don't have enough time to produce the necessary documentation.

Miraculously, I only blanked once for a practice test (took 5 in total I think). However, if I get unlucky the day of the test, I'm pretty screwed. Let's just hope that I have a good day next saturday...

 

[NorwegianDJ]

What makes her attracted to you?

 

[novaknight]

What makes her attracted to you?

Who? The target that I have right now? I have no idea if shes attracted or not but I'll assume she is for the sake of it.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Who? The target that I have right now? I have no idea if shes attracted or not but I'll assume she is for the sake of it.

Any girl, but 2nd person for the personal effect, instead of listing 'attractive traits'.

 

[novaknight]

I think that she might be attracted to me cause I'm tall, and I'm witty (in a crude way).

 

[NorwegianDJ]

I think that she might be attracted to me cause I'm tall, and I'm witty (in a crude way).

So is that everything that makes you attractive? Seems like you got some work to do.

 

[novaknight]

So is that everything that makes you attractive? Seems like you got some work to do.

Well, I'm somewhat smart (not that it means anything in attraction), and have a deep voice (could be a positive, but intimidates girls sometimes).

I just don't know where to start. I can't really go to clubs. I'd do great in a club setting. But that's not an option. Parties are off limits too.

 

[novaknight]

Gonna try to give the girl a shot tomorrow. Starting to get buttf\/cked up the ass by assignments. My worst class this years gonna be english, the teacher is INSANE with grading. Just how insane is she? Well, she claims to grade essays based on "SAT standards". What a load of bull****, I usually score 5s and 6s on my SAT essays, 10-12 combined score (which aren't even that hard to do by my standards). Yet when I wrote an essay much better than my usual fare, she gave me and the rest of the class a 3. She claims she grades SAT essays too. All I'm gonna say is that I don't want her as one of the graders when I take the SAT on saturday.

But hey, at least my target is there (lets call her HB shorty). I really got no idea how to progress this along. Hope I figure out how to score high on the essays and the HB this year.

 

[novaknight]

Today she was talking to her friends, mixed sets always scare the hell outta me. To be perfectly honest, I *****ed out like a little *****. I have no idea why I *****ed out, but I need to take action.

Just what action should I take? I tried opening her but I still don't get what I need!

Also, I benched a 120 today in gym class/510 leg press (full motion). Yeah, that's weak as hell but I Think that's the highest I ever done for bench without a smith machine.

I might start lifting again, not sure. Always had a strong lower body (probably due to genetics/the type of activity I do), but the upper body always lags behind.

I'm more concerned with pulling this year and increasing my chances at getting into a good college right now though.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 39
Day off from school today. I've been working on my book. Also excited for my second FBLA (Future Business Leaders of America) meeting next week.

I've been nominated for National Honors Society, but decided not to waste my time with the applications. Only 25% of the people get in, and the guy whos in charge of my main extracurricular activity (Pep Band) does not work in my school anymore, meaning I can't get a hold of him before the deadline is up.

I'm starting to take band class seriously too. Last year I just didn't give a **** about it at all, and wrote rhymes and did homework the whole class. For some reason, I'm starting to develop an unusual interest in it again. Apparantly, I have quite a good amount of natural ability (in Elementary school, the director said I used to play a good year ahead of my ability). Also, my performance audition in my freshman was great (girl told me the band director was raving about it for the whole day). But I blew everything off last year, and didn't give a **** about anything.

This year I've decided to be good again. Started practicing like crazy these past two weeks. Ready to rape my seating audition piece up the arse tomorrow!

If I can't be good at girls at this point of life, at least I can be good at something I like. This year will be my best year playing in band, I can tell already. Practicing is actually fun again.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 40
My audition went decent today, thought I coulda done better, but the director said I did great. Objectively speaking, its good, but the problem is if everyone else did even better I'd be stuck with a low seat.

Yesterday I ripped through 4 full size boards in Martial Arts. A pleasant surprise! It left me with a nasty bruise though. What can I say, no pain no gain! Broke a personal record after a terrible performance the day before. Also pulled off a jumping break.

If I can manage to squeeze in another board, and hit 5 CONSISTENTLY, I have a real good chance at breaking a cinderblock. Right now I can do 4 on a good day, need to up my standards.

My goal in band is first chair, and to make the highest band level (I'm at the second highest band this year)

 

[novaknight]

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[novaknight]

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[novaknight]

Entry 41
Took the SAT today. All i'm gonna say is the testing conditions SUCKED. SUCKED.

Mighta done okay though. We'll see.

Bruise from board break is healing well.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 42
Man, some of my teachers are MAD GAY.

This Bio Teacher gave me a zero on an assignment because my team members were absent due to family/religious reasons (they told the teacher but never told me). Gotta argue with him over it tomorrow.

English teacher loves making Honors level kids do AP level work. 'Nuff said.

Math teacher is awesome. History teacher's cool.

Benched 135lbs in gym class today. Failed at 145, might have been able to do 100lbs. This is WITHOUT a smith machine, I'm abandoning smith machines. They're weak sauce.

Last year I can barely do 100lbs (no machine), now I can do 100 with ease.

Still having problems with girls though.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 43

See HB shorty tomorrow. No idea what I can do.

Gym class tomorrow. Shooting for 145 lbs bench this time. I don't get what's with the sudden increase in strength, but hey, that's a good thing!

 

[novaknight]

Entry 43

See HB shorty tomorrow. No idea what I can do.

Gym class tomorrow. Shooting for 145 lbs bench this time. I don't get what's with the sudden increase in strength, but hey, that's a good thing!

I stopped using my long arms as an excuse to why I can't get stronger.

 

[novaknight]

Entry 44: ****kk!

I absolutely sucked today at benching. Couldn't even do 135 like last time.

Still stuck at what to do with HB Shorty.

Homecoming's coming up soon though. I had some fun grinding hoes last year, maybe I can do it again this year.

I like homecoming because everyone is so loose at the event. I can grind with random chicks with no repercussions. It's one giant grindfest in our school, cool thing is that its dark so they can't really see my face.